10/02/07
Wow! Came in my knickers whilst fucking Julie with a strap-on! Felt amazing.

Was still feeling very horny whilst Julie was asleep – so I masturbated into a glass dish and drank my cum with half a glass of orange juice.

11/02/07
Ate Julies pussy and then slipped dinky in!!! I came within 2 minutes and then cleaned her pussy with my tongue!!

13//02/07
I dropped Julie round her mums, then she joined me round the flat a couple of hours later.
We had a great time and I ate Julies pussy for ages before we made love slowly and comfortably in our favorite lazy position – of course, I was wearing a strap-on, with dinky left in his knickers all curled up nice and snug!! I didn’t cum in my knickers, so once Julie was satisfied, she allowed dinky to pay a visit! To be honest, I don’t think she felt me much and with her permission, I came after about 2 minutes. She then laid back and enjoyed me cleaning her mess up with my tongue. This seems to please Julie and it looks like I will be doing this for her when ever she grants me permission to cum inside her! I don’t mind as I just love making her happy!!

14/02/07
Valentines day!!! But Julie became quite ill with a bad cold/cough. Shame, as my glass funnels that I ordered off ebay arrived today and I was going to surprise her with them later! She likes me eating my own cum after I masturbate but seems to prefer using our plastic funnel rather than the glass dish – so I have bought a glass funnel so she can enjoy watching my cum slide into my mouth! Oh well, it’ll have to wait until another day.

15/02/07
Julies so ill that she phoned in sick today. Im horny as hell but cant really mention this right now! Had a little fiddle but wouldn’t allow myself to cum. It just made things worse and its at times like this that I wish dinky was locked away so he wouldn’t be such a distraction!!

16/02/07
Julies still poorly and had another day off work. I’m feel in proper frustrated !! had another major fiddle in the evening – Julie had gone to bed leaving me playing poker – but couldn’t bring myself to cum. Its becoming a very inbuilt thing now, I just will not let myself go without permission. Done a little more research into “tease and denial” online. I hope I get brave enough to share some of this with Julie as I’m sure she would like it and find it enlightening!! It sure turns me on!!
17/02/07
Julie is still ill but fair play, she was still up for going to the flat for the night!

I finally showed her the glass funnels and she was pleased with her gift!! I took her too bed around 1am and she had me eat her pussy for half an hour before dismissing me!!

I teased my self for about an hour and sat on a dildo for a while. All of this meant that dinky was left a little dribbly mess dying for a deep satisfying orgasm! I needed release, so I videoed myself cumming into my glass funnel and swallowing the lot – I don’t think I will ever learn to like the taste!!
I watched the video, and for the first time, saw what Julie sees – I looked absolutely pathetic. It made me even more grateful for the undying love of my wife.

18/02/07
We got up late today and as Julie is off today and theres no school next week, we decided to stay another night –bonus!!
We had a very sexy and lazy day despite her still feeling poorly. When we went to bed, Julie blew my mind. She spent ages teasing my cock and then gave me a blowjob with a mouthful of wine – delicious!! Then she sat on my dinky and rode me all the way to a mindblowing orgasm – which of course I had to lick up afterwards! I think Julie is really beginning to enjoy this aspect.

19/02/07
Before going home, Julie had me eat her pussy for an hour before allowing me to pleasure my “tucked” dinky in my knickers – they were left suitably wet!

She then had me lock dinky away! It feels good to be locked up again as it has been ages!

20/02/07
I made the mistake of showing Julie a website that caught my interest “mistress taylor” – it’s a tease and denial femdom site! I had downloaded a couple of free clips from the site and she enjoyed what she saw to the point that she gave me permission to buy some full length clips! When we went to bed, she unlocked dinky and teased him for ages. She kept taking me to the edge and then backing off! Delicious! Then just as I thought she was going to let me cum, she stopped abruptly just as the first drop appeared!! Too late, I had reached the point of no return and the rest of my cum dribbled out, but my orgasm was killed and it left me incredibly frustrated!! But as frustrating as it was, I don’t hold it against Julie as I want to make things as much fun for her as possible. I also suspect that after a couple of ruined orgasms, the next “real” one will be amazing!

21/02/07
I was so horny today that I started fiddling with my locked up dinky. I was able to get a stimulating rhythm going and although I was soft and locked, I still came!! I enjoyed it at the time, but it left me feeling very guilty.

11/03/07
Got back from snowboarding in Norway today, it was a good trip but im now horny as fuck!! I haven’t touched my self in a sexual way at all whilst away – let alone had a wank!!

