today its the start of my first period, as mistress ordered,
i had to buy tampons today, couse i have my period so i went to de shop to buy two boxes of tampons. i feld a litlle humiliated when i had to pay.
i came home and inserded it inmidiatly as mistress samantha has ordered me to, it feels kind of strange. i have to get used to it,couse a maid has her periods i guess.
My Lady told me She wants to see me in a sundress and sandals. This is a big step for me and my knees went weak and my mouth went dry. Sometimes i think My Lady pushes me a little to far but then i have learned She is wise beyond Her years. This will be just another special moment in my transition and one more step to no return as a male. Feeling and looking pretty is the sexual feeling that to me last all day and night. The inside of my body just hums with happiness and care.
Mistress J will be home for a few days before we leave to move Her to a new apartment close to Her school. She has grown into a wonderful bright young Lady. Her open mind in accepting My Ladies life style with me. When i put in the mirror in the bathroom after painting it yesturday, i lowered it so She doesn't have to use the Her little step. Have a fond remember of Mistress J, She stood on the front steps and told me how disappointed She was with me, waving Her finger at me. Yes Mistress J was right and i apologized and She forgave me.
Just like how correct My Lady is about putting me in a Womans adult diaper, as it has changed me mentally and the way i do things. All in all it is a big part of me being prepared for the day and hidding the fact i have one on. Now i'm alway checking in a mirror and making sure my blouse is tucked in. Small accidents have happened when i didn't want then but i still have to smile and pretend everything is great. Then i told My Lady i had hidden them so Mistress J wouldn't see them and think they were for Her Mom. Don't worry pet Mistress J will understand because She is a Woman.
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Today I completed the second round of treatment, which was both quick and trivial, on my entire cock and balls, going as far up my shaft as the hair did. I'm amazing at how simple this is, and wish I'd tried it sooner. If you haven't read my first blog post about this, you should read it first. There isn't much more to report about my second treatment except that I did it, and that it was really a non-event. The main thing I wanted to report on was the last two weeks, in the interim since my first treatment.
It did seem for the first week or so after my initial treatment that the hair was exceptionally slow starting to grow back. (You are supposed to shave before using it.) Then, very slowly, things seemed to start to return to normal growth. However some amount of this is normal; in fact they say that the hair may appear to continue to grow normally for a couple of weeks and then seem to practically fall right out. But I was surprised (and happy!) to see that the regrowth was noticeably delayed following my very first treatment, and I think this bodes well.
I am still using it on the lowest setting. You don't have a choice for the first X number of uses anyway due to a built-in safety precaution.
Yesterday i male customer was asking for some assistance and when i answered him, in my male voice. He apologized to me because he thought is was a girl and said that i was very pretty for a man. Then i said no problem that happens sometimes and thank you. From that point on we did business just as normal work would go. The gentleman didn't start screaming or throwing rocks at me, which is what i thought may happen.
This was a real compliment on My Ladies design for me that subtle slow changes in my sissification will work for me. Acceptance is a really big part of my training and every hurtle is a big moment for me. With my true feelings of the Superiour nature of Womenhood as a male i feel shallow and missing the real world. The biggest part of all of this is the ease of acceptance with real Ladies with there open minds and helpful hints.
Once the threat of being a male around these wonderful Woman is gone, they open up and become very friendly and fearless. Yes i know now i have changed too under the guidance of My Lady. The real lesson learned for me is i can change for the better and don't worry about the world and what it thinks.
well it has been a while since my last entry , soo much has happened , it is coming up to 3 months in chastity , which started out with my wife letting me out for the odd night and odd day some times a weekend for a break .Well over the the three months she has really begun to like the idea of me being locked and she is getting more and more strict to the point now where i am allowed 5 mins supervised to wash once every two weeks i does not seem to matter what excusse i use the answer is always the same NO .It works well for her as i find it so erotic and i bring her to orgasm so much more the whole chastity thing has reignited our wonderful marriage , just the other night i tied her to the bed and slowly caressed her until she begged for me to make her cum ,...sooo hot , no release for me :-( .She has taken to being in control of my man hood so much she now wants me locked in steel as she thinks it will be more secure and i can be locked fo longer periods so at present we are waiting for my jailbird from MM to arrive .it is amazing how erotic and how addictive chastity is and the more attention you want to pay to your wife. I have only being alowed to cum 4 times this year and all on my wifes terms a huge contast to my masturating nearly every day .some days like today for instance i fnid it so difficult as i have not cum for nearly a month now and only being unlocked a couple of times over the last month for cleaning,so a total of 10 minuites approx, i want to cum soooo badly At work on friday i actually leaked a bit of cum while talking to a client i could feel the wetness but you could not tell by looking at me it wasnt untill i went to the bathroom and my underwear was a bit wet and it was like precum ....is this normal and how often will this happen ? god i am sooo horny i love my wife and love my life :-)how long will she leave me locked once the jailbird arrives which should be next week .............
