Would really like to thank My Lady in taking away my male ego. Unwittingly with My Ladies training with Her suttle changes in my appearance. Slow changing my looks to a more feminine look, hair style with bangs and a high ponytail with highlites. The laser treatment take over a year to do the beard and as the whiskers fade the change is slow. Now i'm very comfortable going outside in shorts with my smooth hairless legs.
Wearing the chastity everyday took some practice to keep everything healthy. High maintenance is the humbling always looking to sit down for a bathroom break, making sure no one notices the extra padding doesn't show through my Ladies cut jeans. Having to walk heel toe in a straight line and not putting my hands in my pockets.
Now when i'm acting up or not paying attention to my role in life My Lady can bring me back to my submissive self just by clearing Her throat. Then i stop doing what ever it was and approach Her with my eyes lowered and make amends. There is no power struggle in our household any more, My Lady does ask my opinon on matters and listens. Just Her favorite pet with an opinon(giggle).
My Lady came with me on a long drive, 600 km return. So enjoy My Ladies company because we can talk about anything and it is never boring. Love being corrected about my posture and the way i should talk like a Lady. My Lady was dress beautifully sexy too, She does attract a lot of looks from men. Makes me feel proud that She pays attention to me as She corrects me in public. The hasn't been too much alone time with My Lady because of issuse at work that have kept me extra busy.
My Lady never bores me when She talks about sex and i find myself the shy one. How important it is that i remain locked because of my inferior male thinking and i'm really starting to understand that.
Then that role model of the fifties house wife kept flashing through my mind. There is such a wonderful future around the corner for us, right now is fantastic too. How blessed i feel every day because of My Lady who gives me that extra push to change to be happy.
I've been on this site for awhile and in the kink community since I was 18. I'm nearly 25 now and I thought I would share with you my kinky blog that I regularly up keep.
It's focuses on my life in kink both personally and professionally. Personally I've been in 2 D/s relationships, the 2nd one led to a personal relationship for a couple years as well.
Professionally - My profile goes into more detail but I'm a working male fetish model video bottom featured on many sites and have worked with numerous of the best known people around. My blog also explores what it's like to be a male fetish model in an industry dominated by women.
This is a chastity and for many a sissy site. I love both and there are quite a few pictures on my profile here as well. With that said, I have more pictures on my blog and have been posting since November I believe. I appreciate feedback and if you would like me to discuss any topics just send me an email.
This was My Ladies choice for me to blog everyday, so i would be able to write down my feelings. At first i didn't want to do it but trusted in My Ladies wisdom. The truly amazing fact of this part of my training is my thinking has changed. Now i look forward every morning to write out my feelings. With the way my old thinking was you don't talk about your feels and just ignore them. This transition is really taking hold of my mind and body.
There is a warm feeling of understanding that i get from My Lady. Being allowed to be trained in the Female art of femininity. Every day i am more excited about our future, with more brighter future then i thought possible.
With the daily blogging it has help me get my thoughts in order and gives me a sense of calm. There should always be a daily goal even if it just moving forward. There was a time i would never accept the fact that i couldn't satisfy a Woman. Writting about my short cumings is helping because it is being talked about. Nice friendly people here have given great suggestions, not a bunch of giggles and finger pointing.
Wifey and I have been married for more then 15 years. I love her dearly! Throughout our marriage Wifey has taken several lovers, which I strongly encourage! Wifey likes to keep me locked up while she prepares and goes out on her dates. Recently she has found a bull who bred her! She is currently pregnant with her bulls baby and I love it!
Pretty calm week once again. Continued on research to determine if there was a position for thank you in the BDSM community, but was unable to find one. Mistress, Master and i all agreed that we would add it as a secondary meaning onto one of the formal positions that we already have. Ironically, we all had the same thought (even through the miles, and without talking with each other at the time) within a couple of hours of each other. They had not had any fortune in finding a formal position either.
Always in My Ladies presents, i feel inferior to Her. With being submissive for Her gives me relief to this complex. Last night we worked a bar for a local charity and it was a long day and night. My Lady wore heels and a white blouse with a leather skirt. All afternoon and evening i couldn't take my eyes off of Her! Yes i was locked tight with my little bell and was restrained from getting too excited for the lack of room.