12/03/07
Last night was just kisses and cuddles as I was knackered after all the travel and delays yesterday. Tonight, however, I took proper care of my gorgeous wife and fully appreciated her sexy body!!i haven’t cum for 8 days now and dinky was fit to explode. But after eating her pussy and giving her plenty of orgasms, Julie wanted a good hard shag or to simply be cuddled. She let dinky in for about 2 minutes and it felt amazing. After 8 days, dinky is very responsive and sensitive with balls full to the brim!! There was no way I could give Julie the fucking she craved as I knew that after one or two good hard thrusts, I would be making a mess everywhere!! Julie wouldn’t let me cum in her pussy as I wasn’t in the mood to lick her clean! I guess if she wanted my cock bad enough, I would have been cumming deep in her gorgeous pussy – how times have changed! She then offered me a choice; I could cum in my bowl or wait until she wants me to cum! It was hard but I chose to wait – im glad about that as cumming in my bowl is kind of mechanical and its better when im allowed to cum in her pussy – or when she makes me cum by other means – to be honest, even cumming into my funnel is better!! Shhh!!

13/03/07
We had an early night but Julie was tired and only wanted cuddles! I was desperate to cum – 9 days now! I tried to gently arouse her but it didn’t work! I didn’t complain as all I want is her happiness. When she wants me to cum, she will let me know. Its getting hard now and I can hardly bear to touch myself for fear of hooting my load!! I really do think that although in some ways its “only” been 9 days – it is probably then longest ive gone without an orgasm since my early teens!! And dinky has become quite a dribbly, leaky toy!!

14/03/07
Man I am so horny! Day 10 now! Julie teased my cock to the edge a couple of times before requesting that I serve her pussy with my mouth. I made her cum a few times, over about half an hour I guess, she loved it! afterwards, she let dinky pay a short visit but that made her very frustrated as I could barley move inside her for fear of cumming – she insisted that I didn’t cum! So with a lack of movement and, although with a raging erection, a lack of inches, she grew bored very quickly! I loved it though, her pussy felt gorgeous and amazing to my ultra sensitive dinky!
She then took me in hand and I really thought I was about to be granted orgasm – instead. She took me right to the brink and I was a split second away from orgasm when she suddenly stopped and let go – it was too late, all I could do was watch my wasted cum dribble out onto my belly with no orgasm. It was the most disappointing and frustrating sensation ever!! Julie had a lot of fun though and that is the important thing.

15/03/07
Day 11 – still horny as fuck!
We downloaded some more clips with Julie choosing some of the titles!! We chose a selection from “tiny cock teases” and “tease and denial”. Julie seems to like these clips as they give her ideas and my arousal is evident! We bought seven clips and we are taking six of them to the flat to watch at the weekend. But we watched one in bed and I thought my luck was in! Julie was tired and after a 30 second fondle of dinky, she rolled over to sleep leaving me frustrated and aching for her.

Its strange going this long without cumming and quite frustrating but at the same time, im really glad to see Julie growing in confidence and slowly learning to enjoy this power she has over me!

16/03/07
Day 12!! And what a night!!
We settled in to the flat for the weekend and when we went to bed we watched a couple of our clips. afterwards, Julie seemed to enjoy taking control of my cock. She teased me to the edge mercilessly letting me believe many times that I was about to cum only for the moment to be snatched away! She wore a black latex glove with plenty of lube as she masturbated me fiercely – at some points, it was actually hurting but I felt I couldn’t say anything! When she finally allowed me to cum, it was simply amazing and totally worth the wait!! It was an intense feeling that left me shaky and breathless. Then after a few seconds of letting me recover, she grabbed dinky again and started pumping for all she was worth – this was both agony and ecstasy as I was just so sensitive it really started to hurt! Eventually I managed to get the word “stop” out and she did, with a wicked smile on her face!

We went to sleep shortly after this and I drifted off very loved up! Tonight, Julie went totally without and focused purely on me!! – amazing!! She must love me so much.

