played a game of cards on sunday and one thing led to another and me and my wife had a bet on the game , no underware for a week .....i lost , i never lose at cards with my wife , i have never gone with no underware and being locked as well , i have to wear business clothes all week it is a bit scary , i have been locked up for quite some time now apart from my cleaning part basicly all this year , i was milked today, now the second time i have had that done , i seem to feel more frustrated after being milked as i have cum but no orgasum , i have only had one orgasum all year so far , which may not seem long to some but as i have mentioned i used to masurbate once a day , now nothing , amazingly our love for one another has begun to blossum into the marraiage we once had as i seem to focus on my lovely wife so much more , and she on me , amazing !!our sex life has improved , well angies has but i love making her cum and we are doing so much more together amazing what a key can do :-)
I finally took the plunge and set up a carlilock session with no emergency password as I wanted to give up more control than last time.
Knowing that I have no easy way to end the session, my heard was racing when I locked my keysafe. I loved the feeling of not being in control. Unfortunately I forgot about the non member voting requirement.
Just sitting here looking at my painted toe nails in a pink nightie , which is my normal now. Mistress J says good morning and carries on like nothing different and My Lady says good morning with a beautiful smile. Every morning i can choose how feminine i will dress and that never happened before. Feel so fulfilled and complete as My Lady helps me become more and more a permanent complete sissy.
The other day while shopping at cosco My Lady picked up another big box of Ladies depends in a pink box. Placing them on top of the cart i am pushing by myself, not feeling embarrassed anymore because of my new normal. Then My Lady picks out some more bras for me and chooses pink ones which is my favorite colour. Yes a training bre really helps and i feel naked if i don't wear one now.
No i don't ever want to go back to what i once was a hairy selfish male. Being soft and smooth, more caring companion to My Lady and Her friends is just right for me. Many things have happened in the last two years and all for the better of our realationship becomes closer.
Today i was encouraged by a new friend ive made here on the lifestyle site. they've been so helpful for me so far. you know who you are and thank you much!! The reason for this post is to hear other practicing couples thoughts on chastity along with tease and deny. i have had many years in marrige my partner to me being the perfect choice for keyholder. no one knows me better than her. what i would like to learn from this forum is... what is the best way to start mildly into this fetish?? how would my future keyholder get information on the basics of chastity and tease/deny. is there information sites non-porno? do dominant females talk with each other about this fetish? if so where?
Reasons for my questions is that i am the one bringing this fetish to our relationship. being submissive myself, i feel if i am the one bringing these ideas and kinks to the bedroom. at risk that she isnt or isnt going too enjoy it, it leaves me feeling that a role reversal has happened. the things in the fetish that make it attractive to her is what im truely after.
After i had mentioned to the wife about chastity and tease and denial, "the Boss" as i like to call her decided it was time we went to an adult novelty store just to check out the different toys there that we could bring into our bedroom play. i looked around quietly, looking for male chastity devices if for nothing more but to compare prices to what ive seen here on the net. No luck not a single chastity device in the store. But the boss had a wonderful time going through all the different size dildos and warming lotions, pretty outfits and much more. She decided on a dildo that took batterys in order to vibe her to climax (just like the real thing) it said on the package. i took notice of what she was doing and advised on the price and the quality of the item she had intrest in. I mentioned to her that i had seen in alot of videos, the use of a full body massager, kind've heavy duety but long and white with a decent size ball on the end. the thing plugs into a wall socket batteries not needed.. the price for the massager was a conciderable amount more than the first item she had picked up. after a few more minutes she had chose the massager along with the new KY Intense lotion kit for him and her, and a very tight fitting viberating cock ring. So last night she come home from working second shift and slipped quietly into the bedroom. By the time i was awake enough to realise what was happening she had showered then come into the bedroom and put warming lotion all over my cock then slid the vibe ring into place at the very base of my shaft. Yes that woke me up :) i snuggled close to her, she smelled amazing it turned me on so much and the fact i was not only getting hard but rather warm as well. She then began to try her new toy and i could feel it viberating the bed underneath me. "crazy" she loved it. i gently began to touch her, exploring her body as she continued to play with the massager. then in one motion she pushed my hand away and said "no this isnt your time its mine, you can just watch and i dont want you touching yourself." then she turned on the vibe cock ring and placed it against her thigh and went back to enjoying herself. I was so hard, pulsing, and rather warm and tingly too. It was so difficult not to explode right there on her thigh. I watched her climax several times while saying things like "dont you wish you could do this to me"I sooo did wish very much. after awhile she finished, removed my cock ring and cleaned off the lotion. by then every little touch on my penis nearly sent me into orgasm. she returned everything to her dresser drawer and lay next to me knowing i was having alot of trouble with my situation. i was denied my orgasm insted i snuggled close to her as she went to sleep a very satisfied woman.
