Let me introduce myself my name is Jacqueline, born in the 60ties in the Netherlands and thru marriage moved to Belgium. Married now for over 25 years to my husband who is older than me, and with him we have 3 beautiful children. My husband and I started our own firm and must admit very successfully, where I have worked with him as full partner. A couple of years ago I decided to retire.
About 5 years ago I found out that my husband had a affair with a girl in the office, instead of being devastated and confront him with that I took matters in own hands and found myself a handsome Lover. In the first years I did it secretly, mostly quick encounters in cheap hotels. Last year the youngest daughter left the house for study. From that moment lot of things changed in our house.
This was the moment I confronted him with his affair and made him perfectly clear that it was gonna end and for future I was in control in our marriage. I gave him a choice obey or I would divorce him, I know it sounds harsh but he choose wisely. (Think splitting the firm was no option).
I took this step after a lot of consideration ( and gaining information on the internet about Cuckolding cause that's what this is). So I came across chastity devices and since the beginning of this year he is wearing a CB3000. My Lover is visiting me now regularly at home and my husband is the perfect host. He is not in any way sexually involved in my meetings with my Lover, but I always makes sure what my Lover means to me.
With all the little changes My Lady has taught me through Her training. Last night My Lady allowed me to take Her to a community function, i was so proud to be by Her side as all the men gave Her the extra long look. Now i can close my eyes and see Her beautiful smiling face and Her infectious laugh, people are natural drawn to Her. As i sat there smiling in my gridle panties, bra and womans jeans. With the hair style and earings My Lady picked out for me, feeling like a proud owned sissy.
Today i was dressed in my usual but this time i put in my small falsies and didn't tell My Lady. My Lady wanted me to go look at some tools a friend of Hers was selling and i said i would love to go. My Lady took one look at me and then felt my falsies and a devilish smile came over Her face, i knew i had pleased My Lady. My Ladies friend had a treasure trove of tools to help me with remodeling our house. My Lady is always thinking way a head of me which is the best feeling for me, to be looked after.
Back at the house i started to try and hide the dungeon equipment in the garage for when the door is open and some one sees it. Wow can't wait for My Lady to post some pictures for the site. This is serious equipment for long term bondage scenes for which My Lady talks about usually while i'm driving us some where.
My Lady has such a beautiful way of showing me how to live as Her pet. The way She glides into a room with regal grace and dominance, make my heart pound in my throat.
The one special charm My Lady has is i never know what is coming, She is my natural leader in my life. Knowing how shy i am My Lady has me act and wear as much as She believes at the moment to keep me sissified. Some how She has made me addicted to being feminine and submissive.
With the treasure trove of ladies clothes She has bought for me to wear. Then all of the bondage and dungeon equipment plays on my mind every moment of the day and night. The thought that at any moment My Lady at Her whim can have me bound and gagged so escape proof with Her knowledge of the human body. My Lady just makes me
After two beautiful days with My Lady dress like a goddess, i really didn't want to put on my work clothes (shudder). Could not believe i felt so good dressed so woman like, i caught a glimps of myself in every mirror and couldn't believe what i saw. Then My Lady would grab my hand to hold it and then grab my bottom. Felt so warm inside like tingling in my hips, my nipples are so sensitive even a breeze make then electric.
Then reality showed it's ugly face as text message from work came pouring in. Friday was going to be a work day i wasn't looking forward to. My Lady had made arrangements for the both of us to pick up the rest of the dungeon equipment. My Lady took Her Daughter to help move the rest to our house. Feeling like a heel and jammed up at work i was worried something would go wrong in My Ladies move. Yes i was at work but my mind was some place else so worried i had let My Lady down, with Her wisdom and understanding She understood my demands at work.
Finally got the nerve up to text My Lady to see if She was making out alright. As i waited for the return text, My Lady pulls up in the van with big smile on both of thier pretty faces and a bag of freshly bake muffins. Well mypet We got everything moved to the house, the look on both of the faces was a proud moment for them. The relief was like a cold pail of water being poured over my head.
