Well, it has been some time. Updated bio to show that i am now in OR. Been back here a few years now, back to my home town. Had gone back into the closet, but with the right encouragement... So, may dab/dive back into the lifestyle and would like to make contact with local persons, into the lifestyle... a key holder or local Dominant female/woman willing to delve into the lifestyle with me.
My Lady is away working on big course for Her career and once this is done. She want's me to stay at home and look after Her house as Her career will be there for me to become completely dependent on Her. She had me sign a note from the bank so She will have total control over me.
Do believe that my training is improving steadily towards becoming Her sissy husband and She will lead me from now on. No questions from me as i have all the faith in My Lady. Momma has been giving me some instruction on what My Lady needs to be happy. Having a dependent sissy, waiting at home and looking after Her house gives My Lady the trust in me. This has been a real learning curve for me and hope that She is always pleased.
Now i am really feeling a deep satisfaction way down inside that brings on a glow of fulfillment and love. Making a beautiful, clean home is the happiness i have always wanted.
Looking back and realizing i have not had any orgasm for over two years. My Lady has been giving some medication for my health and something to suppress my male urges. A few months ago i stopped having morning stiffness and My Lady said that maybe a side effect.
Then My Lady told me that the stiffness protects me from leaking during my sleep. Now i have become dependent on wearing a diaper and rubber pants just encase of my loss of control but My Lady seems to enjoy my dependants on Her.
Keeping me in a warm condition lowers any healthy sperm growth. Now i have not felt that hormonal motivation that i remember when we first met. Still very attracted to My Lady but find doing Her bidding and looking after Her house gives me great pleasure. My Lady and Momma are always looking for ways to improve their pets training.
My Ladies, Momma is staying at our home more and everyone is getting along very well. For me getting direction 's from two Ladies has been bothering me because of training of two things at the same time. Following instruction's is getting better on my part and my training is improving steadily towards becoming the household sissy. There is a lot more work to do on my part but i feel like i am up to the changes.
Dressed like a sissy husband has become more comfortable then i could imagine. Now i wake up dreaming of what i will wear and it is mostly a balance of pink and white dresses. Find out that is difficult to keep clean even with an apron on while washing the floors, the laundry is easier to stay spotless.
My Lady is working more at Her career and i am so impressed with Her capacity to deal with all of the work She starts and finishes. Hard to plan a yummy dinner for Her as i am not very sure when She will arrive home. Her career is more important and i am learning to be patient. Having Momma here is a great help as She needs to be able to look after Her Daughter's household and sissy husband.
Now i have to go out side to get the yard ready for spring, we had an extra long winter this year.
When I met my wife, I introduced her to bondage. If she had not done it before, she sure took to it. She liked it a lot, and we also had normal sex. A number of years ago I showed her a chastity device online. She said buy it, so I did. We first got a CB3000, but it was just not a good fit for me. I'm a grower, from maybe 2" to 6". It was not a good fit and too painful to wear. So we tried a CB6000s.
That was a much better fit. I pretty much had to wear that 85% of the time. Now sex was either bondage, or I had to service her for hours, with my mouth , or vibes, or whatever she wanted. When she was done, only the top part of the cage was taken off and she jerked me off and I had about a min to cum. Pretty much over time, she just trained me to shot for her, now within less then 30 seconds, if that. Fortunately she likes to see me shoot. Now after a number of years of her "training" I no longer have any control. When she first told me to take the whole cage off and enter her, I could barely get all the way into her before I lost it and exploded. At first she thought that was cute, that she had gotten me to the point of no control at all. Now not so much. Now over time with the CB6000s, it's really not so great to wear 24/7. I have broken a lot of parts, spilt the cage and ended up cut or with black and blue marks all over. I'm in a smaller ring(as I broke the next size up) but it's a tighter fit, at least during the day, but far too painful to wear at night. So right now , I am let out at night. I read the reviews on the new Holy Trainer. It's "supposed" to be a lot better to wear 24/7. I showed the pics to my wife, she said by the small one and in Pink. That took her all of 30 seconds to decide that..LOL It should be here in a week or so. As things stand right now, I have to clean the house twice a week, But I have to do this dressed up in her stockings, heels, bra, a collar on. I pretty much have to stay like that most of the day. Once the HT gets here, and I can make it thru a few nights, with out MAJOR pain, or injury. Then I will go back to being locked 24/7 and she will only let me out to shave and clean the device. as far as penetration sex goes. If she really feels like a good "fucking" that lasts longer then 30 seconds, I would say i'm back to using the strap-on for her. I am pretty useless as a penetration sex partner for her now, she has seen to that. Being locked up 24/7 again, in what may be a smaller cage, and allowed no erections what so ever, will probably make it worse. I may not make it half way in before I lose control.
