Wow it was our wedding aniversary yesterday 16 years and my wife and i are still maddly in love with each other , we went to dinner arrived home , i had to bring her to an orgasm like usuall and then she unlocked me and masturbated me , i was hopeing for proper sex but not to be :-( i was allowed to sleep the night unlocked this has not happened for some time , by the way it had been 47 days since i last cum and have not been allowed intercourse at all this year to date .I have been allowed a total of three orgasms this year none of which i have achived my way i have been kind of milked i guess told to lay back and she masturbates me , oh how i wish to be inside her .... in the morning she instructed me to be relocked , my wife is really taking this serious this year and it has bought us so close and our love for one another is so strong it reminds me of how we were when we first got married , amazing ! i wonder when i will get to cum again i guess my birthday is in july maybe then , quite an amzing and erotic change... supprisingly i want to go with out even longer now like i said in my last post chastity seems to be mess with your head ...in a good way LOL even when unlocked i prefer to sit when going to the bathroom weird LOL
After looking so forward to my 'date' with my on-line mistress, I chickened out. I just could not see myself having an affair with another woman and not feel guilty about it afterwards. It took me about two weeks to get over it and actually have sex with my wife again.
Anyway, I am back in my cage again after a long absence. Like an idiot I took my key to work and forgot it locked away in my desk. I am off tomorrow and the week end, so no sex till Monday for me....wish it was longer!
well things are changing it has been 45 days since i last cum and no hint of anything in the future .I use to get the odd day off a week and the week end with my wife keeping a close eye , now i am only alowed 20 mins on sunday to wash and shave and then locked back up .I used to be allowed out for fuctions and family events but that has stoped as well all i have is the 20 mins on sunday .I have also found the longer you stay locked up the more addictive it becomes as well as frustrating as well as erotic , it is mind altering LOL, this is the longest i have been with out orgasm in my life ,i bring my wife to orgasms alot but as for me just off to sleep . My wife and i have ordered a jailbird for maybe a bit more security and also my wife is hoping i can stay locked with out the 20 min sunday wash only time will tell how that works out .Yesterday she led me into the bathroom and while i was locked in my 6000s she superglued the split ring where it joins at each end so it is effectivly just a two peice chastity belt , i do not know if i can even get the ring off i will find out ond Sunday i guess :-) well i will let you all know how the jailbird works out , still happily locked and owned by my beautiful wife :-)
Learning and obedience for sissy dress code. The male mind can be destuctive and has to be controlled. Being preocuppied with sissification i have found my male think has changed so much and has improved. Yes i do enjoy wearing Womans clothing and the subtle changes My Lady has imposed into my dress code.
Since my near miss little accident last fall My Lady decreed , my work and chastity was too dangerous. My Lady wisdom is noted, but control was still needed for my male mind. My Ladies solution is Womans adult peach coloured diapers. After wearing them for four months i do feel naked with out them. The rubber pants are also very humbling because i am so aware of my looks. Yes i always have to tuck myself for the diaper to work if i need it and i really try not too.
Thank goodness i wear Womans cut pants that are higher on the waist and more room in the hip area. This help in concealing my condition and the panty girdle help make the area a little flater. Under some circumstances accidents have happened and losing control of my bladder is very humiliating but now i need protection. My Lady seems to know what to do, way before i know whats coming.
I have decided to rename my pet, from now on she is called jemima or jem for short. I am so pleased with the way she is learning fom my training. This weekend I was at home watching her do her chores as my little maid. I know she gets nervous when I watch her working but a sense of calm and tranquility came over me as I watched her flitting about the lounge in her short skirt hoovering and dusting. I patted her bottom when she came close to me. I think next weekend I will have her remove her panties when she cleans, allowing me more access to her. Each morning she brings me tea on her tray and prettily curtseys to wish me good morning, then curtseys again as she bobs out of the bedoom.
her maid training will continue but I also intend to train her in bedroom duties as my playgirl. I have many exciting ideas to engage her in. she may not like all of them but I'm sure she will do them all just to please me. I have been lenient with her lately but no doubt I will need to punish her from time to time. she must remember that I am her Mistress and she is my servant.
Recently I found out that I was born with Klinefelter's - XXY born with an extra female chromosome. I had suspected this for some time now and it was recently confirmed.
As much as I love to be a sissy it's definitely a mind fuck to know that you were born intersex.
My 2 latest blog post talk more about this. I also discuss how I will be relocating to the Phoenix, Arizona area and I look forward to meeting kinksters in the area as I don't know anyone there. I'm relocating as I received a job offer and this will be in the late summer. There are lots of new pictures posted in actually my 3 most recent postings.