On our little trip my female passing would be a goal to achive. As my wonderful Lady nugs me forward to change over to Her wife. After we had settled down in the hotel room after a long rainy day of packing. Being able to unwind My Lady said why don't you go for a swim pet, I pack you a bathing suit. After a couple of moments of realizing i should go swiming with My Ladies Daughter. My Lady handed me a one piece womans bathing suit.
The bathing suit was tight and i believe i tucked well the feeling of being almost naked in the hall and pool. Made me feel so sexy but i didn't get hard which was a shock to me. Then i felt so vulnerable being out there as a woman may feel at times. As we floated around the pool we talked about a lot of things and i thanked My Ladies Daughter for being so understanding. Then it was time to go back up to the room we had spent an hour chatting and floating i was suprised how long we were.
My Lady met us at the door with a big smile and She looked please that we had a good time sharing and swiming. Here pet I am going to set your hair in curlers for tomorrow. Wow for over an hour My Lady worked on my hair. After pizza a movie and chatting it was bed time.
as a male in lockup, i can't imagine how much time i still waste going online and looking through FemDom material day in and day out. All this time spent could be put toward something much more productive, such as learning a new skill, reading a good book, or exercising. But not me, no sir (or ma'am). As a horny male in my early 30's, i still feel the constant urge to surf for FemDom pics, vids, and the like. Even being locked for most of the month doesn't stop me. i still am drawn to these websites and still try to find excitement in the world of Female Domination and male submission. i can only imagine how much self-gratifying would be happening if i was not in chastity by my Girlfriend. Maybe, just maybe, i will be able to change my habits, but for now, i am online and looks like i'll be here for a while.....
Today we will be picking up the rest of the dungeon equipment. Extremely excited My Lady has great plans for me and the new dungeon. Seems every day is like Christmas My Lady is like an artist as She works on me to mold me into life style pet. Then i realized that i am very comfortable waiting and doing what every My Lady thinks is necessary. Then it feels so good when She is pleased.
Tomorrow we travel to the university to pick up My Ladies Daughter for the summer break. My Lady has expressed the fact that She would love to have me dress as a woman on this journey. The thought just made me tingle all over, wondering what My Lady will pick out for me to wear. Knowing She has great taste in fashion and takes great pride in how i look. Looking back at our last trip i just have fawn memoriers.Of looking good and interacting with the public in broad daylight. When one goes into transition the first outing is special.
The fact that My Lady knew this and pushed me towards me coming out,is a skill level unkown to me. That is why i have so much faith in My Ladies guidance and control. Always trying to do my best to please and knowing My Lady is always watching and making a list of short comings that will need to be corrected. Even though my behavier is not motivated by fear. The fact remains when hoplessly bound and gagged with my bottom in the air, My Lady will remind me of my poor behavier.
Fun times, fun times. Dressing up fun this week, and more back to myself than the past few weeks.
i have been looking in my closet more and more, and did some experimenting with outfits these past couple of days. Have sooo missed my dressing up, more than i ever believed that i would. Raiding the closet, and trying things on again, made me feel so much more like myself this week than i would have ever believed. Also did a little more cleaning while wearing my fem clothing. Felt great to be like this. Especially when i was finished with the cleaning, and saw the results of how the place looked afterwards, as i was cleaning with a Maids mindset, instead of a mans. When i do the cleaning dressed, and with a maids mindset, i have noticed that i do a lot more detailed cleaning, and work even harder to make everything look perfect when it is done.
However, todays cleaning while wearing my Fem clothes was a bit of a disapointment as well. That is because my plans for the morning were ruined due to the holiday. I dressed up in order to go shopping for some perfume. Mistress and Master had ordered me to go out dressed for the shopping trip, in full face, and with my hair in french braided pigtails. Was wearing some very tight jeans, heels, my turqouis and black bra (with my bra inserts that i had bought from Walmart a few weeks ago to really fill them out, and make it look more real), and a sleeveless sweater, so that you could see the bra through the arms, and so that the bra straps could "accidentally" fall off my shoulder and be visible on occasion. Spent quite a bit of time getting ready for this shopping trip today, even redoing my makeup a few times. Wanted to look as good as possible, and feel that i succeeded in doing so. Was quite enthusiastic about how i ended up looking, and feel that Mistress and Master would have been pleased had they seen me in person. i did send them pictures, but don't know if the makeup was clear enough in the pictures for them to know exactly how it had been done.
