I parked in the garage. My Element was on the street. She wanted me to make a quick getaway no doubt.
She remained in her seat, her hands folded on her lap. I got out, went to her side and opened the door. Other than a date nearly sixteen years ago, I'd never done that before. Now? I knew I ‘d better or the consequences were going to be worse than they already were.
I have now served my Supreme Beautiful Goddess Danielle for 2,5 year and i have now earned the greatest honor a sissy can earn from her Supreme Goddess. Supreme Goddess Danielle decided to send me a lock for my chastity so she in this way will be able to control my pathetic and worthles sissy clitty. Today i was locked up and am now the sissy chastity maid of Supreme Beautiful Goddess Danielle. I made a pledge to show my Goddess my complete devotion and i am so proud to show you all. I now live to serve Goddess Danielle completely. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWtwxi5Rqfk and http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IGy-gKCLO7Q
I've been locked in a male chastity cage since the onset of puberty. I've never masturbated. I did not have sex before marriage. I'm never unlocked unless granted by my keyholder (which was my father from the time of puberty until I got married and the keys were then handed over to my wife on our wedding night, and she became my keyholder). I'm now 36, my wife and I have three sons (11, 8 & 5) and we see no reason for me to orgasm ever again. I will lock my three sons when they reach puberty. At that time I will become their keyholder until they marry. I have a twin brother (unmarried) who lives the same lifestyle. In fact, all the males in my family, whether related by blood, marriage, or adopted all live this lifestyle.
7 days locked, 5 to go. Needless to say, i'm quite ready to be released by now. However it's a very intense feeling, too. My balls are swollen a bit, because i obviously cannot release the pressure that has built up so slowly. Now the device feels even tighter and fits even safer because it can't almost move anymore. My penis really started to hurt in the mean time, because the cage is so small, and my cock is hardly ever limp but tries to become erect most of the time so it's always a little painfull. I guess i have some lack of self control here.
I am looking for a cb9000. If anyone would know how I could get one of these that would be nice if you would please let me know. If anyone has a used one, that would be good as well.
I truely love my husband. He is such a great man. I met him online when I was seeking a husband. He was so perfect! We had very long discussions stayed up all night talking til 5 am. He is so smart and funny. He is very sexy too. I remember kissing him the first time, I love his lips.
Just some random thoughts not worth a blog a peice.
People ask me how many days he has been locked. I don't know I dont track them at all. To me it seems like he was out the night before last. He says its day 5 today. No I never give him a time frame of a release day. I will let him out when I feel like it. When ever that is is when he can be out next, he doesn't complain. It could be in the next few hours if the mood strikes me or months I don't know so neither does he.
Last night we chatted. I was very worked up. The problem was I asked to make sure babies were asleep the pause that followed indicated he was checking. I was so excited. I was going to go back there and drag him to the bed by his balls to spank him, but the mood was killed when he walked into the kitchen so he could go smoke. I didn't want him to come to me, I wanted him to go back to the computer. We did go outside but I couldn't find the mood again when we came back in. It wasn't the same as the suprize I wanted to give him. I haven't spanked him yet, but since I like slapping his face I believe I will like spanking him also..
I could use tips on not losing my mood because the plan needs changed... I will be working on this.
The night before last did not go as I had planned. Cj blew it big time. He was finishing up bedtime with the kids while I showered. I got all dressed up for him. All white, cute, babydoll type outfit. I even got out the heels I had worn on our wedding day. Once I was finished getting ready I went in on the computer to play music since kids were not sleeping yet. When he walked in he did not give me the look I wanted. There was no excited look in his eyes. I was disappointed. I had planned on playing some old school me music and entertaining him with a lapdance. He was completely distracted and in parenting only mode. He even commented on not likeing a song I had played. It wasn't meant for his enjoyment, I did care he does like that song. Now I'm irritated but we traded computers so I could lay in bed until we were sure everyone was asleep. In the mean time I asked him to keep playing songs for me, hoping to keep the mood from dying. Didn't work he played songs that were not mood boosters for me, by the time uncle cracker came on I had had enough. That is a far cry from NERD, hinder, or 405 boys. Does this man know me? Hello, I'm your wife we are married could you pretend you know me? He said he was trying to avoid beats since baby was trying to go to sleep. Our rooms are right next to eachother but that killed the mood. I got up and changed into mommy wear. I felt unattractive and angry. He was given a "free" day and behaved this way. No more for him!
