As each day passes i so listen to ever word My Lady speaks. Now i realize that My Ladies deep love and respect for me. Respect from the great conversations we have on all matters as She listens to my opinion. To clarify i am My Ladies submissive pet but not a door mat which really builds a good relationship foundation.
My Ladies love is expressed through control and mindful training of my behaviour. When i recieve compliments about my hair or youthful appearance, i think of what My Lady has done for me. Having my male beard slowly disappearing people get use to my new look slowly. My Lady was very adamant about the slow transition of my appearance. Please don't take this wrong My Lady also pushed me along to go out dressed as a Woman and pass in public.
My Lady is so calculating in my training Her control is always with me. Wearing control panties with the diaper and my bra always reminds me of my place. Now when i do have a accident while in my diaper i am ashamed to report my loss of control to My Lady. Then i have so much fear that my accident may leak out and be seen by others. On the other hand the diaper therapy does make me feel weaker and allows me to become more humble. With male ego's in the road of me becoming a true sissy, this is an important learning curve.
My Lady has been collecting adult size bibs. This clothing item excites something deep inside of me. Slowly as My Lady takes control of little things in my life an overwhelming feeling of letting go takes over. This feeling has less fight in because of the faith that i have in My Ladies ability to look after me and my affairs.
Please don't misunderstand me, i love everything that is happening to me. Learning and obeying is a great relief to my soul. My Lady has a habit of talking out loud about Her plans of my situatiom. Just like when She told me about the adult size bibs for me was a body slam of emotions. All i could think of was being bound to a chair and waiting for My Lady to feed me, take another bit of my independence away. Right now i sit at the table with my dinner in front of me and wait for My Lady to bless our meal.
The training under My Ladies control is slow but meticulous of every bad habit i have. She is finding many wrong male thoughts and habit i was not aware of. Yes i'm slow at picking up the suttle things i do wrong. Once the poor male thinking is pointed out i have to get to work on changing the way i do things. With all my hopeful efforts to change to become a better less worrisome pet that will be a benefit to My Lady. Now all i want to do is beg for forgiveness from My Lady.
The feeling of becoming a transgender sissy is becoming a reality in some areas of my life. Having to work to finsh business to be able to transition with breast implants. To be able to stay at home and look after My Lady in the way She deserves.
Having taken on some very big projects in my life and built a business out of nothing. Now i'm changing my whole life into another direction takes a lot of work. Planning and timing are hard to meet such goals but not impossible. Being focused on the goals takes far more effort once on the path to a real life style. Change always take motovation and desire and My Lady gives me that. Other changes in our lives, we have no control over and have to accept and deal with.
My Lady has giving me the strength and courge to change. This is not a little thingy but the greatest gift any one person can give another. With the amount of divorces in the world i know My Lady and my relationship is built on a very firm foundation.
With ever fiber of my being becoming feminine is making me want it more. My Lady has brought passion into my life that i didn't know i could have. Most people in the world would not understand these deep seeded desires that have be locked away so deep, almost gone.
My Ladies training and guidance has helped me replace my old male ways with a softer more caring way of Ladies. Now that i realize all the care and effort that is done to make a relationship work. This humbling experince has change the way i look at life so much. Pretty and cozy is so important now.
My Lady is coming into Her own right as She leads the household to a better place. When My Lady corrects me just in social occasions make me very aware of the care She is giving me. Now that over a year has past with the adjustments we have made to fit the life style. The work and passion has not faltered and always goes back on track.
Tomorrow will be 2 months with my CB6000! Hard (well not quite) to believe it has been 2 months. I have become comfortable wearing it. In fact, last weekend I was without it and missed being locked very much. Angie is becoming comfortable with my chastity. She instructed me to wear it to work yesterday. It felt good to be locked. It has taken her a while to get used to me being in chastity. But, she is.