The few times she lets me enter her, I can usually make it all the way in and give her a few strokes. But there have been a few that I barely got the head in and lost it. I don't think the new cage will help this...
That is some of the teasing i am hearing once in a while. The fulfillment that i have in dressing like a sissy is very pleasing to me. Following My Lady and Momma around the stories shopping is great fun for me. My Lady and Momma help me pick out clothing that is tasteful but Feminine and pink is my favorite colour.
Thank goodness we live in an age of open minds and people don't react to aggressive to odd looking people. There was a day i wouldn't wear earrings or wear my hair up in a French roll. For the past few months my growth into sissy hood has grown and there are still more levels to rise to. Yes i wear dresses and have moved beyond a training bra to wearing a form fitting bra, my size is very small but i am very conscious of the little bumps out front.
Think the trick to going out dress to please is not to look for acceptance from any one. Those who are not pleased will walk away and i make real friends while feeling pretty.
Anyone in the Uk interested in a Lori 2C? Alas, circumstances mean that it looks like my 2C might be going up for sale. I'd be looking for circa £450 if anyone is interested. Drop me a line if you want to know more.
It's been a while, I'm giving chastity a go again. Over time I've had relative successes and failures. Probably the most significant failure is not being able to wear the CB6000 for a prolonged period of time. This was to be expected and while there are better devices out there, I'm opting for a belt. There are a few reasons for this:
Security - A well made belt is pretty damn secure
Aesthetics - I just find belts to be more visually appealing than devices and while crossdressing I love the idea of a belt giving me a smoother profile down there
I'm really drawn to the idea of wearing a full belt, I'd say it's actually quite a turn on for me
I've almost managed to save up enough for a belt, if all things go well I think I should be ready to place an order within a few months.
The belt I've decided on is a Neosteel Masterpiece Total. This is the model with the continuous crotch band. I'm opting for this over the thong as it seems messy and not too convenient having to pull the wire out of the way when using the toilet. I've spoken with a few people who wear the continuous band and they don't have any comfort issues with it. It also has the advantage of being able to wear the secondary shield and, if brave enough, the remote education shield (aka shocks delivered through an anal plug).
Looks like the only issues left are:
Where to get it delivered to (complicated family situation)
About time i started a blog .Well going to get my first corset in a few hours cant wait!!Bit by bit its happening just getting so frustrated now even to the point of just giving my key to someone from the classifieds but thats not what i want for me the biggest turn on ever in my whole life will be when she opens the high security lock from its box cor i can feel myself leaking just writting about it and procedds to put the metal ring around my package then put my tiny cock in the steel tube and then wow that sound SNAP and i no longer am a man !
Ihave looked everywhere and smile to myself when i see so called small dick hummiliation Mine when soft is at best 2 " long well i would say a tiny bit bigger than a cocktail sausage
While Momma was here for a two week visit, She had plenty of time to teach me house keeping skills. Just the only and proper way to scrub the floors with a hand brush and a good rinse so it remains clean enough to eat off. There are so many finer details about house keeping that i was not aware of. Momma spent count less hours going over all the little things.