I stepped outside to calm myself. I addressed the issues with him since he wasn't sure what all he had done wrong. and came back in to go to bed. After a nice back rub I decieded some plain jane vinilla sex might be ok. Once I had things started, I'm not sure how it happened but I started making fun of him. I'm usually not good at it but I was having fun. He ahd hurt my feelings so it was easier to not care. Then he made the face.. The one that tells on him that he is close. I smacked him and told him to stop. He was being weak try to have some control over himself. Atfer a few times, he told me he couldn't control himself any more... So I made fun of him some more and rolled over to my back. I told him he could have at it 30 seconds was not going to bother me.. lol. Needless to say he came. I thought it was so funny. I had a great time. I think we will do this again...
I lay in the darkness of the trunk for maybe five minutes when I heard the door into the garage open and close. I got excited because that meant Denise was coming for me. I heard two car doors open and close but neither of them were the car I was locked inside. That car started, backed up and drove away. The last thing I heard was the garage door closing.
So, The Question. Is this so bad? Well, in that moment as depression swept over me, I would have said yes - and still not known how bad it was going to get. Okay, I wanted out of the trunk, out of the cage and I wanted my life back. But given time to think, I did. Denise looks great in that corset and heels. Okay, she got them from Sheila, so maybe Sheila is a better friend than I thought. The picture of Denise wearing the corset got me hard again. The feeling of the corset material against my hands made it more intense and then her breasts and their fullness made my frustration complete. Denise had gotten me hornier than I'd ever been. I felt the cage in the dark and wondered how serious she was about keeping it on me. Are you kidding? Your locked in the trunk of Sheila's car and you're wondering if she's serious?
I seemed to have misplaced something very important. Just as important as the wedding rings I can't find my swagger. I want it back. I used to be such a fun out going person. I honestly didn't give two shits what anyone else thought about what I was up to. I'm confidience has depleted. It's not my age, people I graduated with are still living it up. Can't be the kids those people have them too. Is it possible I partied so hard then there is nothing left for now? Or is this simply depression?
For 9 of 12 years thats what doctors were treating me for. Bi-polar is a very hard thing to figure out being young makes it worse. I spent so many years going from doctor to doctor, trying this, no that anti-depressant. I wasn't depressed. My crazy behavoir wasn't making me sad. I didn't feel worthless. I was on a rollercoaster ride and taking those around me along for the ride. Those doctors would give me a new medication and I would have a worse result.
Had someone asked me if Denise liked corsets and would she ever wear one, I would have laughed and said no. Now? Well, as the effects of the taser dissipated, I was glad that I was wrong. The shoes, too. Truthfully? My bet was that the heels belonged to Sheila because I know that Denise didn't have any shoes like that. But as I stared at them, my dick began to be glad that Sheila and her wardrobe was Denise's best friend. Denise looked absolutely delicious. My dick throbbed and Denise noticed.
Im going to tell you alittle about me and my family. I am a 27 yr old stay at home mom. I like playing with my kids, sewing and sex. I have been married 3 yrs in October to my husband Cj. He is 31 and is in auto maintance and services management. We have two boys. C2008 is 2 1/2, he was not planned and messed up my wedding date but I wouldnt change it for anything. C2010 , 6 months, was planned. I had a miscarriage in between the two. I would like to have 4 boys in the long run. If the next one is a girl Im done. lol. I dont know how soon I will want to try again. I am just enjoying the ones I have right now. I am bi-polar which can complicate things. There may be times you think you are talking to a different person but its just my mood shift. I do take some medication but prefer to handle most of it with coping skills. Sex is a huge one.