Yes My Lady is taking control over me and i find myself doing things that i only read about. My Lady has instructed me to write out my deep feelings. The look on My Ladies face tells me this is very important step and i should be serous with what i have learned about my feelings. Ever since i met My Lady i feel like i've been born again. With brand new goals and dreams that were put away in a safe place never to be used because they were not "normal".
My Lady does not treat me like a door matt, but uses compassion and understanding to create Her control. My Lady has made me feel very comfortable in my own skin. Which is an incredible thing to do as She digs out the hidden secrets of my own mind. This was very pleasant at first but like peeling an onion the layers came off. With My Ladies guidance She has shown me a freedom that i have never felt before. Like the old saying, When you get to your horizon you can see another horizon. The meaning to me is once a goal has been reached another one will appear, our choice is do we want another horizon?
With the chasitity there are so many horizons to follow and get to, this starts as soon as one enters the realm of submission. My Lady is having me wear a diaper which is of course very humbling and shameful. The extra padding under my clothes i have become very aware of what i may look like to other people. My Lady wants me to use the diaper for urinating to show if i will do as She has instucted.
I dont know if this is a blog topic but i really need to write about my experience. As some of you know i was supposed to travel to serve my Goddess. I left my home on easter thursday to meet Her in Birmingham airport, as you might imagine i was completely fired up and i packed all my best sissy clothes and offcourse locked up. Somehow i had the fear that she would not show. The last 2 weeks before our meeting i only saw her once on the chat and it really worried me. After the death of Her mother at xmas she have suffered from depresions and not been really herself but as Her sissy maid i offcourse tryed the best i can to support Her and be there for Her. She is a finanacial domme and to me this have been part of the game since we meet about 3 years ago, but over that time my loyalty to Her have brought us closer and i felt that we both had another respect for each other than a normal internet Goddess sissy relationship. She have also showed this to me at several occations i think and my love and adoration for Her have just grown and grown. We decide to meet a few times before, but didnt, but this time it was like a genuine wish from both of us at least that was my impression and we talked a lot about it. She did never meet slaves or sissies before and i loved the fact that i could be Her first experience and it might turn out to be lasting maybe even move into Her and serve Her.
Since She is a financial Goddess she needs to "work" being online and when she is not online she doesnt "earn" anything, when she is not online for longer time something is wrong and as i said the last 2 weeks before our meeting she was not online, except once 2 days before where i asked Her several times if she wanted me to go to which Her answer was Yes!!
So all this made me very very excited and very nervous and worried, and my worries turned very much real when i arrived in the airport and She was not there. I never knew Her postal addres so i could not go there, i was there in the airport alone, worried and extremely ashamed and depressed and angry, with nowhere to go.
Hello all you fine people on chastitylifestyle.com. :) After being a member of this site for a few years, this is the first time that I even found out that we can have our own blog on this site. It will be so wonderful to discuss and detail the different thoughts that randomly pass through my mind as a submissive male in chastity. It was in my late teenage years that I knew I was a submissive at heart. I used to dream about being punished by a Superior Female, and now that I am in my early 30's, these dreams have become a reality. However, it wasn't until around 2004 or 2005 that I even heard about male chastity and orgasm denial. I stumbled across a fictional story about a man that was denied by his girlfriend for weeks at a time, and this struck my submissive side immensely. Then, in 2006, I began dating a lifestyle dominant female, and after a few months she decided it was time restrict my masturbation habits. That was the beginning of a new lifestyle for me, and things havent been the same since....
Yesterday My Lady helped me put up the drywall in Her new bedroom. My Lady was a big help as She would help hold the other end of the board. Seeing how excited My Lady is getting about the design and lay out of the room. With a pink and white colour theme where the laced curtains will hang. Yes i am getting excited too this will be a Ladies bedroom chamber.
