Waiting/Wanting to be Fucked

I am nervous and frightened as I wait here to be fucked by a man.  I have never had sex with a man before and although I want to do it, I am scared.  Part of me wants to feel a hard cock up my arse and to feel it pumping into me but yet I am fearful.  Will it hurt I wonder.  I have got a very tight back passage and I fear that I may not be able to take a rampant cock inside me.  Will it cause me to bleed or will my opening widen naturally to accommodate the erect organ? 

I have never touched or been touched by a man and I am curious to know how it feels.  I have never felt or seen another man's penis but I so long to do so.  I would love to see it get hard and I would love to put it in my mouth and kiss, lick and suck on it.  I would like to taste the cream as the penis gives up its contents into my eager mouth and I would dearly love to swallow the lot.  If it is a big penis I wonder if I shall be able to take its whole length in my mouth.  I shall certainly try.

I want to be fucked so much and yet I am afraid that I may not give satisfaction.  I will try to please but I truly do not know how.  I hope that the gentleman who's going to fuck me, will be patient with me and will show me how to please him. 

I do not know how he will get his penis into me.  Will I have to pull my buttocks apart and open myself up to receive him?  Will he open me and if he does will he be gentle with me?  Will I need to be lubricated to assist him in entering me?  What if I am too tight?  Will he be able to force his way inside me?  I only wish to please him and I hope that he will not be angry with me for being so inexperienced and so tight.

I am shaking with fear now and I just wish that he would come soon and put me out of my misery.  Oh how I long to be fucked and to feel and suck a man's hard cock.  I want him inside me and I want him desperately.

I am dripping with pre-cum and desire as I wait.  Soon I hope to experience the joy of being fucked and the excitement of tasting cock for the first time.  I hope I will like it.  I know that I will.  I want to be forced to give myself and to suck cock.  I hope that the gentleman who initiates me will be pleased with me.  If he is not, then I hope that he will beat me

I am extremely submissive and would love to be a Male Slave to the right Mistress/Master.  I promise total obedience, devotion and adoration to the right person and my happiness will be of no importance as long as they are happy with me.  I will accept the right of my owner to punish me in any way that they think appropriate if I should disappoint or displease

Please I beg of you, call me and use me as you will.  I will cater to your every desire and help you to make your fantasies realities.  I promise to make up for my lack of experience with my enthusiasm and willingness to learn.  All I ask is that you give me a chance to prove my worth and I will endeavour to please you in any way that you may require of me.

I am your humble slave,Susanna