17/03/07
Had an awesome day, we chilled out and relaxed in the bedroom all day. Julie treate me to another orgasm after teasing my cock for ages – it was a “forced” orgasm in so much as she hadn’t given me permission to cum so I was trying not to for fear of it being ruined but she forced it anyway wearing disposable latex gloves!
We watched TV for a few hours before going back to bed, when, I totally took care of Julies sexual needs. I ate her pussy to multiple orgasms before she started playing with dinky again. She had me put on my cum stopping piercing before sitting on my cock!! She seemed to really enjoy riding me knowing I dare not cum! It felt great inside her and I really wanted to cum, but knew it would hurt too much if I did! Then she jumped off dinky and told me to tuck him away in my knickers and strap George on in his place – ouch!! I had a raging hard-on so it took me 5 minutes to “cool” down and get tucked! I fucked her real hard with george and she loved it – cumming loudly!! It can be difficult seeing her enjoy me more wearing a strap on but at the same time, I know she needs more than little dinky!!

After George, she made me eat her pussy for about half an hour. Then she stroked dinky until he was hard and proud before bringing me gently to the edge a couple of times. I was getting really into it thinking it was my treat but then she stopped and told me id have to wait!! She then rolled over to sleep as I touched my frustrated cock – she didn’t like me touching it and made me tuck him away in my knickers once more – I slept like that after editing Julies first homespun clip – a simple tease that I’ll talk about another time.

18/03/07
Well, Julie seems to really like her gloves!! She selflessly gave me a wonderful hand job with her gloved hands! We went home shortly after as I had to cook a Sunday roast – mothers day and my mums coming round later.

When we went to bed, I went down on Julie until she was completely spent! She didn’t want her dinky tonight but she let me cum in my knickers whilst listening to her clip! It was a bit embarrassing doing it in front of her but I made the most of it anyway! – im still dying to make love to Julie even though ive had a couple of orgasms now!!

19/03/07
Tough night tonight – I think I’m having a bit of a moment. Julie had a nice lazy day today – lie in, no work etc and we went to bed early, so I thought my luck was in! she told me she wasn’t in the “mood’ – I of course saw this as a challenge and tried to turn her on by licking her pussy – it didn’t work. That’s when my head started getting messy. I know I do my own head in sometimes – but its difficult accepting that I no longer turn her on in a traditional sense. Its not her fault, if I was a hot chic, I don’t think I would be interested in a man like me! but my desire to make love to my wife just wont go away. I know I cant “fuck her brains out” anymore as denial and a lack of masturbation leaves me unable to last very long but im really missing the feeling of holding her tight and close to me as we both cum! I used to be able to make her want me in the same way just by slowly kissing her, but that seems to have gone now. I cant complain as I know I need to be grateful for what I do get but right now something is missing.. its like she will have me eat her pussy for satisfaction and she’ll have fun playing with dinky, but I just cant seem to make her “want” me. I know this feeling will pass but right now it’s a bit difficult.

20/03/07
Just a crap day really. Had a seminar in Exeter to run today that meant getting up at 5am! So I didn’t see Julie this morning. Got back around 3pm and as much as I need to talk, Julie prefers to act as though nothings wrong. I hate this part of our relationship. I feel quite low and in need or reassurance but thats something I seldom get – you’ld think I would have learnt that by now! I was proper tired so I left her to the TV and went to bed around 8pm.

21/03/07
Yes!! Made love to my gorgeous sexy wife! At last!!

We had an early night and kissed and cuddled, it felt really good, we made love slowly – I think Julie would have preferred it harder and faster! – and I knew there was no way I could stop!
I held her tightly as my orgasm gripped me and I came loudly and heavily – it was mindblowing! Of course I cleaned up after myself but it was totally worth it!i felt so content and happy afterwards. I don’t ever want to stop making love to Julie but when I wait a few weeks I do start worrying!

22/03/04
Just snuggles and cuddles tonight – yummy!!

23/03/07
Another night of cuddles – I never push for anything on a Friday as its always horny looking forward to our Saturdays at the flat and wondering what we might get up to!!

24/03/07
Dam Dam and double Dam!! Julie woke up to discover her period had arrived 10 days early!! We decided to take our youngest to the pictures tonight before going to the flat – well Julie decided!! We went to see “Hot Fuzz” – a very funny film.

We eventually dropped our son at home and got to the flat about 8.30pm we watched TV most of the night before Julie went to bed, I cuddled her before going for a session on the xbox! She gave me permission to cum as long as I kept dinky in my kickers and that I didn’t touch my self! She gave me the option of strapping george on and masturbating with it until I came in my knickers or I could rub my self on the corner of the sofa and achieve stimulation by the friction until I came in my knickers! I chose the later and it was mad, I really wanted to grab my self but couldn’t go back on my word so I drenched my knickers although it wasn’t a full on orgasm – but certainly better than nothing!!

