My Lady looked after me since friday because my back went out. Even with my injured back i could not stand up with out great pain. My Lady never let up on her control over me. My Lady feed me and run a hot salted bath for me to soak in. After the bath My Lady painted my toe nail a bright red and did my hair in a high ponytail.
Saturday My Lady was dressed in a beautiful white blouse and ankle lenght leather hobble shirt, a sight to die for. My Lady imformed me that she wanted to have sex tonight and with me! My Lady put my hair into a bun on top of my head and tied it with a bright pink pom pom. My Lady took off my clothes and ran another hot salted bath and put me in the bath. As i was soaking because of my back My Lady entered the room in a short white dress. She look delicious, ok pet i'm going to wash you and shave you. For about an our My Lady scubbed me and shaved me till i was smooth all over.
There are some hairs still left from the laser treatment but they will soon be gone. After the washing and shaving my Lady gave me a baby oil rub down to make my skin softer. Then dried me off and put a blanket on the leather couch so the oil wouldn't stain the leather
My Lady took me shopping and bought me lovely dress pants and shirts so i would look good when we go out as a couple. This was after the laser treatment, which was very interesting as my Lady and the laser lady made a game out of finding the odd hair on my body. They worked well as a team my Lady would stretch my skin so the laser would have a flat surface to work on.
Then we went shopping for an engagement ring for my Lady, yes we are going to get married soon!!!!!!!!!.
On the way out of the sears store my Lady stopped and bought me some training bras. I love the smile my Lady gets when she does something like that when she is pleased
My Lady did it last night!!!!!!!!!!!. My Lady tremed and layered my hair the did my hair in curlers. Then as she finshed the styling of my hair We had the Oh My God moment my lady had me dressed in a sweat and a plaid mini and it looks like i will pass in public as a lady!!!!!!!!!
To Day there will be no chastity or plug because it is laser treatment day
I dont think I am controlling as much as I had thought. Cj and I are having some problems. Last night we dicussed our commitment to eachother. I hope we can get back on the right track we had been just there. All these other things going on in life do cause stress but its not excuse to push me away. If you dont already know what happened he pushed me away to go pee when I woke him in the middle of the night for sex. That did hurt me so I covered up and laid down, he didnt try to recover my mood. He laid down and went to sleep. I have been so hurt and pissed, set off a bit of mania. I want to hurt him back. I had a wonderful plan of punishment for him but my emotions go in my way again. I hurt someone else in the of my anger, It was my mistake. Not many of you have experinced my mania, but yes its like Im another person. I did not mean to upset anyone. We all have bad days, please forgive mine. Im very hurt and angery but thats not your fault. If you know how to keep your emotions from ruining a wonderful plan of revenge let me know.. Im not sure where we are going from here... My plan is to go back to the begining, I think.
My Lady took me to a saloon to have my ears pierced. While waiting for My Lady to pick out which ones and the placement of the holes. She told me to sit on the bench and wait. There were two other ladies there and they all watched as my ears were pierced. This was the biggest thing i have done to show my desire to be sissefied for my Lady. Every one can see them there are little steel hoops with the attach ball and one on each ear. So glad that it is done and i'm moving forward to where My Lady wants me to be.
After the piercing my Lady let me take her for dinner as she smiled at me at dinner. I could see My Lady was pleased with the earings she had chosing. Then on the way home we stopped at a store and my Lady picked out a few skirts and blouses for me to where around the house. She said the maid uniforms are nice and sexy but for every day dressing these is what you should be wearing.
My Lady talked with me and said the though she loved dressing me she loved having me in bondage more. She felt more in control when I am bound and gagged so she can haveher way with me.
Geeze i think i picked a rather apropreate haddle for my self beacuse im really confused about this one maybe some one can help claify?