My Lady allowed me to escort Her to a friends bady shower yesturday. The Ladies that attended did not make it a Woman only party. These Ladies were very friendly and the event was a joyous and caring. Then i learned to eeewww and awww like My Lady and Her friends did at every present opening. The event was so well organized and the food was to die for.
This was a whole unknown world to me and i am very grateful to be accepted as a no threat. My Lady tells me i look very happy and not as intense anymore. People do touch and hug me more. Which is a totally different from my past and now i am looking forward to more changes. Looking and feeling more feminine is wonderful and becoming easier then i could imagine.
Please don't get me wrong , there is a lot of work finding a look that works and keeping up the appearance. The rewards of feeling great are well worth the effort. Just closing my eyes i can see My Lady in Her gray business suit with her white blouse. Smiling and laughing with Her friends with all the confidence in the world. My Lady makes me proud to open and hold the doors for My Lady.
With the slow steady progress towards being a fulltime sissy house wife nears for me. Decisions for transgender seem closer then they have ever been before. Now i have dreams where i am transformed with hormones and my breast grow to a full D size and hiding them has become impossible. Then in my dream My Lady is showing me off to Her friends and explaining how the hormones work. Then with the big physical change, my passing as a Woman is excepted by strangers. The relief i would feel after the changes are done, will make me feel whole.
Looking at some old pictures of myself from the past and looking in the mirror now. The changes in my looks with the guidance of My Lady are such a wonderful improvement. Wearing my hair in a high ponytail with bangs and the blond highlites works so well. Then as my male beard fades to nothing and a girlish face appears, all i see in the mirror is WOW. My Lady upgrading my earings to more feminine looking ones are accepted with ease by my peers with out a second glance or comment.
With my friends, who have known me all my life say, very openly that the really enjoy seeing how much happier i've become. When talking and spending time with my friends, we still talk about our regular stuff, not going to come out of the closet for them. They know i'm changing and they are not threatened by my changes. In fact more people are touching me and hugging as i become more at ease with myself. My Lady explained that to me and now i know She is wise.
well it has been a while since my last entry , but alot has happened , on the 7th i was handed a vibrating anal toy and as it had been 3 to 4 weeks since i had cum things were pretty full , i use to masturbate at least once a day and this year i have been locked up seriously .as i began to milk myself still locked i might add it did not take long and my cum just flowed like a tap had been turned on .. this is a first for me and it was a weird feeling seeing my cum running out but no orgasum ......made me feel so controled i then had to drink my cum this also is a first for me and i have to say it did not taste to bad .It was not untill the 12th iwas alowed to orgasum , as i pleasing my wife as she likes oraly and with my slow massaging of her clit with my finger when she wanted to make me cum , to my dismay i was not to touch her or me and she just masturbated me ......not what i had in mind i was milked again with no control over what and how i cum , as i have always been in control in my job it is a masive turn on and it suppisingly has bought our marraige so much closer , our last child moved out flating this year and we had drifted apart but having her in contorl of my manhood has changed so much , i am locked as i type this and have no idea when or if i will get to cum i am only alowed out one day a week under angies supervision for cleaning shaving etc then locked up again , now when i am unlocked i want to be locked back up my life is changing ......
Well Me,Mum and Sue had our meeting and all agreed she has 4 more years as our maid but as she has begged to go for change shes going to get 4 years hard labour.We've agreed that the cb will only come of twice a year and bondage will be doubled and her freedom over anything will be nill.Christmas day was great i told the maid if she done everything from breakfast till supper she would get her answer boxing day and the whole day off,so the three of us had a great crimbo day.
Boxing day we woke the maid up at 10 that the latest shes been up in 3 years,I think looking back that may of been the only moment of her day off.we took her to the garage same as always for her nappie of and wash,with her hands cuffed high above her head Mum removed her nappie and washed her. she then fitted a penis shaped gag and leg spreader and told her not to worry its your day off so enjoy.Mum then removed her cb and slid a rope noose around her balls,on the other end was a 10kg weight .We all stood in front of her then and you could see the fear in her eyes , I explained that as it was her day off we would leave her in her mans garage to be a man no cb and to help I removed 2 panels from his maintenance pit then pushed the weight in. Now gags are good but that scream was still quite loud, for the next 5 hours we left her ,oops sorry him to his mans stuff in his garage.when we went back in at half past 3 she had not moved ,I mist sat Ihave never seen balls that shade of blue before.Mum says if we left her there all night they'd fall off but I said thats for another day. I took the gag out and said 4 more years or do we leave you like this till the morning,her answer was just lush "please Mistress save my balls and i'll serve 4 years with no questions ,please take the weight off" how sweet
I joined a dating site a while ago. After a long time i eventually found an on-line mistress. I am so excited and happy!