25/03/07
We got up about miday and had coffee and breakfast before Julie went for her shower. Whilst in there I tied myself naked to our bed as agreed and was totally helpless by the time she came in! she saw me and decided to blindfold me aswell!! That was quite something! She teased me to the edge several times and then allowed me to cum – I soaked my belly!! And then she took my blindfold and restraints off and passed me the tissues!! I must admit, it really turned me on to be at Julies mercy like that! She told me after that she wasn’t going to let me cum but changed her mind at the last minute –phew!!!!

31/03/07 Saturday
Haven’t had sex all week and im dying to make love to Julie, my balls are fit to burst!!
We are at the flat and I have taken care of Julie and she has teased dinky for ages efore letting him cum!!

01/04/07
Had an amazing day in bed, I brought Julie to orgasm several times by hand before giving her what she needed with georges help!! Dinky was so jealous all tucked up behind 8 inches of strap on!! She later had me spend an hour eating her pussy before it was finally my turn!! She teased me for ages and kept taking me right to the edge before denying me, she told me I wouldn’t be allowed to cum today!! I begged her to let me fuck her and got told no way!! After a while, dinky was knackered and frustrated and she kept laughing at him as he went soft, then she laughed more as she hinted that she might like to sit on me but not unless I was rock hard. I tried desperately but without much success!! Then I realized that every time I was starting to get hard, she would stop stimulating me properly and at forst I thought this was by accident but it wasn’t!! she was now in control totally including my erection!!! She had such a wicked glint in her eye as I told her I realized what she was doing, then she made me cum all over my belly!! It was great to see her having fun and enjoying having me at her mercy but at the same time its kinda scary!! In know, I know, careful what you wish for and all that…….

Afterwards we just lay naked, chatting and caressing each other, when I opened my stupid mouth and made a suggestion for Julie, my new job comes with a sales target of 2 deals per week, so I suggested that I only get to cum the number of deals that I sell!! She loves this idea and think she may enjoy trying to stick to this rule!!

04/04/07
I ate julies pussy for her before she let dinky in fo a couple of mins, I wanted to fuck her but she didn’t want me to cum!! I could hardly thrust at all and she soon got fed up and frustrated with it and ordered me to stop. She then reminded me that I haven’t sold any deals this week and if I want any cummies at the weekend, I better get it sorted tomorrow as Friday is bank holiday!!

05/04/07
Get in there!! Signed 3 deals today!!!

Wow!! I cant believe that although I only ever wrote a few pages and stopped after a short while over a year ago, my blog is getting 300 hits a month!! Thank you very much to all who have stopped by – I didn’t even realize as this is the first time ive logged back in since I stopped writing. I started writing a diary a few weeks ago which I will publish shortly but first a nit of a catch up!!

Although this blog is about my chastity experience and fantasies its important that you know this path was discovered as part of my journey into accepting that I love girly things and wearing womens clothes and stuff – accepting and embracing this side of me has helped me sort allsorts out in my head about who I am and that im not “wrong” to enjoy different aspects of life!! Anyway I think that I sort of justify things with myself and try to appreciate julie for accepting me regardless – giving up control of my cock/orgasms seems such small price to pay and it is certainly making life a lot of fun!!

One of the things I have learned is that chastity is not just about the different toys/devices that you can use to lock your cock up with and give your partner the key, its about reaching a place where you don’t permit yourself an orgasm without permission regardless of restraints. This is where I think im at now, I haven’t cum properly without permission this year. It sometimes takes a lot of self control but I just don’t seem to be able to relax and enjoy myself normally without permission – its become an inbuilt thing now I guess. We don’t use the chastity cages much these days as I could never find one that was ok to wear through the night properly – sure I could go a day or 2 but longer than that causes too much loss of sleep for my liking!! There is, however, a full on steel chastity belt for about a thousand pounds that we both like and we plan to buy it late this year or early next year. It is total confinement with no room for any expansion so no more strangled balls!! Ill tell you more about it nearer the time, and if anyone is interested in the product - drop me a line and ill post a link to the site.

Any way, thank you all very much for taking the time to visit me here, and from now on, I shall start posting my irregular ramblings more often 

31/12 – 4/1

A brilliant New Year

I am over the moon that we continue to grow from strength to strength and my head is in a much better place than this time last year! We came very close to splitting up this time last year as I had so many issues to work through and couldn’t see Julie wanting to stick with me – I think I was just very confused. She has been my absolute rock through the last 12 months, watching me coming to terms with TV/TS side and slowly accepting myself for who I am. When I started trying on skirts etc last jan/feb, I would have laughed if anyone said I would end the year with my willy all locked up!! Mind you, I think if anyone had seen me in my skirts, they would have laughed just as much – I do look strange in my girly clothes!!