My Lady and i went shopping yesterday for blouses and found some pretty Ladies wear. Now it will be a very short time before all my male shirts are gone and i truly looking forward to that day. Seemed that the sales Women there were very interested in watching us shop. All in all i believe My Lady purchased 15 blouses with buttons on the proper side. There were a few She didn't buy with buttons on the back, because those were a little too advance for me right now.
Then My Lady picked out a garment to wear with my bathing suit, to cover myself up till i get to the pool, very pretty with lace. The colours are so pretty many pink's and yellows plus some whites for the summer. What a change in my thinking because i find myself so excited about being pretty. My Lady also picked me out some Ladies clam diggers with flower designs and bright colours. Now i'm really thinking about shoes like some flats or sandles to show my toes.
When we got home i was unload the car of all our purchases some how i for fogot my Woman large diapers in a huge pink box on the porch. My Lady scolded me about leaving the embarrassing product in plain view. My Lady , rightly so didn't want any one to think pink bow was for Her. Quickly the pink box was put into the proper place in the house out of view. Yes i apologized for forgiveness and My Lady just scolded me, but i do know that little mistake will be dealt with later on.
currently locked in my CB6000s , it very small but my wife wont allow me to have the bigger one as this one is full all the time and has no room for any growth without discomfort .
I am trying to get my wife to cuck me. Is is going well I think as now I am locked up , when she lets me out she get no satisfaction from my penis at all . She gets off with my face hands and toys , I think it will just be a matter of time , she is aware she can have a lover .
So far she loved the control with the chastity and refers to my penis as hers . I did ask her when I could get inside her and her response was a little shocking , she just said your not going anywhere in if you keep this up you will be the one getting anal ? I did no know what to say.
I am just waiting for the constant disappointment of sex that I now give her to take control and then she will take a lover , I think I know who it will be ( a married man who lives the other side of town) he has told her he want to fuck her and they have had very rude texts in the past but never met . But now I am locked up and so fats to cum she may also want him ? an an not small in the manhood area I an just sub
this will be my first post so let me tell you first who i am. My name is Andy i'm 39 now, married with one child. I'm bisexual with a preference for straigth normal sex but when i go gay i'm a sub, probably telling myself i'm being forced to be gay. As a slave i like bondage, spanking, humiliation, cbt, outdoor, forced prostitution, forced exhib, dogplay, roleplay and ofcourse chastity. My wife does not like bdsm so she doen't help me there, even when i showed her my CB6000. Whe had good sex then, but she hasen't taken any initiative towards bdsm since. She knows that i do 'certain things' but doesn't mind for the details as long as i'm there when she needs me.
My Lady wants to go to Mistress J's to help Her move to a new apartment. My Lady says it will be warm enough for me to wear a dress and be a proper sissy. Right now i have no idea what My Lady will chose for me to wear. Now my mind is so excited to go out in public in a dress. This will be a big step towards my sissyhood.
No i will never be a Women and i do not deserve to be one because of thier superiour minds and ways. With changing from being a male with improper thinking and shallow feelings. Becoming a femininized sissy in chastity has changed my thinking and feelings. Not looking for male orgasm and having pain when one happens really changes a persons persective of one not being the center of the world.
Everyone else feelings are more important to me now and it seems to show with the way people meet me with warm smiles and hugs. Being softer and smoother brings on a whole new level of comfort for me. Now that i have learned to really care and enjoy my appearance there is so little stress now in my life.
I am very pleased at how jemima is developing into a perfect sissymaid. As I reported in my last blog, I am currently training her in her bedroom duties as my playgirl.
I recently purchased a double dildo strap-on, which I tried out with her a week or two ago. I was a little disappointed because of her constant moving about. I therefore decided to try it this time with her in restraints.