It's been a while since I've even been on this blog. My goddess has released me from the cage for several weeks now (since beginning of February). We made an agreement that I can be free from the cb-6000 if I continue to lose weight until I reach my goal.
I'm in no way obese. I'm 6'3" and weigh 262 lbs - mostly from years of weight lifting but my ideal weight is 250 lbs. (I can bench 300 lbs and curl 50 lb with each bicep). But, a spare tire has grown around my waist and I haven't been able to kick it for over a year and a half. So, chastity to the rescue...
Here's the agreement: I will weigh in every day under Goddess' supervision. If I go up a pound, I must put the CB-6000 back on until I lose five pounds. If I reach my target weight, I can remain free until our next agreement.
Really do not know how to interpreting dreams but last night was so real. Will try my best to explain, waking up i realized it was a dream. There i was with tight curly hair and big button earings in hot pink. Still had my male body sort of, except for having large breast with larger nipples and my testicles has disappeared, just my little thingy with it's prince albert hanging there.
Seemed my whole body was so sensitive and soft silky clothing was all that could touch my skin. Then a good breeze would make my nipples stand up hard, my little thingy did nothing. As i dressed in a white blouse with buttons up the back, this seem to take hours. Some knee high socks and gridle panties. Then a pleated skirt blue with white poka dots and lace. Then a pair of flats a shiny brown with one strap.
Then my body was flush with a rush of blood as i felt renewed and comfortable. My Lady enter the room dress in 4 inch heels and Her hair done high beehive with long shiny earings. She had on a gray skirted business suit with a white ruffed and laced blouse. My Lady then took out some bright red lipstick and applied it to my lips, say now you look proper mypet.
My Mistress wife bought me a new chastity device. It is called the "Brig" it is a all stainless steel and definitly impossible to get out of or break. I love that she wants to make sure my tiny dick never feels a woman ever again.
I have now reached a point in my training of pet to believe it is time to step up his progression into a more feminine state. It is my opinion that when a male sub gives complete control of his sexual urges to his Mistress, it is only a matter of time until a progression towards a more feminine state of mind will naturally happen.
He is already completely shaven of his body hair from the neck down and I now intend to introduce him to lingerie and dresses. He is not in complete agreement with me on this but I will introduce it only at home and gradually I think he will come to enjoy it. I will certainly enjoy seeing him carrying out his household chores in pretty skirts and panties.
I have bought two little skirts which I think will suit his small frame. One is a grey schoolgirl short skirt and the other an ultra short tartan mini which will display pretty lace knickers.
Last night My Lady had me give Her a massage and i rubbed Her whole beautiful body down. Then My Lady showed me where the rough spots are on my skin. Then My Lady laid me on my back and sat on top of me feeling Her weight on my hips. Then She pulled on my nipples and with great passion looked deep into my soul.
My Lady said to me , I own you mypet your body and your mind. My Lady continued , mypet you will have beautiful breast and be pretty to serve Me as i choose. The little thingy you call male member is truly useless and has no future. Yes mypet we have come a long way but we have a lot more work to do. My Lady looking down at me the view i had was of a great Goddess who has all power over me.
Then i realize My Lady was so right as Her power over me has grown and my lessons have increased. Yes i do My Ladies bidding without question and feel better about myself because i feel the improvement. The fact that My Lady truly enjoys controlling me is something for me to live for.
To be close to My Lady everyday is such an honour and i'm so thankful. Learning is very hard sometimes for me but when there is a break through for my inferior male mind. Now i can understand why My Lady didn't trust me in the begining of our relationship and has reservations about me now. As i watch at how childish and sneaky i was not being a real sissy wife.
All i have to do is stop and listen to My Lady and learn, She is willing to help me become a better sissy. The softer prettier side of life is much more satisfying. Being a male was the lazy roll in life, thinking work was more important and not worrying about home life. Home life is where all my happiness comes from now.
Watching My Lady i can understand why She doesn't trust males as they make passes and come ons to date Her. When they know full well My Lady is in a special relationship with me. Yes i do trust My Lady with my life and care , She could have any male She wants. My Lady has Her own reasons why She prefers to be with me and i do not question those reasons. My Lady has opened so many doors for me, i cannot pay Her back in my lifetime.
Okay i have been locked in chastity for a couple days now. the steel cage device has a good bit of weight to it, it seems like it becomes heavier as the day passes. being new to this i seem to be learning how not to move because of a small pinch factor on my device. at the very top where the cage fits to the ring and the lock holds everything secure. a few wrong moves and i am one sore puppy...