When we got home my Lady unlocked me for a shower, which felt great. My Lady went right to bed in a sexy see through nitie. When i got to bed i hugged and spooned my Lady. With my body against Her soft skin i wanted what all males wanted. This is where my inferiorty complex kicked in. Being affraid of making a mess behind my lady or only just being able to start something that would end in not satisfing My Lady.
With myself being so fulfilled as My Ladies pet i really feel like i'm the big let down in our relationship. Now i do realize what My Lady means that i'm defenceless against any Woman because of my weak male mind. Being chastitied and sissified keeps me focused on the important things in our lives. Every day i realize how wrong i have been and how wise My Lady is. Being on this path of change, i have to have faith that an answer will come to complete the fulfillment for My Lady.
I'd like to share with you my view of how my wife keeps me fit
I have just finished my training on orbitrack. The configuration for today was like on the picture. As you can see there was obligatory CB ( but sometimes wife wants me to train without CB to arouse me during training) and high heels. Lucky I bought new cushions for my heels that made my todays ride easier
This maybe my new role in My Ladies life. There is hope that i can be of some use to My Ladies comfort and life style. As i owe Her so much for Her training to get rid of my bad male traits and ego. Never in all my years have i grown so much with the guidance from My Lady. Now i just want Her to be happy and fulfilled.
Last night i was able to cuddle with My Beautiful sexy Lady through the night. Being in chastity made it a little easier on me because there was no chance of disappointing My Lady with my weak member. My Lady turns me on so much Her image is tattooed in my mind as a Goddess towering over me.
My Ladies power over me just can't be resistedby me a fact that has been proven time over time. There are times i want to act up and have My Lady correct me, now i resist that feeling and go for good behavier. Just hanging on to those wonderful excepting words from My Lady, this pleases Me mypet.
What can i say about My Lady and becoming Her cuckhold sissy. Through training i do realize my place in Her world and very thankful that She cares enough to train me. With the changes in my renewed out look on life and lesson learned by being transformed into a femininized sissy. There is no way could i ever satisfy My Lady with my member attached to my testicles. All She has to do is appear infront of me and i almost explode in my panties.
This Lady has the power to do that at any time She wishes. Thanks to the fact that we do share so many more interests in building a live around each other. This means i trust My Lady to do what is right for the relationship and make it grow. She has needs like every one and because of my short comings in this field. This would bring me pleasure to see Her satisfied because i love Her so much.
My Lady has opened a whole new world for me. When She mentioned about the stay at home fifties housewife, my knees went weak. Would love nothing more then to dress as pretty as i could for My Lady. Looking after the household so that it is warm and cozy for Her to come home too.
My Lady was amused that some one on here had suggest a fifties housewife a role model for me. The caring knowing smile My Lady gave me. My Lady so understands my desire to be a fulltime 24/7 sissy for My Lady. The term fifties housewife like June Clever is a desirable role model for the sissies out there and myself.
For so many years i have built up defences to ward off any chances of becoming the person i so secertly wanted to be. My Lady has cut through all of my defences and put my male thinking and ego in the trash bin. With My Ladies acceptance and guidance our lifes will grow stronger. Seems that we are discovering a common goal in our relationship as roles settle down and become more comfortable.
My Lady is so wise when She said to go slowly with the physical changes for me, loss of facial hair, hair style, even the progress on style of earings is accounted for. There is only a limited amount of male clothing left here at the house, a fact that i am very pleased with. To feel sexy with just clean french nail polish and lip gloss makes me feel right.
Realizing just how depentant i have become on My Ladies approval and control. As the days have turned to months then a year has past. With out confrontation My Lady put request out for me to improve my behavier and thinking. Last night She suggested that i spend more time styling my hair to look more feminine. To walk shoulders back and in a heel toe fashion. The sweet reminders to keep my ankles crossed or my legs when sitting.
Always with a powerful smile these reminders are made. With constant statements on how awful male thinking and actions are. With praises of how well my progress is coming as i grow under My Ladies teaching with Her training. Did you forget how to act mypet? My Lady loves to say. Then at that moment i know i had become lazy and apologize. With some form of a riding crop always near My Lady seldom uses them to correct me.
Reward for good behavier is so great because My Lady is so beautiful and in a fantastic mood. When She buys me clothes for me to wear and does my hair. All i have to do is take good care of myself and be submissive and above all be polite. The safest feeling i have ever had is faith in My Ladies control over my well being even if i'm not sure at first.