Ok this is what i don't understand, I've been on this site roughly 6 months now give or take , I've had 127 people kindly take a look at my profile and not one, not one person has left me a message or even a comment or rated my page OR has even had the courtesy or responding to any of my emails :( geeze depressing much? not Im not looking for all kinds of attention here or anything of the sort, but it would be nice for at least one person to acknowledge i exist? what do i have to do? get a cute pink chastity and slip into a pair of panties before some one notices me? or even a frilly pink latex dress and high heels?? i just don't understand how or why a lot of these middle aged, over wight, and out of shape men, bois ,sissies are finding key holders to there chastity, look Im 23, thin, fit, VERY neat and clean AND yes even a virgin ( including my behind ) Im not a hideous shud or anything some have said even a tad Feminine, well maybe more then just a little, so what is it exactly about me that people find so offensive? now that thats all out of the way, let the great experiment begin! ( you'll see what I mean later)
OH MY GOD! i finally figures it all out :D Weee! a cookie for me! i get it now, my "bits" arn't meant to be used on a woman, there meant to be locked away in chastity, dare i say it, for ever i'm afraid, i know know that no girl in there right mind would EVER even conceder me i mean common.... you've seen my pics by now, hahah my god in my short, little life ill be lucky to even touch a girls boob at this point, i just hope the woman i do finally do give the key to my chastity to isn't to harsh or mean OH WAIT! ha they would actually have to respond or wright me an email in the first place :p
Time has past so fast. I didn't realize It has been so long. I was distracted by a period, then a cyist, then a yeast infection. He has been recoving himself from the damage the bridlock mini caused. He had been out a few days before I had him put the mini on, he went straight to work with it on. When he came home he asked if he could switch back to the 3k, before he could explain I told him yes just so switch I didnt want to hear him whin about whatever his excuse was. He did as he was told. The next day I asked what the reason was and he offered to show me. The ring on the mini had cut into him all the way around his balls and the tip of his penis. I felt bad for being a bitch about it the night before. I dint realize he was bleeding, I thought he was just whinning. He has been free since healing but told no touching. So far its good well, although he has thought about cheating he didnt. Im glad I can trust him so much :) jerking off in the shower really pisses me off. Im going ti take some pictures of his cuts tonight. They look mostly healed but may scar. Guess I left my mark without needed a tattoo :)
I may let him cum tonight if he can. Planning to use my favorite strap-on, the double delight, but want him to come without being stroked. We will have to see what happens. I want to be penatrated but dont want to spread infection to him and get it back. My strapon wont mind the condom use.
Other things in life are still crazy. I feel better meds wise but still a bit on the manic side. I have even been helping out more around the house which cj appreciates. Oldest kid is doing ok, still struggling with his advancement but doing better than before. Him throwing a glass of water at me is much better than being stabbed. The youngest healed great from surgery and looks pretty normal down there now. He is crawling and pulls himself up on things now. Life will be so much more crazy when he is walking around too.
Have been playing with a chastity belt i have modified to fit me well and ticks the right boxes ie escape proof & orgasm proof + comfortable. The problem i have now is if i lock myself in for more than 4 days the hip belt gives my skin a rash which can ulcerate as my skin becomes more inflamed.Hoping someone has overcome this annoying problem so i can extend my complete frustration with this belt.
My Lady was telling me her plans for me. She knows my bottom is virgin to a man taking it. As she pulled on my nipples and fingered my bottom. My Lady explained how she wants me to be fucked by an ungratful male. To have me used and used till my bottom full of cum. To know how it feels to be taken against my feelings. How it feels to spend so much time to look pretty and prepaired. Pet trust his Lady and knows this is for my humilation so i will be a better pet for my Lady.
The thought of being controlled by my Lady brings up a total over coming desire to please her. This makes me feel so different but good and hot. i find it very hard to discribe what i'm feeling but i do not want it to stop. My Lady says that learning how hard it is to be a woman will make me a better pet. pet wants to be pretty in my Ladies eyes.
My Lady told me as she was putting in my plug for the day that she is very impressed that it goes in to my nice juicy bottom.
Friday was finally here! The day my Beautiful Jessica was to allow me the honor of having an orgasm. My semen, a gift to Her, which I obediently kept stored within me. It had been 145 days. The longest I have ever gone in my life with at least masturbating myself to release. Of course since I gave Her control of our sex life, that was no longer allowed... At least not without Jessica's permission.
I woke up Friday. Erection straining, proudly, making a tent in the blanket. Jessica woke about the same time. She glanced down at the bulge in the blanket and smiled. "Oh, look whose up" she said in a baby talk sort of way. "Is someone all excited today?" She then got up and took a quick shower, and sat at on the edge of the bed, her beautiful body still wet. "Your turn" she said. I got up, and took my shower, shaved and when I came out, I was already erect again, and saw that she was already dressed. "Get dressed, we need to go shopping" she said with a big smile, as she spoke her eyes were cast at my erection. She was talking to it, not me. I guess She knew figured that because of my long time of denial, frustration and my preoccupied thoughts, that I had basically become a walking penis. I think She was right.