We met a bull online. He knows his way around chastity and cuckolding. Time will tell how things will work out. Amazingly, Angie seems open to him. This is a big change for her. Usually she does not like online conversations. I wonder if it is my cage that has opened her. One of chastity's ironies. I am locked which frees her.
On Sunday my Boss "wife" handcuffed me to a chair, naked, with no cage and got on the bed in front of me and teased me while using her viabrator. Afetr a while she came and licked my balls and cock, rubbed the viabrator and and down my cock and balls. She eventually sat on me and rode me till I came in her. She stood up a bit and let my cum drip down onto my cock. She lay on the bed again and played with herself till she came. That was all fun, but what happened next made me worried.
We showered than I had to cut, file and paint her toenails. She then said its my turn, 'my turn' I thought? She got some light blue nail varnish and painted my toenails. We are going on leave form Monday, and she alreday said that she will do my finger nails too when we start leave. I joked and asked "Are you going to through my underwear away and make me wear panties?" She did not respond. I don't know if i am looking forward to my leave anymore.
by way of an introduction, i am rather asexual, and a tranny. i responded to a posting on a cuckold website from a man named uk slut hunter although Angela isnt a slut at all and is classy and elegant and he is cultured and seems right for her. we haven't had sex for a long long time and she needed to find a man and i think he will subsequently be the one. i have been under his insruction now for a month so and have sent contact details photos and lots of other information and i hope to be able to introduce him to my wife before christmas.I'm not locked but am practicing self restraint on his orders at present - i have so much to tell everyone so i hope you'll encourage me xx
Now i feel so much more fulfillment in my life becoming a sissy. With the loss of all body hair, a hideous male trait. The thinning of my beard no the progress of the laser treatments is really starting to show and feel. Having body and facial hair always made me feel unclean and icky. Now with each passing day i get excited about what little change is happening. To see the softer more feminine look take over my appearance.
The fact that My Lady disposed of my reserve of male clothing in one final really helped my conviction to becoming a full time sissy. Losing any other option is a great benefit to my transformation.
Now i seem to be more focused on my appearance and what to wear. My Lady says She can't wait till i wear mascara and make up. When i fastasized about becoming a sissy, i never thought about how much work it would be. Work is the wrong word to become a sissy for me is the most motovation i have ever had. That means the progress in changing is done with energy and devotion. My Ladies training and corretion keeps me on the straight and narrow path to begin a sissy.
Hello , I recently found a very absolute way to prevent myself from getting hard ons , I simply take a small ball or just make one from surgical tape , than on the final wrapping i insert thumb-tacks in the tape so they protrude outwards , than insert it into the cb6000s chastity device that i wear ,than i put my cock in and lock it up tight, any hard-ons that i may get will certainly bring on thier "very severe punishment" as you can imagine . it's the only way that i have found to totally educate my cock not to get hard , best way to do this is to have your hands cuffed behind your back and watch some stag movies . it won't take very long untill you will reliaze the pain that a hard on will bring you .
I had been in my cage again for only two days when my wife surprised me. We were having a BBQ, my wife finished a bottle of wine by herself (unusual as she normally doesn't drink much), I had a few beers and followed with a few whiskeys. After we ate , she started washing the dishes. She stopped and went to the loo, when she came back she had no pants or pnties on, a small tease I thought. I didn't think this would head anywere as she normally isn't in the mood after supper and drinks. After a few minutes, she took her T-shirt off, then bra, threw the bra at me and put the T-shirt back on. I thought I would try my luck, I was in the mood for a good T and D session. I went to the loo, and took all my clothes off too. I went and lay on the couch, and rubbed my cage as though I was maturbating. She told me get a DVD and put it in to keep myself in the mood. I did it and get hard as I could in my cage instantly. She said she wants the 'real thing', unlocked me and told me to wash myself off while she finished in the kitchen. I did as I was told. Well, that was the forplay, if you can call it that, she came and climbed on me staright away, without so much as a kiss. I was moaoning with pleasure as she rode my hard cock and rubbed her tits. It was awesome, but too short. I couldn't hold on long and shot my load into her, I then watched her rub her clit to orgasm. This morning I had to wash my cage and put it back on. Every now and then my wife has the ability to do something which is not her nature and surprises me like this, and love that about her. She promised me a 'props day' tomorrow, not sure what she will all use, but she did mention handcuffs. Cool, I can't wait.