The Wife come home late last night and woke me as she inspected me to see if i had remained in my device for her. She seems to be thrilled at my not having any control over my own orgasms anymore. I enjoy that she wears the key on a necklace just like the Domi's do on the videos we see on the internet. We have a safety plan in case something goes wrong or i become hurt and in need of quick release. She placed an extra key inside a sealed envlope and left it on the night stand. of course if i open the envelope she will know and i had better have good reason for doing it.
After my quick inspection she snuggled close to me and held my device in her hand gently while she spent about an hour playing with her new vibe. i got so hard inside my cage i could barely stand it. watching her in pleasure, and wanting her, feeling her body shake as she would climax and squeeze me in her hand. after a little while of this i was ready and i wanted it so bad i knew device or not i was going to explode. so i told her i felt i was ready if she wanted it. she give me a mischievious smile and said go ahead cum for me now... i tried, i tried.... i tried and moaned and groaned. i could'nt .... unbelieveable i was stuck on the edge and just couldnt make it happen. I think she enjoyed this because of a good amount of giggling at me as i tried to reach my orgasm... she then told me it was time i got out of bed and went to get the day started, i have chores she expects me to do each day only today im dealing with some intense shaking mostly in my legs and so so sore... maybe if i'm good today she will give me another chance tonight. i do hope this soreness gets better if not then maybe reconcider those plastic cb6000 devices. the comment i made awhile back saying sacrifice comfort for quality and get your moneys worth... well maybe that wasnt the best decision.
When I was much younger I never thought I'd become a dominant Mistress. When I first met up with my pet Jimmy/Cagedslave our relationship was pretty normal, but it wasn't long before I realised that he loved domineering bossy women. I had always been a rather fiesty girl and saw no problem with it. I found out that a few slaps on his legs and bottom could produce a raging hard-on.
When we finally got hitched up it became apparent he was really into a BDSM way of life. He purchased a range of bondage gear together with an evil looking leather strap and a crook handled rattan school cane. I was a bit timid using the cane on him at first, but I soon got to love the feeling of power it gave me. I became expert at using it. I love the way it bends and whistles through the air as I bring it down on his butt cheeks. The big change however came when he suggested I put him in a chastity cage.
The first one he bought was a cheap chinese metal cage. Although it looked good on him, it was really just too easy to escape from. He is pretty average size when erect, but when flaccid it's very small, so I suggested the CB 6OOOS. It fits him like a glove. He looks so cute in the tiny cage. At first it was just a few days caged up, but when he went for longer durations I found his whole attitude changed for the better. He became gentler and more attentive to me. I suggested he should go for a six month session, which he is now half-way through. Although I am the breadwinner and work fulltime, he does all the housework, cleaning, cooking and everything. When I get home I don't have to lift a finger (except of course when he needs correction) . I thought I would miss penetrative sex with him but he has become so good at oral, using his tongue, hands and an array of vibrators that I now enjoy his attentions more than before. I do reward him on his release days with penetrative sex but he enjoys it far more than me.
The understanding of my new world becomes less complicated with my relationship for My Lady. The new life of a sissy and exploring the transgender options is very exciting. Though these thoughts were taboo only a few years ago now our goals are just around the corner.
Changing can be hard and cause disaster, My Ladies wisdom of going slowly is the right path. Little things that make my appearance change on step at a time. Like i never had earings at anytime, then My Lady march me into a salon and had my ears done. The first day back at work, i did get a few double takes but then the compliments started as to look right for my face.
The a softer tomboy wardrobe works so well out in public. People seem to be more at ease around me and more friendly. Being 6'2" i am just a little larger then most but i feel the comfort zone working just by people greeting me with smiles and eye contact.
Becoming more dependent on feeling like a sissy almost addicted. The acceptance of my desire to be more feminine is working for me. Wanting to really change now because some big steps have been taken towards real change. Next month i start electrolysis on my white hairs of my male beard. That will take many months but is very necessary and needed.
On thursday was My Ladies and myself salon day with Shanon, who does my laser. As per usual no chastity or Ladies depends as Shanon doesn't need to see that and i am in close quarters with My Lady. Though we left early there was a snow storm and driving was difficult at best. The urge to have a bathroom break was in the back of my mind and had a stop planned out. Yes i'm getting old and i tried to hold on, there was some embarrassing leaking. Even with all my will some dampness showed as i pulled the car over panicking to get out of the car. My Lady giggling at my situtation some how She understood.
With a damp spot on the area i was so embarrassedmy face just red, My Lady said don't worry pet no one will notice. Even though My Lady noticed at my problem with control and not planning ahead to look after my needs. Then i realized i need protection all of the time in case of other accidents. This has really upset me that the loss of control was so quick and My Lady had prescribe the diaper long before this became an issue. This took a few days of thought to realize i need protection and dependence from My Lady.