This time of the year is my physical and i'm having a big hang up about not painting my toenails. Then i realized i am really shy and do want to over come my shyness. Yes i maybe making a mountain out of a mole hill. This is very different way of looking at the world for me in less then a year.
Was having a light dream this morning as i slept in a little because i didn't want it to end. The dream was in colour and about reliving all the little pushes My Lady has done for me through the last year, my ears pierced, hair stlyes, all that laser treatments and teaching me to pick out my own clothes at the store. Last night we were cuddling on the bed as My Lady rubbed my face and said how nice and smooth it felt.
There is always a sexual rush to everything My Lady comes up with as our transformation moves forward. The most pleasing part of this realationship is how much My Lady enjoys it as a life stlye.
Just like if She had a magic wand. My Lady makes things better the more She controls. That is why My Lady is so good for me because She makes me think twice before i do a dum male thing. Found that i am extra polite to customers and employees in a very honest way and receive postive feed back. Though i was wasn't that terrible before My Lady has made me better and feel better.
Yes i jingle when i walk but now i walk more upright and in a heel to toe straight line. Yes i have a black purse for all of my extra needs. People are use to my bangs and high ponytail in a scrunchy. To find a piece of male clothing in the house is getting very difficult now. Now one of my daily highlites is thinking about what to write in my daily blog so my feelings are written down. As My Lady says just like a little girl with her diary of her growing up into womanhood. Even sitting at the table waiting for My Lady to say grace with my head bowing makes me feel great and in ordered.
My Lady says i have to really get in touch with my feelings and now i'm starting to see what She means. There is a whole new world out there for me to share with My Lady. With every passing day i realize how much more superior Woman are. All i can think about is vision of My Lady standing over me intructing me on my short comings as a pet. Always a way to improve myself and correct my behavier. This is a life stlye which will never end as we seem to grow together. My Lady really has a disire to control , protect and teach. myself being controlled , protected and a good pupil has fulfilled that empty spot in my life to make me feel whole.
For fathers day My Lady took me out to dinner and we had a long talk on the long drive. Always enjoy this when My Lady feels like talking to me when we are alone, no phones or knocks at the door.
My Lady explain some of Her plans of my transition and even that it is slow, She has ever step planned out for me. Just like my earings, the first ones were manly. Then the were changed to thin gold one more feminine soon to be replaced by more feminine set. Just like the hair a few hair style and some lite shade highlites and soon a more feminine hair style with brighter highlites. Even the little bell makes you walk more gently like a Woman , My Lady said.
Also mypet, you and Mistress "J" seem to be getting along better as She realizes. She is superior to you because of your male thinking. Mistress "J" knows why you are in chastity and thinks it is cute and interesting. She does know about My ex fooling around on Me My Lady said. Then i mentioned the attention i got when i walked across the kitchen and the bell jingled. All i could do My Lady was pretend nothing was happening but i knew She heard it because She stopped talking to listen. If anything i blushed for a moment and went on with our conversation like nothing happend. We did connect and She prefers to be called Mistress "J". Wasn't sure till that moment that our life stlye wasn't too much to share a little.
Well, I honestly don't know what to say this week. As you can see, from the responces last week, Mistress, Master and I had a discussion about my blog entries. Other than that, there really wasn't much that happened. Basically had a relaxed week. More of a regrouping than anything else. Reconnecting, and trying to find better ways of communicating.
That's all that happened this week. Next week will be more interesting, I'm sure.
"No use doing this half ass you know", she just said. "I like the idea of doing this right, so we're going for it." "This will be really good."
I'm sitting here, penis trying to get hard, trying to get really hard. Oww, hurts that it's trying to get too hard, the cage is too small. The pee hole is wrapped around a cage bar its so filling the cage.
I really wanted this. This is the real father's day present I wanted. Then having her go with this idea and now smiling when she tells me she's happy about this. I'm more in love with my wife than I ever have been.
Today was the day. My wife just told me that the captive ring expander tool we need to remove the rings hold me in the cage is missing and that finances being what they are we shouldn't really waste money on buying a replacement. She also told me that a year should really be a year like Jan 1st would be. "I don't understand what you mean?" I asked.
"You know silly, a year should be the whole year, not the middle of one to the middle of another", she smiled.
I should have my penis in my hand right now, stroking it and cumming over and over again. This totally sucks and right now I'm even more horny than I was this morning when I woke up.