I am now her slave, she is Mistress S to me. We are neeting next Friday when my wife is out of town to have our first play date. Mistress S told me that I may not fuck my wife or play with myself until she has taken my anal virginity! I have agreed to take our strap on for her to use on me. She says she will not use any lubricant either! I am getting scared....
I have to buy a black ladies g-string to put on for when we meet. She wants to do so much. i feel like crying, out of joy....
I've been involved in bdsm and cross-dressing for a very long time. I'm a rather well known 25 year old male fetish model. I'm known for my TG looks and on camera submission in femdom videos. With all that said I'm considering transitioning, m2f that is. I've considered it in the past, thought about it a lot and even took hormones for 2 months, 2 years ago. I decided to write out pretty much everything I'm feeling at the moment and be the most candid I've ever been in my kinky blog. I just posted in it, and it's called, Transition? I go over just about everything and for anyone who has ever thought about it, has transitioned, just fantasizes about it I believe you will enjoy this post by me. It really is the most I've publicly put out anything about this. Here is the link: http://autoeroticboysbentwhichway.blogspot.com/
My wife hasn't enforced the payment terms for our new toy, she just is not in the mood, we haven't even tried it.
Yesterday I woke up so horny, but didn't want to masturbate, wife was at work, so I put my cage on, the key was with my wife. So I still have the cage on today and I woke up in a kinky mood. After my wife went to work I decided to see what it's like dressed as a woman. I put a black pair of panties on, a red bra and a tight fitting purple dress. I feel so sexy in it, that tight material against me, no tight pants around my waist. I feel like shaving my whole body and doing it whenever I can.
The strangest thing, I don't mind being locked up. I feel more like a whore, waiting for a man with a thick cock to bend me over the table, pull my dress up, panties down and ravage my arse, over and over, till I can't stand.
The more i look and feel feminine the truer i feel inside, more whole and comfortable. Having my hair in a Betty Page style with bangs and a high ponytail has become my normal. My Lady upgraded my hoop earings to silver , prettier design and i just got compilments.
With my body permanently hairless from the laser treatment. All my clothes feel so good against my skin. Yes i look forward to dressing every day to look and feel more feminie.
Yes for the last while i have not blogged because i have been soul searching and as My Lady has pointed out, i should be. Though i have always fantasized about being a Woman now i am past the point of no return. In my own mind i am looking forward to the changes. With the foresight and understanding i get from My Lady to become a transgender woman. To build a life around a home with such a great understanding and openness.
Well, I suppose it was inevitable. 7-1/2 years in a plastic device, and now my wife has ordered a new steel one. It's the Lori 2B device with spikes on the ring and the tube, with a recessed lock. No more clicking of the lock against the cage.
I have talked thru email with Lori Lancer quite a bit lately and she is quite helpful in answering my questions about the device and measurements. This device is expensive so I want to get it right. Even though I have apprehensions about being locked in a steel device, I do believe that it will be more comfortable for me, as it will be made to fit.
The apprehension comes from the increased sense of permanence I guess. You see, I do not, and will not, have access to a key, even in an emergency. If I get into an accident and end up in the hospital, then...well maybe the chastity device would be the least of my worries in that case.
Now there is not a day that goes by that i look forward to becoming more feminine. Thoughts in my mind always lead me towards becoming a transexual. With my life full of envy and worship for all the Ladies and My Lady in my life. My Lady has truly found who i am deep down inside and with love and pride has helped me grow.
Life would be a lot easier to just remain a male but i would not really be happy. Changing is a lot of self work with a more satisfaction a self worth. Living life with out body and facial hair feels so much cleaner and softer. In the morning i now carfully pick out my clothes and feel so good about going out with an inside glow that is hard to describe.
With My Ladies love and drive, i believe the goals we have set are within our means. My Lady can understand the future and can be my driving force in our relationship. How She understands i have to play my male roll at work for a while longer and build our future when the big changes happen.