My Lady explained to me why She is so careful with Her pets. As to there care and control is the most important to Her. Having had the injury the other day My Lady pointed out that the diaper was better for my outside work. Just a few more inches and the injury would have had grave results of breaking the chastity device. My Lady with all the authority of a true Alfa Woman spoke very clearly.
Now that all the disgusting male clothes are gone. That i will only be allowed to wear clothes fitting for a sissy. That my diaper chastity will be for a longer more justified time. My Lady allowed me to hear Her plans about locking me into my diaper with ever larger butt plugs. So that i will learn control and understand that My Lady is in control over everything in my life. My Lady describe how it will help make me more humble and obedient. All part of my training to become a sissy house wife.
Being in dresses and diapers is a real good combination for control as my focus will not wander away from my duties to My Lady. My Lady is very wise to keep me so busy as to not become bored and Her training is really doing a wonderful job at it.
Yesterday while i was at work My Lady went through the basement. There was a storage of male clothes just encase i may have to wear them. No more My Lady gathered all of them and donated then to Goodwill. When i realized this as She was explaining why this is for my own good. Hanging on to the past is poor male thinking as i could escape back to being a male.
My Lady is so right in Her ways as i begin to adjust to the no return to old ways. The powerful way My Lady sorts out and plans my changing with exacting control. There are so many levels of control that i never even thought of to change to become a sissy house wife.
After a good night sleep and a little time to adjust to fact that there is no turning back. A real inner peace fulled my heart with happiness and joy, but a relief that i am cared for. Becoming a fulltime sissy is my life long dream but wouldn't happen on my own. My Lady has made the greatest difference in my transformation by filling in the my missing pieces to make me feel complete.
Having a complete and every increasing ladies wardobe with all the little extras. Has me just thinking about pretty things and what will i wear today. This is the most exciting feeling i have ever had and i wish that i could explain it more. Now that being hairless over my whole body feels so incredibly good and feminie. Now i just love to look in the mirror and adjust my hair to look more Woman like.
Reading about the transgenders and all the little secerts about passing into the world of being female fultime. My Lady has found these things in me and really helped me find myself. After a life time of some success in business and social groups. My Lady has helped me find a direction that we both seem to really enjoy and motivate us.
Sharing so many secerts is very rewarding and sexy. My Lady seems more and more comfortable being more incharge over my whole being. After all the things i have been through i never thought i could and would fall so madly in love with such a Dominate force as in My Lady. She now expects me to lower my eyes when speeking to Her. My Lady openly corrects me in public and has me wait till She is finshed doing Her business. She has me walk in Lady like way with my steps in a row and a little wiggle.
My Ladies training has brought out little problems that i have not dealt before. Being order around was one of my biggest problems as my male ego wasn't dealt with yet. With steady and reasonable request orders from My Lady, my life has become easier and happier.
Learning to work under the stricter watchful control of My Lady is making a good team with My Lady acceptance of my sometimes male ego. Lossing control of my life is so sweet like being smothered in love. Now i'm absolutely surprised at my obedience to My Ladies commands. With out any really thought now towards even a little pout acceptance is welcome.
My Ladies Mother was speaking to My Lady about how much i have changed. Speaking about how feminine looking with a softer more pleasing look. Remarks about my hair being stylish with the highlites and bangs suits my softer face. These compliments shoke me to the core as to how Ladies network and speak thier minds.
wow my first ever blog entry i am hoping to tell my story to some new friends here but am terrified too . i have a wife, Angela, and a man who intends to make me the third husband that he has made into a cuckold. i have realised for some time that i shouldnt try to fight it but am at the beginning of my journey. i take heart from the people on the site and am determined not to be just a lurker, so i hope you'll help and encourage me xx
Today I worshiped my goddess. My tongue brought her to orgasm. She squirted. I was in heaven.