Julie and I have talked more and more over the last few days, realizing that some of the things we have discussed around chastity are simply going to have to wait until we can create a much more private homelife. – having children means everything has to be so discrete. But hey ho, only 2 kids left living at home so there is light at the end of the tunnel so to speak!! I love my kids, all 5 of them, but having had my first at 19 years old, I am looking forward to the time when I am left alone with jules.

Its time now to get on with things, part of the reason for locking my willy away is to leave me more focused and achieve more in my carreer – I have a top banana job with one of the biggest companies in the world and it pays real good but I hate it! I hate being a corporate whore and this is the year for me to start breaking free. I have a lot of ideas for running my own business and its time to start narrowing them down to a winner and going for it. I have always been confident, just to bloody lazy to get off my ass and make things happen – that’s going to change this year!! It has to as I want to make a successful business venture work so Julie can give up work (maybe we could end up working together?).

5/1

The cards decide!!

I am now in the middle of my first frustration of the new year and it feels quite delightful! We made love at least half a dozen times over new years eve and the following day or 2 but last night julie kept me locked in a pair of homemade chastity shorts that deny me all access to my cock! Julie seemed to really get off with me not even able to touch myself and I must admit she seemed to be able to let go and enjoy herself considerably  I love giving Julie exactly what she wants and with no desire for my cock, I made sure she came several times with my tounge and fingers!

Whilst Jules was at work today, I devised a game for her “let the cards decide”. I created a list of cards with suggested outcomes depending on which card is drawn! The odds are very much against me drawing a card that offers release of one sort or another and I suggested that she could make me draw a card when she has decided that she wants to play . Julie seemed to really appreciate this gift but after last night I was hoping she would put them away for another date and want to have my cock tonight – I got that kind of wrong. When we went to bed, she offered me a selection of cards to draw from ( I thought it would be a random card cut but she had decide to take the cards she wanted and offer me a blind selection) she offered me 7 cards and I didn’t know it the time but only one of the 7 cards denied me relief so she had been very kind in offering me great odds – but yes, you guessed it, I managed to draw that bloody card . The list of options for the card game are:

A BJ - to orgasm
2 no release
3 no release
4 no release
5 taken to the edge but
no cumming 3 times
6 no release
7 no release
8 no release
9 Handjob 1 min max
10 no release
J Handjob 3 mins max
Q BJ - finsihed by hand
K HandJob 5 mins max

I drew the 10 

When she showed me the other 6 cards, each offering relief I was gutted and Julie just smiled. She then told me that I could take my shorts off anyway as she wanted to have a little play – they came off quicker than you can say a real quick thing!! She asked me to put a piercing in, so I put in the dragonfly ring and she loved it, she told me that she was going to sit on my cock and I must not cum as the cards had decided – ouch! She road me for about 20 mins and at one point I was close to cumming and she looked me in the eye and told me “don’t you dare cum” and I knew she meant it. so I made sure I didn’t and made sure she came herself several times!! I think she loved me obeying her as her pussy was soaking wet with her own juices and boy oh boy did I want to unload!! Though to be honest some weirdness happened, as I brought her to her final orgasm, I felt like I was totally tuned into her and to the point that when she came, it was like I was sharing in her pleasure and it left me feeling satisfied and very happy, we cuddled for ages after and she loved that my little cock was still hard and gagging for more!!

6/1

I am now locked up again while julie is at work – it took ages to coax my cock into its cage as it is incredibly frustrated and the slightest touch is making it hard! Julie left me a list of things to do for her today which I will make sure I complete as im really hoping to be grabted an orgasm tonight – it is the start of the weekend afterall!!

24/12 – 30/12

Back on Track

Excellent, things are working out just fine again! Julie and I talked a lot to evaluate things and I realized that most of our recent problems are caused by my lack of patience!! – I do tend to get carried away and want everything in a rush whereas julie prefers a more slow but sure approach. I must have been on a real downer when I made my last entry and if your reading this babe, then im sorry!!

When I look back on our sex life, I realize that I have always been in control/charge and julie has loved being almost submissive in her approach – she has a huge sexual appetite – even bigger than mine! And I have always used my imagination and creativity to make sure she is satisfied. She has told me that she is totally up for holding the key to my cock and have me focus even more attention on her but that she does need time and prefers to take things slowly. I think that I was rushing to much in terms of wanting to make huge changes almost from day one but that’s simply unrealistic. So for the time being weve agreed that I will lock myself up and look after the keys, this means that I can let myself out for showers, sleep, masturbation(if I really cant wait!) and I have told julie that the pressure is completely off her and she can simply take possession of the keys when she feel like it!! I think this is a better place to start and she certainly feels more comfortable about things which is crucial to making it all work. Neither of us have visions of me becoming a “subby puppy” or her becoming some sort of strict dominatrix (though these elements may come into play for fantasy sex from time to time) we see it more as an extra spice, and an aphrodisiac – and boy does it work!! The feeling I get when pleasuring her all locked away and not knowing if I will be let out is just indescribable it makes me incredibly horny and by cutting out all my masturbation she always gets a full load when she does let me out!!

We are now in a much happier place and looking forward to a whole heap of fun next year!! Were going round for drinks with friends tonight and julie is looking forward to it knowing I will be locked away until later, I think she gets a kick knowing our little secret when were out and in company!! I just hope she doesn’t have too much to drink and decide to show me off!!

Was just about to upload this to my blog when I saw an entry in my comments section:
When I read the entry by greengrass, I initially felt touched that someone could be bothered to read all my stuff and then share it with his keyholder and must admit that he/they got it right about the patience part, however, it ultimately left me feeling pissed off!! Comments are one thing but where does it see “please give the author some advice”?. Chastity means different things to different people and from what ive read, no 2 adventures are the same. I have a very strong opinion when it comes to offering advice, firstly advice should only ever be offered when it is sought!! And secondly when advising about something as serious as chastity the advisor should have an indepth knowledge of the person they are offering advice to or they will get it worng!!
If I ever feel that I want some advice about how to run my life then I will talk to someone that I have built up a trust with and someone that knows me very well!! This has not happened so far in my life and don’t see that it will be happening anytime soon!! We are going on our own adventure and need no direction from others, we will make our mistakes and learn from them – it’s a lot more fun that way!!!

Right im off to do some ironing and house work whilst julie is at work, I want to make sure I get to spend some time with her pussy later!!

13/12 – 23/12

Where has it all gone wrong?

The next night (Tuesday) was more of the same leaving me further frustrated!

The next night was absolutely amazing and made the previous days frustrations totally worth it. Julie teased me again that night and eventually unlocked me and rode my cock to an amazing orgasm – when I came it was very powerful and I swear I saw flashing lights!! Julie told me that’s how it always is for her and that I should get used to it as that is how I will be cumming from now on – yippee! Or so I thought?

After we had cuddled she locked me back in my device to let the timelock software run its course.

Thursday night came and I had worked out that she had scheduled my release for tonight – excellent, what has she got in mind for me???

Diddly fucking squat. That’s what. She was looking at her watch and told me that she thought that she had set it to let me out by now – it was 9pm. – but it didn’t, so when I asked her what time she had set – she told me that she couldn’t remember!! She wasn’t just trying to tease me which would have been just fine – she geninley forgot!!

This upset me, I told her that I felt a bit let down that I had given her my cock yet she couldn’t even remember when she had planned my release for – I felt quite rejected to say the least! Eventually the software decrypted and let me out at about 11.10pm. not too bad I thought. Julie had drunk a bottle of wine by now so we went to bed with me thinking that we would have some fun – got to bed and julie told me she wanted to watch TV for an hour, I suggested something more interesting and she suddenly decided that she wanted to go to sleep!! In all our years together she has never turned me down due to being tired!! All this left me feeling incredibilly disappointed. I ended up going for a lonely wank downstairs that to be honest just left me feeling even worse.

With my state of mind I didn’t want to make julie feel under pressure and I done my best to explain my disappointment at her seemingly lack of interest in all this and then I gave her the device back. I told her that I could see she was struggling a bit with the concept and that she can feel free to lock me up whenever she wants to – when she is ready.

That was a week ago. The CB3K is now sat in the safe gathering dust just like all our other toys!

I am now at my witts end. All the closeness I had developed and the feeling that Julie was finally tuning into me and becoming my soulmate have evaporated. Its getting me down and making me sad and its 2 days to fucking Christmas! Throughout our relationship we have had an amazing sex life making love on average 4 or 5 times a week sometimes more! But in all this time, I have always been the one that has to initiate things. Julie has never once reached for my cock and told me she wants me – it is ALWAYS the other way round. So what did I expect from this new adventure?

For me it is a double edged sword. Firstly, I really want to experience the frustration of not being able to satisfy myself selfishly as I firmly believe that I will become more focused in all aspects of life, like doing more for julie round the house and performing better at work – a cock is a huge distraction!! Secondly when it comes to sex I was hoping that she might think about me and my needs a little more and make the first move from time to time.

But right now I simply feel that we talked and talked about all of this and Julie seemed genuinely excited and turned on by having control of my cock but after I went through quite an emotional time leading up to giving her my cock, she enjoyed it for a week or so but has now lost all interest and im fucked off.

Before the device turned up I had to go away on business and I had printed off a sexy story relating another couples adventure into chastity, she read it and sent me a text saying how horny she was and that she was proper up for it and that I had better make the most of my little remaining time with unrestricted access to my cock – I did, I had about 10 wanks that night – I just couldn’t leave it alone!!

Now I am back to square one. If I want sex I am going to have to initiate things and turn her on. If I want to experience chastity, I will have to lock my self up and play games on my own and that’s not a lot of fun and defeats the whole purpose of me giving her the ultimate gift any man can offer his partner.

So to sum up my experience so far:

We talked a lot and both decided that this is the path for us
I trained myself to be able to wear the device through the night.
I gave my wife my cock.
Julie enjoyed this for about a week.
She forgot what time she had set for my release –twice
She shows no interest whatsoever when it is time for my so called planned release
She wont talk to me anymore about all of this other than to say she is still interested in it all but is finding it difficult – no elaboration.
The device is now sat in the safe with no hint of it coming back into play.

My wife is selfish, or is it just me? I gave her my cock, she had a play with it and has got bored and given it back!!

Where do we go from here????? My head is now proper wrecked. And I feel lonely. I have now reached the point that if she does get it out and want to lock me up that I think I might end up telling her she is not worthy and she can stick the device where the sun don’t shine!! Whilst feeling that I would be totally justified in this stance I just don’t know where to go from here. I don’t want to spend another ten years making all the moves, making all the effort, making sure she is totally satisfied, letting her take additional lovers from time to time – all this without so much as a hand job from her. Our love life is to one sided and I don’t know what to do anymore.

i have decided to include this message that i have sent to a professional mistress. i think it gives some background around ,yself and my marrige. I would like to in the future post some letters that i have given julie but that will have to wait until i have her permission!!
The following may be deemed quite kinky to some people and if humiliation or BDSM holds no interest for you, i suggest you dont read any further!!

Hello Mistress Tania,

I really liked the feel of your site and especially the very detailed description you give of yourself. You are quite right when you point out that an awful lot of sites seem to be a full blown bdsm do as your told or else affair. I really like your approach of truly understanding your clients’ needs and tailoring things to accommodate these whilst pushing gently at boundaries!

At this stage I am not looking to immediately join or enroll for anything but have a more longer term enquiry.

I am married with children and have an incredibly sexy and insatiable wife! My friends are often jealous because we have been together for 11years and in the beginning we fucked on a daily basis – this has not changed in 11 years!! Over the years our (well mainly my) fantasys have led to all sorts of adventures including a vast array of toys and occasional swinging situations.

A little about me:

I consider my self to be highly intelligent and have constantly gone through self analysis all my life trying to work out why some kinky stuff appealls to me and early this year I took time out from my normal life to better understand my self. I have now come to terms with the fact that I am woman born in the wrong body. I don’t bother with labels such as tranny, sissy, cd, etc etc as when I research this online, I find that no one label quite seems to sum up how I feel! I have also realized that I have always been this way but it is only now that I have dared to fully admit it to myself as well as Julie (my wife). Whilst learning about my self this year I spent sometime dressed as a female (at home only) the clothes felt good but didn’t quite hit the spot. I have no desire to “out” myself as tg and Julie finds that thought horrifying as well! In her words, she needs to “see” her man. I am fully surportive of julies feelings and have no intention of pursuing any more dressing activities. However the biggest enjoyment i/we got from the exercise was when I went through a period of “tucking” my cock away. I got this down to a fine art with proper testicle retraction and a very firm tuck – originally this was simply to look better in skirts etc. but the real benefit was the feelings this state gave me. by denying myself access to my cock I found that I was becoming more attentive to my wifes needs and I felt that I was turning into a better person with more drive and focus because I was spending less and less time thinking about my cock! Our sex life did not suffer in the slightest during this, in fact if anything it greatly improved – I put this down to cutting out my masturbation which even with regular sex with julie I still had a tug around 4 or 5 times a day!