Being in a dress and my hair done up into a little bun on top of my head, i felt more then ready to learn new skills as the days went by. Momma did like the fact that i didn't put anything off and got right to it. Working away at cleaning is an on going job and every trip through the house i should be picking up or dusting. As Momma says it take about three months to form a good habit so that's how She reforms bad habits.
My Lady was so please with some of my progress and My Lady and Momma would collaborate for my benefit in training. As some of these discussions were done with out my presents, i have the shorter version's as i seem to be controlled like a child when given instructions. This would have insulted me a few years ago but now i feel so much faith in My Ladies ways that i will become more dependant on every part of my life and well being.
As my transition continues, i find myself still sensitive to the spoken word. Yes i do blush and smile brightly when i hear compliments about my hair or anything to do with my transition. Not looking for the shock and awe but a gentle acceptance as a nice person.
Now in just a few short years, my dressing style has change so much i don't even think about wearing male clothing. My Lady can read me like a open book and instructed me on just what to do. Sometimes it is an open scolding when She wants me to try on a pair of Ladies shoes in the store, believe me i just do it now.
Just stop to think about how grateful i am to have My Lady always think for me and directing me to happiness. Learning about every little thing, like how self conscious i am wearing a padded bra in public. My Lady is correct as no one has openly said anything to me, so it is all just in my mind.
As My Lady is working most of the time in Her office and i cannot disturb Her. Her work is a very special project that will advance her career. So being quite in the house is my only job sometimes. Then talking in a whisper voice to Momma about interesting topic's on the news and light house keeping.
Then a few afternoons ago Momma suggested i have a nap. At first i didn't feel like a nap but Momma repeated Her self and i did what i was told. This really made me feel controlled and this was just a small but very important command to learn from. There must be some sort of mannerism that i am showing and this is a time out for my misbehaviour.
That first time i was wearing a pretty laced blouse, skirted jumper with leggings and my favorite flats. Then after i woke up after my little nap, feeling refreshed. An odd thing became a new level to my training as a sissy. Listening and obeying is the first sigh of total respect to my superior's. This is the life style i have always dreamt of and it is happening to me now.
I've been in my device for days. Not weeks mind you, just days, but the first week is always the hardest, and I'm at my most vulnerable and my horniest before I settle in to being locked up.
While I was just finishing washing up for bed, doing a good job cleaning my tube, my KH came in and watched me washing it for a minute. I got so hard I couldn't continue washing it bcs I could no longer get my finger in to do any cleaning.....
After getting a good laugh at my discomfort, she produced the key and said, "wash well, but leave on your base ring because I'm letting you out but I am not planning letting you cum. You can lock up after I'm done with you."
My Lady and Her Mother, Momma took me out shopping for new clothing. My Lady picked out beautiful blouses with pretty colours and lace for me. Then some dusty rose pink slack's that have patterns of butterflies on the pant leg's. Momma agreed with My Lady that i would look good in these as making sure the fit was just right. No one in the store paid any attention to us as to treat me a person in the wrong place.
Some how the embarrassment of shopping for sissy clothing is starting to fade for me and is becoming a real freedom. Thou i am limited to what i can wear as for my size , 12 and an 11 shoe size. These sizes are in the top end of Women's sizing but they are in the stores. Once i realize that this will work out and i can go out in public dressed as pretty sissy and they don't chase me out of the stores has become a great relief to my well being.
Some how i thought that my diaper wearing was a secret for Momma and i was going to keep that way for my own ego protection. While we were in Costco, Momma approached me and told me to go and get my nappies because She knew my supply was a little low. Having to carry the big pink box through the cashier was a little uneasy, then My Lady telling the cashier that the diapers were for me. The cashier just gave a little smile and a look my way of understanding.
As Momma loved to read my daily emails now i have to talk out my feelings to Her in person. Momma is a very well read Lady with a full range of topics of world events. Do believe i am able to keep up with many of Her current events enough to be entertaining. While having these conversations with Momma and My Lady i am wearing my sissy clothes and my hair done in a bun.
