My Lady has gone and spoken with a doctor about my transition. My Lady said he was very understanding and helpful because this is becoming very well handled by the medical community. That from the first time he met me, he thought that this would come up. Now it seems all my fears are for nothing. That there are a lot of understanding people in this world. My Lady is the most wonderful gift to me as She is molding me into a better person.
My Lady has opened so many doors for me as She has helped me lose my false pride of male ego. All the wrong thinking i have had over my life time. Learning manners and pose so i am well behaved in public while always having fun. The choice of clothing to match my mood was strange and wonderful. Don't forget how fantastic the selection of under wear and so glad My Lady got rid of my male stuff.
My Lady has really helped me find a look the is pleasing to the public and doesn't send them screaming away. She also showed me to not be ashamed of being Her pet and following Her commands in public. Way back in my old days i would never think of all the benefits of learning a new and proper way of living as a gurl.
As I was feeling a cored I thought I'd try wearing my corset again. This is something I haven't done for a while as I generally only wear a corset while I'm crossdressing. Trying it on for the first time in months made me realise:
1 - I've lost weight! I've got this thing laced up almost fully, it's been commented on that I look a little thinner over the past few months.
2 - Overbust was not a good idea. I think I bought an overbust as I was planning on wearing it with breastforms. That plan never came to fruition.
Listening and learning from My Lady as i understand how She wants us to live. My Lady wants to be in total control of the house hold and extreme total control over me. This has become a growing way of living which is far better then anything that i know of. To be in My Ladies inner circle of trust is an honour and a privilege. Most males should not be trusted as they think with there small head, controlled obedient sissy can endure training till some trust is bestowed.
Showing manners and grace befitting the company of My Lady shows my place. Showing honest happiness when My Lady buys clothing She has chosen for me to wear to change my appearance. Looking more like a gurl everyday is exciting and a great effort which is done with pleasure.
My Lady has show such great interest in my training, i find it impossible to disagree with Her methods as She is a natural Dominat Woman. She does know what She wants and will get it!
Being dressed in a pink pull over dress and apron i was doing the house work , when the fire department knocked on the door! They were out checking smoke detectors and as soon as they seen ours working they left. That was a little scary but live able. Doing the dusting and vacuuming before My Lady arrives home to see me.
When My Lady arrived there was a big long hug and kisses , it was so good. Then i had to go out for a short little job My Lady was going to have a relaxing bath in Her big soaker tub.
When i arrived home My Lady was in Her black satin dress and red nylons with Her boots tighly laced up. With bondage stuff on the kitchen table She commanded pet sit down as She tied my hands and gagged me tightly. Pulling on my ponytail My Lady said to me, really miss doing this to mypet and you do understand I need to do this! As i knodded yes. As My Lady ripped off my dydee's and exposed my male member as it seem to shrink in Her presents.
Today is Saturday, June 23rd and Mistress will be spending the late afternoon through late Sunday with Michael, one of her newest lovers and I must say probably the one she is most smitten with. Michael is a very good looking man who is 5 years younger than Mistress. Tall and educated, he is a total romantic. He has showered Mistress with dozens of romantic emails as well as having flowers delivered to our house twice before he even met Mistress! He thought at first that Mistress was simply a cheating wife when he responded to an online ad of hers but she eventually told him about me and he was realy happy to hear that saying "now you can come see me and spend the night anytime you want".
Needless to say Mistress is VERY excited today. So we have our morning planned prior to her going to see him. She already has her bag packed and it is filled with lots of lingerie. Michael loves lingerie and wants Mistress to put on a show for him. I am not normally jealous of the men she sees...well, that is not true, I always get a little jealous when I know that these men are going to feel pleasure from her that I am cut off from, but with Michael I have to admit that I am feeling more jealous than usual because of the reactions that Mistress has shown to him, because of the way she talks about him, and because of one thing she said to me yesterday, which was "Michael is like you (meaning me) in so many ways...caring kind, romantic, considerate...except unlike you, he is a man. Let's face it, most men she sees may be great in bed, really masculine, and well endowed, but none of them are overly romantic. Michael is definitely a passionate romantic man. I think Mistress and him are going to have some incredible sex tonight. I am happy for her.
So today, we will be leaving soon to go to the mall and will be visiting Victoria's Secret for new stockings for both her and I (I love their stockings!!!), followed by a trip to Fredericks for some naughty lingerie shopping, and I am sure we will hit the usual favorites like Nordstrom, Cache, and Macy's. In just a moment I will be shaving Mistresses' legs, giving her a pedicure, and helping her get dressed sexy for him. My heart is so happy when I am in this situation. I don't know why but being a sissy is just the most delicious thing in the world to me. Being owned by her, being kept chaste by her, wearing feminine things all the time and presenting myself as Bridget a lot is all so incredibly good. Just the feeling that I get inside when I think of how I am less than a man and how she aches for the lovers she sees while not even thinking of me in a sexual way...god, it is so overwhelming at times that it makes my head spin. The woman I married who took me as her husband and now I am a true sissy and a slave. It is so perfect I can hardly believe it sometimes. Why do I love that feeling so much? I have no idea. I mean I love being inside of Mistress. I love making love to her so why do I want to be denied so badly? Why do I want to be looked at by her as a sissy? I guess it's because I am a real sissy. All I know is that being locked up and being a pussy and a sissy makes me so happy.