About four o'clock i needed to stop and rest. My Lady didn't lock me up because of all the heavy lifting i was doing and She was beside me the whole time. After a nice hot shower i put on a nice dress thru on some bling and my nice big falsies, i felt so sexy. My Lady prepared a wonderful dinner and it looked like we were going to have a sexy night.
Then to phone rang, i had to go to work and it was a 300 km drive one way. The look of disappointment on My Ladies face spoke volumes. As i took off my dress and things and laid out what i was going to wear on the bed. My Lady said pet you don't have to be locked on such a long journey, I want you to wear this diaper. My Lady snapped the order to spread my legs as She wedged the diaper between my legs and taped the corners around my bottom. With a good slap on my bottom My Lady said they will keep you safe, my you will not want any one to see you in them.
After unpacking some of the boxes My Lady brought home from the dungeon. As i sat on my new spanking bench My Lady showed me all of the cuffs and braces. Collars , ballgags and more whips,paddles, crops then i've seen on line. The thigh high boots are so evil looking but very delicious. The sparking in My Ladies hazel eyes just sends thrills and chills through my body.
My Lady has told me to build a steel bar crib with a locking lid. My Lady wants a place to keep Her favorite pet so i will be safe and under control. My Lady wishes this because of the pleasure this will bring Her being able to moniter my fluid and food intake, control my sex drive and of course She would have me in a diapers for longer periods of time. Remember mypet this crib will be for your own good as grow into your new you this will be your safe place. Then you will be more dependent on your Lady, i could see in My Ladies eyes that She has thought about this for a long time.
After all the thoughtful and caring moments My Lady shared with me. Wanting to give something back to show Her how much trust and faith i have in Her role in my life. Asking Her to chose what i will be wearing on our trip to Sudbury next week. My Lady said isn't that interesting mypet, as i was just coming to tell you that I was going to pick your clothes for our trip. My My we are on the same page. Yes My Lady i do so love you so much oxoxo
She's gone again, and I locked up in my CB-6000s, as soon as she was out the door. Initially I inserted a Kept for Her thing that makes the entrance to the tube smaller and helps keep things in place better. Unfortunetly, my experience with this device has remained the same as previous tries. I like how snug it makes everthing, but it's too snug, and then little skinny bits of skin get caught between the CB and the edge of the KFH device and starts to pinch like crazy.
I took of the KFH insert in about 12 hours. When things finally settled down, I uploaded my key combo to Keyholder.307. But not for a long time. It's good in that it makes it so many more steps to unlock, it's easier to manage my natural proclivities, even if I could get at the key.
Funny and almost serious thing happened when I went to upload the key. After setting all the settings on the page, I uploaded it, flipped screens, deleted my image of the combination PDF, and then was on my way to empty the trash when I noticed something wrong with the Keyholder webpage.
My Lady informed She will be going to pickup a few boxes of the smaller pieces. From Her Lady Domme friends house today. As every little detail falls calmly into place My Ladies grand plan starts to unfold. Slowly setting the standards to which we will live. The more control My Lady has over me the safer and happier i become.
Looking backwards over the last year we had been dating for almost a year. Remembering the threshold moment our relationshipped changed. My Lady started to instruct me on how to make love to Her. The way i was doing it wasn't good enough to make Her come. Having My Lady push my face down into Her sweet spot and told what to do. This changed me and the way i felt to a whole new place.
My Lady, My Goddess looking back i can see all the man things i did that She wanted to change about me. The way is dressed, my hairy body and my hair style. Then i did not realized how much My Lady disliked the fact that i deal with a lot of lady customers. The perfect solution was found on this site, as soon as the CB6000 arrived i have been in chastity.My Lady locks and unlocks me only and i have no excess to the key.
i think need my head examined. i have really been disappointed because Mistress/wife has not been Herself lately and any reference to anything sexual seems to piss Her off.
i thought that maybe it was something i said or did that upset Her but upon careful reflection, i did not commit any such offense and i needed to flush these feelings out, so i wrote the following this morning: