This is a really beautuful deep feeling becoming a sissy always now. Before there were little flashes of excitment of day dreaming that were shut down because of not being exceptable. Now being a sissy is more mainstream not hidden away. Being submissive to My Lady out in public is very comforable now and honourable to me.
Most of my thinking is envolved in being dressed more like a sissy male. Making plans and designs for My Ladies home to make it Her palace. With a fully equiped dungeon in the basement!!! Her bedroom is near completion which is very exciting for me as the last items need to be chosen by My Lady. Then i will start on a beautful bright gourmet kitchen with all the extra's. With the big windows over looking the landscape gardens and hundred year old pines.
This will be a impressive home for My Lady to entertain who every She wishes to invite. By the time the house is close to completion my transition will be well on it way. To being My Ladies sissy house wife looking after all My Ladies needs. Now i take so much pride in being a home maker and a support sissy. My Lady loves and needs to be out front and controlling that is what She was born to do.
This is a really beautuful deep feeling becoming a sissy always now. Before there were little flashes of excitment of day dreaming that were shut down because of not being exceptable. Now being a sissy is more mainstream not hidden away. Being submissive to My Lady out in public is very comforable now and honourable to me.
Most of my thinking is envolved in being dressed more like a sissy male. Making plans and designs for My Ladies home to make it Her palace. With a fully equiped dungeon in the basement!!! Her bedroom is near completion which is very exciting for me as the last items need to be chosen by My Lady. Then i will start on a beautful bright gourmet kitchen with all the extra's. With the big windows over looking the landscape gardens and hundred year old pines.
This will be a impressive home for My Lady to entertain who every She wishes to invite. By the time the house is close to completion my transition will be well on it way. To being My Ladies sissy house wife looking after all My Ladies needs. Now i take so much pride in being a home maker and a support sissy. My Lady loves and needs to be out front and controlling that is what She was born to do.
My blog details my life through my writings and a few pictures. I love to write and will continue to do so. But, now you all get a hub for the videos I've shot as well. AEB KINK will feature femdom videos of me, auto-erotic raw play of me & it will feature my kinky friends as well.
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My Lady and me went out shopping yesterday for a regular outing. There were my business overtones though out the spree. With our shopping cart full to the brim at cosco. My Lady picked out the largest box of ladies depends and placed the box right on top. Like a beacon to myself the large pink box as i pushed the cart to the cashier.
Just extra protection for mypet My Lady said with a sweet smile. My Lady has a habit of patting my bottom to check to make sure i have a diaper on. The only room for the large pink box of diapers was in the back seat of the car , i was very aware they were there.
The big supply of diapers made me feel more secure in my relationship with My Lady. This is a form of control that My Lady wishes and it doesn't look like a passing wim. Like having Her property locked and controlled on as many levels. This does make me even more dependent on My Lady as She set the rules.
I got a call from Tom's wife today. She shared her concern about how much Goddess Vanilla and Tom seem to be spending together. White lying, I shared that I trusted in Goddess Vanilla explicitly and I didn't suspect them of doing anything. (I don't suspect them, I know their doing it.) I'll have to mention the call to Goddess tonight when she gets home from work. Crazy as it is, I don't want to lose the creampies I've been offered as they are my only source of sexual contact with Goddess Vanilla.
Last night after escorting My Lady out to a vanilla social meeting with town folks. There i could watch as My Lady takes command of the room with Her smile and bright eyes. The men in the room grab quick glaces of Her beauty and cheerful personality. My Lady makes me feel so proud when She has me escort Her out in public. Opening doors and waiting for My Lady is such a turn on for me.
When we arrived home and settled down i so much wanted My Lady. With my knees shaking i told My Lady i was affraid to have sex with Her because i can't hold off till She is fulfilled. That i'm a useless lover for Her and She deserves better. My Lady showed me compassion and understanding with loving caring touches. My Lady said that She needed me to cuddle Her and be Her sissy house wife.
My Lady said my progress in my feminization sissificationis doing very well. That She had full confidence to be My Ladies sissy in waiting as She takes care of Her career building. While i was snuggling my face into her back My Lady said the a high fence all around the property would be really nice to keep Her pets inside. After hearing those sweet words my sleep was tension free, because of the care My Lady showed me.
For the last two mornings, Mistress has given me orgasms. Yesterday she let me cum inside her (she said she missed my cock). The morning before that, she teased and masturbated me. Although i very much enjoyed the attention and sex, it made me a total wreck. I was unable to focus at work. Yesterday i went to work late and left early. All i could think about was having another orgasm.
Last night, i confessed my weakness and told Mistress needed to be locked and not allowed to have orgasms. She is so wonderful. She was understanding. i feel much better knowing that i will be allowed to worship her sex and not have an orgasm. I adore her with all my being.
Life is filled with so many ups and downs. i had been with my keholder since 2008, but on Sunday, she decided that are time together had run out. i'm not sure if i can win her back or not, but the following day, on Monday, i visited her and she handed me my keys back. The first few days apart are always the toughest, and this time it's been no different. On top of that, Sunday was my 18th straight day in my cb6000. On Monday, I had the opportunity to unlock myself, and treat myself to an orgasm that would have been not so enjoyable. However, since I was on a good run, I decided to stay locked up, and now here I am on day 21. So, I figured, it was going to be difficult without a keyholder to withstand masturbating on a daily basis. Therefore, I contacted a Mistress that I had developed a small friendship with. I told her about the situation, and fortunately enough, she was very glad to hold my keys for me. So, it's been a rough week, but in the end, I'm glad I dont have access to my cock right now. It's locked up and that's the way my ex-keyholder would have wanted it.
With the strongest desire to please My Lady pet gets so excited premature ejaculation is all i can offer for sex. Now i have become affaid of disappointing My Lady and when i hold back with all my might a painful orgasm happens. Then i just want to crawl under rock and hide because of the let down for My Lady.
My Lady deserves the best in life so She can do great things. Maybe the only solution is My Lady entertaining some male guest and cuckholding me. My Ladies disappointment with my sex is my biggest let down because i have not pleased Her. My Lady belongs to the world because of all the wonderful things has to She give others.My Lady is a leader in many peoples lives and a great care giver. If i can look after all the household and Her care to be as supportive which will release Her from any household responseblities. Her creative personality will grow to new levels of greatness.
After my blog yesterday My Lady was very interested in how i felt inside. At first i felt intimidated and vulnerable and all i was trying to do was to be well kept and groomed. Now i understand about unwanted advancements by a big ugly male. This almost made me feel dirty and took getting away from him to make me feel better.
Then i realized i missed My Ladies care and protection and wished She was there with me. When with My Lady i never thought about attracting unwanted advances as a sissy from males. This side effect is something i never thought about as my feminization transition takes place. Then to realize in a flash that some people are looking at me to have there way with with me is unnerving. This is a brand new way to realize how the sissy world can be.
After digesting some of the things that happened on Sunday. My Ladies shadow is a very comfortable and safe place for myself. When She found out that i had desires of being a sissy My Lady pulled me out of my closet. Showed me how to dress and trained my on my behaviour as a sissy for a new life style.
My birthday will be here soon. Mistress is going to buy me panties. We looked a the catalog and found thongs to wear over my cb6000. I am eagerly waiting.
Still having problems with the ring. Unless I use lots of lube, it rubs the skin raw under my balls. Did not wear it yesterday. Last night I wore it but woke up very hard and in pain. Mistress was very kind to me this morning. Caressed me, comforted me. Of course, I had to BEG!!!!
Part of my job is driving tow truck on long trips. This is one of the reasons chastity works so well in our relationship. My Lady has explained that She does trust me but if another Woman wanted me i would be defenceless. With my small male brain a Woman wanting me matbe able to lure me into doing something wrong. My Lady says that would be a weak male mind and my sissy training will protect me. Now i am fairly confident that i'm always under My Ladies control.
Yesterday i had a long tow call about four hours one way. The man was a big east european about 6'6" and 300 pounds. Always smiling at me and telling me stories about his home land. As it was really warm i was wearing my coverals. Had on a t-shirt that my bra out line could be seen and womans jeans. With my hair high lighted and in a high pony tail with little gold hooped earings. He made me feel intimidated as he would lean closer to tell me stories.
As the drive continued he would pat my arm to make sure i was listening . Then i would exknowedge by a nod and smile. Most of the time i really could not understand what he was saying. Then he started to put his hand on my knee. This was very uncomfortable for me as didn't smile or nod he removed his hand. That would last for a little while and he would be patting my thigh again, with a big smile.
My Lady is in control and i'm so blessed that She controls me. At first My Ladies little commands were hard to get use to. The ones i mean are sit up straight, wipe your lips and take your vitamins mypet. With My Lady being very consistant with Her training of control over me. Over the last year the changes in myself and finding i need Her constant commands to feel relaxed and calm.
Yesturday i answered the phone and My Ladies, Mother was on the phone. As i continued to work away on My Ladies bedroom i over heard My Lady telling Her , Mother how to deal with a problem at Her home. The commanding tone and delegation of authority was so impressive to me as My Lady explained how to deal with problem at Her , Mothers house.
Like in slow motion as i watch My Lady take more control over our lives. The better She feels as She becomes stronger and more confident with Her power over me. With every passing day i find more faith in My Ladies control over me. To take me to the place where i will be a better and feel right sissy house wife.
this blog is a diary of sorts. I have a chastized slave. her name is gina. i will be posting pics and video of our time together. I hope you all enjoy.
Feeling myself drifting into submission. My thoughts turn to serving and pleasing Angie. This is a big change for me because for 10 years I have been angie's master.
This morning I whispered a story to her. We were (still are) in bed. It was about her looking at me. Her eyes told the whole story. She was in control. I submitted by looking down. My heart felt full of joy and deep satisfaction, as i waited for her to speak. "What are you doing?" she asked. "Working" i replied. There was a long silence. I looked up, into her eyes. She lifted her head even further up... i hand not completed the answer.
When i'm allowed to escort My Lady out in public is such a thrill. Watching all the males trying to get close and speak with Her with thier flirts. Lastnight My Lady wore black leather high heels knee boots and knee length black leather tight fitting skirt. Top off with a white silk blouse and My Ladies favorite bling, She bring a new meaning to the word Goddess for me.
Observing My Lady work the room with Her flare and positive charge is a wonder to behold. So many males want Her as She holds me captiveand under Her control. The other Ladies just want to talk to Her and net work because She looks and is a winner.
Being so grateful My Lady chose me to mold into Her personal sissy house wife. Now i get a sexual rush when i go to open Her car door or wait behind Her as She is talking with some one. Then getting a reward of being patted on my behind by My Lady to prove She owns me. Then at the end of a extremely long work day My Lady told me to remove Her boots, which was an honour as i looked up at Her looking down on me.
When it comes to becoming a sissy for My Lady i always get a full body rush. That glow that tingles though to my core of mental emotions that make me feel right. Being in the supportive role in our relationship has really made me grow and leave most of my male habits in the past. Now each morning i'm very excited about getting up to begin my day! With every full work day in building the things we need to live our life style give me new energy and a spring my spirit.
Watching My Lady grow to become the Woman She always should be with Her creative talents. My Lady love to help others and She can do that from a good home where She has no worries or concerns. With a controlled and devoted sissy house wife looking after Her needs. When My Lady is up and in charge i have the most wonderful feeling of fulfillment and satisfaction.
Last night My Lady put me on skype with Mistress J away at universitylast night with me in my night gown. So pleased to say we chatted like two girlfriends about our day. To be excepted by My Ladies Daughter as Her sissy is a real feeling love and caring. These Ladies are so open minded and honest with the acceptance of my desire to be a sissy. Then Mistress J invited us up to visit for a weekend and outings. My Lady was standing behind me enjoying the connection between Mistress J and myself.