With My Lady looking after Her Mother because of illness i have been on my own for a while , just phone calls and texting. There is so much work to be done around the house as to the renovations that those have come to a stand still. At work we are very busy and a few late nights to catch up. Even with all this chaos i am still keeping up with my sissifications and not falling back words.
Good habits are getting rid of my male defects and still watching when i get lazy. Some how i feel protected by My Lady wearing the womans clothing She has bought me. Takes me better then an hour to be ready to go to work as i pick and match what to wear, enjoying every moment. My Lady left me some really bulky dydees to wear that were very hard to hide. Working on my own i picked up some Ladies depends that are easier to hide. Then i realized that i would feel naked going out with out some sort of protection. My Lady seem to know what i was thinking as She asked me , did you get some more dydees? When i said yes ther was silents but She knew and i was caught.
There is no way i can trick or fool any Woman as they see things that i could never notice. Now i know i am protected by My Lady and the wisedom of Her Mother and Daughter Mistress J. The more sissified i become the More comfortable these Ladies become. All the the heavy hand and superior intelligence of My Lady who rules like a Queen with compassion.
I was going to post this last night but didn't because I was upset. So I waited until this morning and am still upset. Part of being a slave and a sissy is that you give up your right to argue or shall we more politely say debate with your Mistress. I have learned over the years to shut up when told but Mistress and I have always had an open communication where I am able to say more than maybe a lot of other slaves are able to say. If I felt differently about something I would generally voice my opinion and she might or might not listen. All that seems to have changed recently since David left and Mistress decided to be super strict with me.
Yesterday I was trying to figure out what I would cook for dinner. Mistress was going to be at home for the first time in a while instead of seeing one of her lovers. But she came walking out all dolled up and looking super hot and said she was going to go out for a little while and to keep dinner warm for her. She was wearing a corset underneath her top and I could tell was wearing stockings underneath her skirt meaning that she basically had lingerie on underneath her clothes. Her fuck me shoes were also on and since it was 5pm I didn't think she was going shopping. She was going to see a man.
I asked her where she was going but she said "noneya" meaning none of my business but said she would be back around 8pm or so. I dropped to my knees and kissed her feet and off she went. So I cooked dinner and opened a bottle of wine. I ended up eating and drinking the entire bottle over the next 5 hours and had texted her a few times asking if she was ok and when she would be home. She finally sent me a text at 9:30 telling me to stop bugging her and that she would be home soon.
I was a member several years ago of this website and I kind of drifted away. I dont know why. I mean I was busy being a sissy slave but this is one of the only places I know where like minded people gather and share. I absolutely need to share because so much has gone on in my life. I will start by describing my life up to this point.
First, I am a 46 year old genetic male who has been married to the most amazing and beautiful woman on the planet for 25 years. Our marriage was fairly normal for the first 17 years although we always explored sexually, had a number of 3 sums with men, and always told each other about our desires. Our honesty with each other led to my coming out about my crossdressing desires and eventually about her becoming dominant, putting me in chastity, and then cuckolding me. Over that time she became more comfortable as a Mistress and I slowly sunk deeper into submission. I have to admit that for a while, actually a lot of that time, it felt like a game. More of a role play that would go away a bit as we had to live our normal daily lives.
The cuckolding went through many stages. At first she fucked a bunch of men. She was like a kid in a candy store. I dont have a very big cock but she never said it bothered her or that she needed more but the first time she was with another man and she pulled out his enormous cock, she and I both realized that she hadnt ever felt anything like that before. I watched her as she felt his 9" cock slide inside of her and her face twisted into this shocked and lustful look I had never seen. Suddenly I heard her making noises I had never heard before. I will never forget that car ride home that night as she sat next to me with cum filling her pussy. She said "I really think I could get used to this way of life". She certainly has done that.
After my Mother inlaws visit and being on my own for a week. The household past inspection and my manners seem to satisfied The superior Ladies. With a household present given to me of a homemade pie from my Mother inlaw, everyone seemed to enjoy the afternoon. Then My Lady gave me a pink apron with lots of frills for Her present to me.
Many compliments about the bedroom and all the pink colour tones made the room look very Lady like. Then the bathroom was very well laid out with the different shades of pink and the pink towels. Then my Mother inlaw made some suggestion about doing some projects around Her home. This means to me that my home making abilities meet Her approval, which made my week of happiness. The rush of tenision that left my body was incerdible.
There was lots of hugs and kisses when i had to leave to do some work outside, My Lady always pats my bottom now. When i retuned there was a note on the table that had instruction on it for me for chores around the house. One item was there are more dydees down in the diaper bag for me to wear now. My Lady calls my diapers , dydees which is very cute and Lady like. Then my suprise these are much thicker and bulkier then the ones i have been wearing. Then i text My Lady that maybe they wear the wrong size. My Lady gave me no response back, silents means She has controlled my male ego even more.
This was a very big and important day for me as everything was to impress My Lady and Her Mother. All the pose and manners needed to be used as i was taught, for a visit like this. The house was tidy and fresh, though i didn't have any flowers for the table. While i was out working My Lady and Her Mother arrived home and made them selfs comfortable. One extra note here My Ladies Mother has been ill and My Lady has been staying with Her to look after Her Mother.
As i enter the home atfter work My Lady greeted me at the door. Then with a big hug and kisses all over my face my Lady gave me a nipple twist and slapped my bottom, good pet you have you bra and nappies on My Lady said with a spark in Her eyes. My Lady said proudly that She was pleased with the way i followed Her instruction. To come into the kitchen there were present for me. My Lady gave me a beautiful pink apron with frills on the edges. Then my Mother inlaw gave me one of my favorite home baked pies. Then there were lots of hugs and thank you's till sat down and visisted.
My Ladies , Mother sat with me and told me She was very pleased at all the work that had been done around the house. Then my Mother inlaw told me that Her Daughter has never been so happy in Her life. That what we were doing seems to work very well and She was happy for us. Then my Mother inlaw suggested that i could maybe have a look at a few things at Her home to help out. Then i promised i would get over there and see what i could do, this is an honour.
As you may have seen in my forum post, I am now locked up and my wife made me destroy the key, because I was 'naughty.' Anyway, at work yesterday, I asked a valid work related question, inquiring if some stock had come in that I had ordered for the shop. The question was, "Did the condoms arrive yet that I ordered?' The lady next to me asked me, "Why, do you need one right now?" Bitch!!! If only she knew that there was NO way I am able to use condoms right now.
Looking back at all the changes in myself or what i used to be. Yes i still have a long way to go but training and learning has helped me become a better being less male. How cruel i use to be so selfish and not looking after my appearance at all. My Lady has taught me style and manners as a real Lady. Yes i will always know my place but still removing my male thinking and appearance are big steps in the right direction.
There are some new normals for me now as i go outside wearing Womans style shorts with my hairless legs and a cotton blouse. Then there is my Womens hair style my eye brows done so they highlite my eyes. Then there is loosing weight but not too much as that would take away from the shape of my legs. Now i walk heel toe with a little wiggle.
Then i remember the first time My Lady sent me to work with my new purse, that was over a year ago now it is my new normal. Now i love clothes shopping and always on the look for something that will look good and improve my appearance. May seem like a small thing but Ladies pants cover the naval and hold on to above the hips. All my jeans and slacks are of a Womens cut, evey Woman i know knows these things and their acceptance of my look. Shows me that Woman are far more superior.
The weekend can bring a number of things generally, now most importantly is making sure my Mistress is please. Here's to her being taking care of and me getting use to being locked.
Hi - I already own two CDs, a CB3000 and a Curve. I have recently entered into a relationship with a new partner, a stunningly beautiful Kenyan 'princess'. A few months ago, she saw me looking a bdsm websites (including FetLife) and was intrigued. She has since become a bdsm afficionado (with the title Lady Natasha) and at her behest she has persuaded me to buy a steel chastity device for our play sessions. (I should mention that my other CDs are currently not readily accessible). If all she is looking for is for me to wear the new device is for some short term tease and denial, that is fine by me, But I fear that once she has me wearing the new device, she may hide the key! I guess we will just have to see how this all plays out.
After some strong words from my Mistress last night it is setting in that that my life has changed (for the good). Thank you Mistress for transforming me into a locked-femmed-cuckold.
Last night i was finally able to penetrate my Mistress....will kinda. I was going to start to give her, her night oral orgasm when she said "Fuck me" of course I said i can't for obvious reasons but she quickly had me put on a penis extension that covered my entire little cage and stretched over my balls. As soon as she was assured that i could not feel a thing and had no way of getting any pleasure from it she demanded i fuck her until she came. As soon as she came she pushed me off her said goodnight and rolled over as i lay with the thoughts i will never be allowed to please my Mistress with my own penis again.
It is fast approaching a week of being locked. My Mistress wanted a little practice over the the weekend at milking me, she did a little reading on the subject and then decided it would be best for her to thrust her entire fist into me and grab my prostate with her fingers....needless to say within minutes she had my cum running out of my caged little cock. I was such a horrible feeling! She then told me that all future milkings result in me consuming my own juices. I have a feeling this is the start of her turning me into a cum slut.
Hello this is Brandi and I have been instructed by my mistress to start writing about the changes she is making to me both physically and mentally.
I am locked in a lori's device 24/7 now with no end date and a possible once a month milking but i am not sure if that will even happen. I was instructed last night that i have two weeks to get my ass stretched open enough to accept a 3.5" plug....so i will be busy!!!
Pictures will be posted soon so my progress can be seen.
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