For the last few days, we have had "communications" problems. While I have been thinking about chastity for many months, it is new to her. She is insecure about how things have changed. This has led to difficult feelings.
This morning, bliss returned. We woke feeling deeply in love and connected. I held her for a long time. We kissed. My cock strained in the cage. I nursed her. Sucking her soft, full breasts, I was in heaven. Then, she put me between her legs. Her shaved pussy is the epitome of beauty. My tongue danced with joy. Her body began to tense. I felt her orgasm. Soon she exploded, squirted into my mouth. I was in heaven.
Last night my sub who i have given the name Aching Prince due to his cock cage suprised me yet again. I thought I was prepared but I also know he had more to tell me than he was letting on. I made him lock himself in his cage and put on the white panties he had bought the night before. I went round and he was all ready for me! Looking beautiful! As soon as we were in his bedroom I took of my jeans and baggy jumper to reveil a Lacey bra and pants and a pair of hold up stockings, his jaw hit the flaw then a huge smile spread across his face. I asked him to tell me a fantasy of his and he was hesitant and said he didn't have any more, I didn't believe him, I did explain to him that if he told me I might do it! He then produced some blue vibrating beads. I was instantly wet, that's been happening a lot this week. He said it was quite loud and would have to use it on a day when his house mate was out! I had just had a whole new category to blog about, anal! I asked him to get on all fours and arch his back, he was still in his cage, which had a condom over the top, I told him to take the condom off and it had cum inside, I got very angry as I thought he had masturbated before he put the cage on but I soon discovered that it was from him leaking so much as he was excited to be locked away in his panties! back on all fours I had a perfect view of his aching balls and his smooth ass and tiny ass hole. I spent a long time giving his balls oral pleasure and then moved towards his arse hole, licking around the outside getting close and closer to his hole, I dripped some oil around it and then used my finger to probe it slightly. Eventually I finger fucked his hole for a while, by this time I had removed his cage and didn't want him to come from that yet, save that for another time. I stopped what I was doing flipped him on his front and rubbed my swollen clit up and down his shaft. As he had been very good telling me about his anal fantasy,waiting for so long to come and the amount of leaking he had done whilst in his penis prison I aloud him to then shoot his load up over his chest, never seen him so satisfied!
There is no problem with texting My Lady about my where abouts through the day. This handy little device works very well for reporting any changes in my routine. There is also the benefits of being able to tell Her how much i love Her every chance i can.
Being controlled by remote is a very interesting feeling because it brings us closer. My Lady love to be in control and making sure everything is in it's place. When She pats my diapered bottom and says, how was mypets day?This makes me feelsecure and controlled but in a deep inner glow way. When we are out in public that little pat speaks volumes of Her power and control. Yes i'm very self conscious of the bulge and padding but the feeling of Her control is overwehlming.
Sometimes My Lady has given me instuctions to use the diaper for number one. The giving up of this control over my body was an internal release of stress by following loving orders of control. My Lady has the knowledge to use a catheter on me and take any control away from me but has not done so. Maybe one day i will have to ask permission to go to the bathroom by text and wait for Her decision.
angie and I had a "regular vanilla" day. Went to work, took the car to auto repair, cooked dinner. I have been locked all day. Wondering if this is the "new normal". I finally found a lotion that prevents chafe. Started using a smaller spacer for my cb6000. My next task is to use a smaller ring.
A few days ago I met, online, a fellow cuck. We chatted about our lives. His wife has a lover a few hundred miles away. They met (wife and lover) on the internet. She is going to spend the weekend with him this weekend.I am very happy for him. Nothing I desire more than to share his feelings this weekend. It makes me love angie more than ever. Life might go on, but my devotion for her grows.