Before the session began, she had a nice cleansing enema and I applied some exotic smelling body lotion to her skin. I left her to put on her make-up and wig and had her dress in her pretty black corset and stockings. She looked delightful.
After My Lady and Miss Shanon searched out and lasered the last few male hairs on my body. Now i believe there is no male hairs below my neck. Miss Shanon started on with the electrolysis on those white hairs growing on my face. One at a time each evil looking male beard hair is zapped and plucked out. As Miss Shanon circled my lips to remove the little white hair. Some how i realized She takes great pride in Her creation of my sissification. Quitly She spoke to me a said some people are just born in the wrong body. This was a wow moment for me to have two beautiful Woman work on one goal to teach and quide me towards being a sissy.
Then after all the hair removal was done into the salon chair and the highlites. Miss Shanon said She had some ideas and to trust Her. This time the highlights are copper and extreme blond. The look in the mirror was beautiful as my hair really looks wonderful. My Lady place new silver and shinny stone earings and remarked that this will bring my style up towards a Womans style. Your transformation is moving along slowly so people i know will become use to it and not be too shocked. My Lady always thinking of my well being and status in public.
When My Lady and me arrived home the phone was ringing. On the other end of the phone was Mistress J wanting to know how my hair looked and if i was pleased. She wished me a happy birthday and said She was really looking forward to My Lady and me going north to help Her move to Her new apartment. My Lady talked with Mistress J for a while, then told me She will have me full dressed for our trip north to Sudbury because it is now time to. Now all i can think about is our trip and what i will wear. Life sure is wonderful.
The Mistress pulls up to a stand alone house way out in the woods in the middle of the night, pops the trunk and the feminized male tries to make a break for it. Only to be tackled from behind, down a small hill in the woods. He learns why he is in this situation and is soon tied to a tree taking the single tail whip and hard, cold bare hand spankings. His begging for mercy doesn't get him very far as he's then trampled on by Her high heels.
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Strung up to another tree with its ass high and wide in the air the Mistress puts on rubber gloves and shoves Her fingers up his ass. He screams and moans and then comes out the strap-on. Slowly, he starts to realize that his girlfriend he has mis-treated and the Mistress were damn serious about his new position as a sissy slave.
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I met this kid on alt a few years ago. He was hoping I would accept him. Anyway, he has become somewhat of a friend. If I discover something I find interesting, I share it with him and he does the same with me.
All excited about salon day for My Lady and me. Miss Shanon emailed me last week in a reply, Her response is She has some wonderful ideas for my hair style. Now i have no idea what is in store for me tomorrow. Plus tomorrow the electrolysis starts, to remove those white hairs laser doesn't work on. Within a few months my male beard will begone forever like the rest of those evil feeling male hairs.
Remembering in the past at how dirty i felt being covered in male body hair. Now i am all smooth all over and feel a new freedom becoming a sissy. Wearing perfume and lip gloss has become a good habit and expected in my daily dress. Months ago My Lady started having me wear training bras everyday. In the begining my chest was a 42" now it is a 44" across the nipples , there is some molding to my bust.
My Lady explained to me last night that my dressing will become more Lady like, with blouses and shoes. My Lady reads me like a book and bends and molds me to be a better person.
It all started with a picture. I was browsing porn and happened to come upon a picture of a guy in a cock cage. I jokingly sent it to my girlfriend and asked her if she wanted me to get one. In the week since I sent that things have really changed for us. Last night I had my first Dom Session. She had me shave all my genital hair. Then she put on her strap on and fucked my mouth with it for what seemed like forever. Then it was time. I got on the bed ass up and face down and she lubed me up. She was gentle only at first and soon began pounding me hard yelling at me 'you are my bitch, I own you and your cock and your ass'. She finally pulled out only to replace the small strap on with a larger vibrator. The pain was intense and sent me into a space in my mind. She was demanding answers to questions and I told her anything she wanted to hear. Her demanding voice and the pain were my entire world. When she was finally done with me she made me get up and clean the cat litter boxes naked as she watched.
We have a formal contract now, three pages long. I know it will take many more sessions and much training to make me a good little sub to her. But she has promised me nightly Dom sessions until she is satisfied that I am making progress. I have made many mistakes and the punishments are getting severe. One punishment is that she is going to tattoo 'Pet' in Chinese lettering on my side. Another was I had to clean her car out and vacuum it to perfection, all while she sat in a lawn chair and watched and while I was wearing a pair of her panties.