I started getting dressed. I had to actually bend my deprived penis down to get my pants up. A quite painful experience, but one I had learned to accept, though never really got used to from having had to endure it many times before. After a bit, I knew my penis would again soften in disappointment, as it had to so many times before. More times than I would even want to count after these long 145 days.
Shopping took about two hours. We left the market, She drove both there and back. Parking the car in the driveway, Jessica got out as She handed me the keys and said "Bring in the groceries and put them away" then walked into the house. I watched Her walk and was in love with every step She took. No, I was lusting at every movement of Her body. When She got to the door She looked back at me, slid Her hand into the front of Her pants, pulled them out and slid a finger into Her mouth. That did it, I was getting hard again. I got the groceries and put them away. She had the television on and was watching the news by the time I'd finished.
I sat down with her and watched with her. I Didn't dare say anything as I feared being deprived the orgasm I was hoping for. But time passed. Hours passed. It was close to ten at night. Jessica was in the kitchen and I was back in the den. I was becoming concerned. I knew She knew what I was thinking, but I still said to Her "What time is it" As She was walking back into the room. It was my pathetic attempt at a reminder. I knew better... thinking with my penis and not my brain. "It's Nine Thirty, why?" She asked. I hesitated and managed to say "I was just wondering what was on TV" It sounded like a stupid reply even to me as it stammered out of my mouth. "Oh... OK" she said in a both sarcastic and suspicious way. She then grabbed the TV guide handing it to me and said "Here, take a look" with a knowing smirk on Her face.
That night I went to bed feeling defeated and frustrated, but dared not show it. She came to bed, leaned in and kissed me on the forehead and said "good night my sweet little boy" It was a long night. I finally managed to fall asleep. I woke up once during the night about Four in the morning, with a hard on of course. I quietly got out of bed, then got back in on top the covers. I glanced down at my unsatisfied penis, as it pointed to the ceiling. I joined it in looking at the ceiling. I finally fell back asleep.
My Lady came home from work last night and it felt so good to she her and hold her. She checked my chastity and plug and i knew she was pleased. My Lady told me she was going un lock me so I can have a good cleaning. As i was standing there naked waiting for my Lady to dry herself. She looked at me and asked what are you waiting for? I blushed and said i wanted to pull the butt plug out but not in front of her. Go ahead I'm a nurse and you are going to be wearing diapiers soon any way and I'm use to that. One more step to giving up control of my body to My Lady.
Sitting there on the toilet my Lady came over and held my face in her hands and kissed me on the lips and gave me a loving smile with those beautiful eyes of her. My Lady turns me on so much. My Lady let me have sex with her last night and i feel like a complete failer because i came so fast. My Lady is just to beautiful and feels so good I'm putty.
My Lady knows how to keep me in my placejust above her dogs and well below her status. The photo shoot we did a little while ago. She tighten the ear rings to a point just before they hurt but i knew they were there. While my Lady pulled and tug my hair giving me a hair style, i felt so helpless so under control. Dressed in an maids uniform with the false breasts and a bra. With no panties on just my cb6000 and my plug. When my Lady held my face and looked down on me with a beautiful smile and glowing eyes gave me a kiss in the lips. Lets go and take some pictures of you pet My Lady said.
Finding hard to understand being so humilated and shamed turns me on so much i don't think about what is happening but it sure feels right. My Lady gave me a dildo and told me to suck on it. She told me to take it in deep farther in the throat do gag, Thats what a woman has to do to please an man my Lady says with a sexy grin.
My Lady can always surprise me almost shock me any time she wants. One rule for me is after my shower i'm not allowed to wear pants or shorts before bed. My Lady can look and see in an instant what i'm think. Yes just one more step towards total control.
I had been locked up with no release for 47 days. This past Saturday night after a night out my Goddess instructed me to make us each a drink and I was to watch the late night news untill she came back into the rec room. I knew she was in the bedroom preparing something. When she returned she was wearing a black teddy with green trim, black stockings, fuck me pumps and long opera black opera gloves. She came over to me took her drink and sat down next to me on the couch very close.