My brother is 20 he also lives with me. We have a complicated realtionship, Im sister/mother but its always been that way. He had a partialy completed appartment in the basement. The house we live in was my grandma's. We all moved in to help take care of her so she could stay out of a nursing home. Cj was very supportive. He also delt with the after math of my family after her death I had a breakdown and left the state to stay with his parents.
I have been in some type of treatment program since I was 14. Sex became a noticeable problem for me in college. I was having sex at 16 but once I hit college I was no longer picky about who I was having sex with. Pretty much any one who was game. That included girls and 3somes. I had a great time.
Once I got alittle older I was looking to settle down. I dated about 6 men in attempt to find a husband. Cj was one of them. I was very clear though that I would be no ones girlfriend. Cj was on one of the online dating sites I went through. I started talking to him and femdom came up pretty much in the begining. Before we had even had a physical date. When I choose him I told him he would have to wait to call me his girlfriend until after I returned from a trip I had already planned with a college friend. The purpose of the trip was a sexual encounter. The other man was my favorite partner from college. I informed Cj of my intent to have sex with this man. I could not be comitted as I am not a cheater.
When I became pregnant with C2008 I was pissed and thats putting it nicely. I wanted kids but not anytime soon. I had already planned my wedding date, have places booked etc. Of all the years I had used birth control Im glad the only failier I had with it was with the person I love. So I moved up the date so I would fit in my dress. Everything worked out it was just stressful.
As some of you may have read, my husband tricked me into this chasity deal. below is the post I made my first day here in the forum. Then I will fill you in about "Kate"
"I am looking for advice on what to do now. My husband and I have be intrested off and on in chasity. Recently he decieded to trick me. Long story short. He made up a female who responded to a post I made somewhere. She friended me. We retruned email every day for about 3 weeks before I figured out it was him for sure. I am so pissed he tricked me. I do understand that he thought he was helping me. I did become more comforatble thinking there was someone else out there who thinks like me. Finally having the extra push to lock him up did make me feel great. The best I have felt in a long time. I felt the closeness we had been missing. Then it all turned out to be a lie. I am so angery I feel betrayed. I dont know where to go from here"
Day 02 - General thoughts on chastity ===========================
Welcome back,
as often mentioned, the brake-in period of a chastity training session can easily be the hardest part of it all. It takes some time to get used to it, i mean, wow, there suddenly is this metal cage between your legs and whenever you get an erection it's kind of painful. But there is more.
The hardest thing is the sudden cut in your daily sexual habbits. As for me, i'm actually used to - or - i like to masturbate right after i get up in the morning, or have sex with my GF, whatever is possible. But with a chastity device, the first thing when you reach down in the morning is your needy cock all locked away. This is usually the hardest part of the day. And the most frustrating. Get up, get dressed, do breakfast, and all with this permanent need to orgasm, the pressure in my balls and the burning desire to get my cock sucked. Yeah that's right. I have to constantly fantasize about those soft and tender lips, caressing my cock... Mhh it drives me insane more than once a day.
Today as I was painting outside she startled me. I beautiful long large praying mantis. She is the altimate Domme. She takes what is hers and then kills him. That is truely the harshest punishment for his short time of joy. He spreads his seed then she eats him. It would make a wonderful name for a true Professional Domme.
I am no professional nor do I want to be. I'm a loving wife, mother, woman, who is also Domme Kh. I am starting the journey to learn to balance these things in everyday life. When I joined the site I am who I was seeking. I'm looking for another Miss Average life who is also a kh. So far I have not made any Domme friends. So I thought I would be one for the next wife who doesn't know what the hell is going on. lol.
I don't know how well of a blogger I will be but I will try. Life gets a bit crazy. this week I will post some general info through these blogs of how I came to be here.