The real big change is having these talks in person as My Ladies sissy. Doing the house keeping and being monitored by two well read Ladies. The most amazing part of this, is how normal this arrangement is becoming. Being corrected at almost everything i do and if i get out of hand i am scolded promptly. This makes me feel very dependant on these Ladies commands and instruction. Believe me when i tell you there is only one way to do things here now and the rules have to be obeyed.
Just having a taste of what my life will become and realizing that this will be a lot of work on my part. As My Lady explains to me about keeping up on current topics helps a stay at home sissy mind to keep it active. Though a sheltered life can change some ones thinking as routines slow the creative thinking. My Lady doesn't want a boring pet at home, so i have been forewarned. My Lady has long term arrangements planned for me as i believe i am a worth while pet companion for Her and Momma.
Do you dream of a woman owning and controlling your cock? I WILL own your cock and all you have to do is close your eyes and imagine that I am there, standing over you, giving you detailed instructions on what to do and when and when not to cum. Or I will create a teasing and denial fantasy that will leave your head and cock spinning with lustful frenzy.Come into My possession. I will find out all about you through psychological and intellectual probing. I am an educated Mistress in all things seductive and erotic. Tell Me your deepest and darkest desires and I will transport you to that time, to that place and to that feeling. We can be whatever you want us to be. I can be your Goddess, your teacher, your worst nightmare, your evil Mistress. I will wrap you around My finger and I will own and galvanize your mind.
And all you need to do is submit yourself to me and accept the FACT that you are MINE and i am in control every stroke of you're cock,and when you will cum and you will realized you are my sex slave.. Those are just a few examples on how I want to penetrate and control your mind. I am keen on listening and gathering detail. I want to know the smallest details of your mind so that I can use them to weave your perfect fantasy. Detail is an important component to the art of seduction much like the orchestration of a song, an art piece or the writing of a novel. If you like to be feminized, controlled, humiliated, tortured, or simply enchanted. I will delve down and make it real for you. Just close your eyes and imagine.
My Ladies, Mother who i address as Momma will be coming for a week long visit soon. About a year ago My Lady instructed me to write Momma every day and explain my feelings. As i email the same letter to My Lady at the same time so She can monitor my progress along with Her, Mother. Sometime it has become a little uncomfortable but i do write to get my emotions and feelings out there.
Not only am i to write about what makes me happy but what upsets me and why. To have this sort of behaviour monitored is starting to be come a good habit. Now i find myself checking to see what kind of mood i am in. Now i am starting to realize that there is a rainbow of feelings and emotions. As before there was only goals to achieve with my old male attitude.
Now i o realize that when Momma comes to visit i will be dressed as a sissy with my apron on. Momma will want to talk about my feelings face to face. These Ladies really like to pry deep in the questioning and my answers cannot be short. Think my fear is i will have no place to hide and will really have to be outward and honest. These Ladies are very intelligent and i do amuse them as there care about me and how well i do.
Yesterday My Lady returned after visiting Her Mother and they had a good visit for two days. The two Ladies had a big discussion about me and have made plans. As i have improved over the years of training and monitoring , proving i am loyal and well behaved. Learning my lessons well and showing some emotions. As i have become more of a sissy pet and home maker.
They seem to both agree that i should step away from my business and let the people run the shop with out me. This does take me away from fully focusing on the house hold duties and i do agree. Now i have to finish the house we live in and prepare to sale our home. Then move down to Momma's home on a beautiful lake and manage the house hold for My Lady and Her Mother. They both love the idea of having a control over a sissy that has good intentions, wanting only to please and farther my transition to wearing a apron full time as Momma likes to say.
After living in the same home for over thirty years i believe i should walk gently away from my past. As My Lady told me that it would be hard for full transition around the people i have known all my life. Then i could feel My Lady wanting more control and a sense of me being totally dependant on My Lady. Then, i do want to be totally controlled by these wonderfully intelligent, worldly Ladies.