At this point my cock was already straining to get out of my CB6000 and the pain was marvelous. Goddess took my drink from me and told me to strip. Once naked with the exception of my CB she handed me back my drink and told me to sit back down. We watched the news as she played with my hurting cock, pinching and pulling on my swollen balls.
The strain of my cock trying to become erect within my CB was pulling my balls to the hilt. The toture is so wonderful. After the news we went to bed and Goddess released me from my restraint.
My Lady likes and wants me dressed as a sissy maid. Which is a dream come true for me. The way my Lady smiles at me and giggles at my humilation. My favorite words from her are likes check your chastity and plug. Having her reach under my dress and tug my front and push in my bottom makes me feel completely helpless under her power. Have to keep you stretched my pet you have to learn what we woman have to go through, my Lady says. Makes me weak in the knees everytime!
Love the way she always ahead of me on hte training. Sit up straight and keep your ankles crossed knees together, I never thought howmany things i took for granted. My Lady did my braid for me this morning and she did it high on the backof my head. Girls where there ponytails high and man wear it low, so now people will get use to me wearing it high and fem style just to show the control my Lady has over me. There is not a moment i don't thank my Lady for her teaching and controlling me. Some times things slow down a little and my Lady is right on top of my training thank you my Lady
My Lady cam back from shopping tonight. what a thrill she had faults eye lases ,lip stick,eye liner, long dangling silver pierced ear rings. My Lady said next time we are out together she will have both my ears pierced, what a beautiful feeling i had deep inside. My whole body shook a little.
My Lady released me tonight so i feel that i'm not going outside for a little while. Really feels good to have some one like My Lady controling every bit of my life, every turn i fall deeper in love with this beautiful Lady. The way My Lady dresses me and does my hair, the power in her eyes. draws the soul right out of me. Giving up my manhood is not easy or natural because i do fall back on my old habits. Which is why her control is much more powerful and her willstronger then mine.
Now every moment I'm away i long for her to be near me.
Things have been slow. Not much to tell. Cj got free time after his last performance. I was considering letting this so called self control continue but then I was irriated when it had been 5 days since I got attention. My sex drive is much higher than his most of the time. I was pissed to have to masterbate again. I think he should take care of that for me but he was at work. I believe I should never have to take care of that on my own. He did point out that even when he does, I still masterbate. Guess I just like to cum. anyway, I was mad about that and a panty violation so he was told to lock back up. Hopefully he will get straightened out now.
I have considered playing an online game with other males but Im still unsure. I dont know to what level and how many will want to play along... but its a thought.
Yep, today is #130 without an orgasm. My relationship with my wife has never been better. Go figure, haha. Last night I was horny as hell and humped and humped and humped. She was very tolerant and just slept through it instead of telling me to quit.
She now is also very tolerant about letting me lick her feet. Even if she's been out shopping or running errands and they are sweaty and dusty. Licking her toes is basically now a replacement for my orgasms. There is some sense of satisfaction after doing it.
I can't quite figure out her change. She seems extremely content with our state of affairs. Maybe it's the no more arguing. There's a lot to be said for that.
After healing up from the flu, My Lady locked me into chastity and sent meoff to work. While i was at work My Lady sent me a text, telling me to come home early because we have to do extra training to catch up. What a rush my poor little thingy was pushing against it's CB6000 short for all it was worth.
When I got home My Lady was in the shower and as she came out she told me to shower before dinner and put on what she had laid out. After my shower and shave I went down to the room. There was a black satin maids uniform, fishnet stocking, a padded bra with false breasts and a under skirt ruffle. Then My Lady told me she will put on my bra and for me to dress myself and come upstairs for dinner. Feeling very horny my hands shook a little as i put on the fish nets and then the apron. Almost five trys to tie the bow looking in the mirror. A four inch heel is a girls best friend i told myself trying to balance myself.
All part of my training to know what a woman has to do for a man. Sitting with my ankles crossed, with the CB6000 i have to be careful about where my jewals hang because they get crushed between my legs if i hold my legs together. Ajusting them so no one will see i have to just so careful. Many things to learn and to get good at. Thank you My Lady oxox