We talked for a long time about how I can maintain these feelings and become a better person without all the girly stuff and tucking. And we have found are solution. I am now in a cb3000 chastity device that julie holds the key to. This works on many levels for us, julie had no idea that I masturbated so much and is glad she is now in control of my erections and orgasms! And I love seeing the effect of having this control on julie, she is already becoming a more confident person in herself – something that you can only achieve when you do have this level of control. For me I just love it!! I have spent all my time with julie constantly seeking to satisfy her sexually and putting her needs before mine – this simply takes it to a much higher level. I have now started really opening up to julie about some of my deepest fantasys and she is loving it – nothing seems to disturb her! I have told her that over the years I have lost count of the times that I have been making love to her yet fantasizing about her humiliating me! I have no idea why humiliation turns me on but I have a feeling it stems from having a small cock! When erect I am only 5.5 inches! I don’t believe I have a hang up about this as I use it to my advantage to encourage me to keep finding new ways to stimulate her further – I have a pa piercing with many exotic attachments( im a bit like a vibrator!) and we also have a large collection of different types of cock rings for her – none of the cheap plastic leather stuff – metal only! Julie has always reassured me that as far as she is concerned the size of my cock is just fine! But I encourage her to call me “small boy” as this always excites me! also the bottom line is that whatever way we look at it my cock is below the average size therefore it can be classed as small!

I mentioned earlier that we swing from time to time, when we do this it only ever involves another man. Julie does not want to see me with another woman and I have absolutely no desire to go with another woman. Julie never could understand why I could see her with another man but was glad that it turned me on as she does need a fresh/bigger cock from time to time! She is gorgeous and if this desire arises we wait till about midnight, then hit a local bar and we are always back with a fresh man

Within the hour! We are very lucky that our finances mean that we can afford to keep an ex council flat that I bought as an investnment a couple of years ago for our playtimes! Julie now realizes that my excitement at seeing her with another man comes from the pleasure I get from humiliation. There is nothing more pleasurable for me to see my wife getting a bigger cock than I can give her – it is total humiliation! I love it!

Anyway starting to cut to the chase, although julie is turned on by all of this she finds the act of humiliating me quite difficult – I guess it goes against all the love she has for me? but it still turns her on! I described one of my ultimate fantasys to her which involved her taking another man whislt having me watch whilst locked away in my chastity device and possibly other forms of restraint, all the while pointing out to me how large his cock is, how much bigger and better than mine it is, how much shes enjoying it etc etc. I have told her that in that situation I would always be obedient and fully understand that anything she says will not be taken personally and all remarks and the whole experience remains in what we call our”twilight zone” we have never had a single moment of regret or any problems within our relationship as we leave any scanrio sex sessions we go for firmly where they belong – locked away and to be drawn upon to fuel our horniness!

The idea that I have to help julie understand better and feel more confident to humiliate me without risking hurting me would be to visit you as a couple! My fantasy that I would like to make come true some time next year is to visit you with my wife and have you provide the humiliation whilst julie is serviced by a very nicely hung man!!!

Is this something that appeals to you? If it is would you be able to provide a man? Or could we bring our own??

I obviously realize that there will be costs involved and from your website I fully understand that you would want to get to know me a lot better first, so if my request is something you would like to provide I envisage “signing” up a month or 2 before the agreed meet in order for you to get to know me as much as you want – you say you like intelligent and imaginative people – I believe I will exceed all your expectations.

Thank you for taking the time to read my ramble!

Small boy xx

Diary time

13/11
After a restless night I have awoken still scared and nervous. Julie and I have discussed nearly all aspects of my looming chastity and I love her to bits and do trust her deep down to look after me but im still so very nervous. We ordered the cb3000 Friday night and it has set my mind racing all weekend, its really brought things to life and im slowly realizing that I may have bitten off more than I can chew! I guess we’ll have to see. My deepest worry is that I wont get enough release which although is clearly part of the game I worry that over time if I don’t make love to my wife often enough it could end up eating away at me. The main reason I want to do this is to become a better person and deny myself the ability to masturbate. I believe this will leave me more focused in general and attentive to Julie’s needs. Julie is a wonderful person and incredibly sexy and we already enjoy an amazing if not a somewhat filthy sexlife but something she said to me last night has served to increase my nervous state. We normally make love around 10-15 times per month – sometimes more and some times less depending on our moods and I ALWAYS initiate things. Last night we talking about my being locked up and I mentioned that it will be difficult knowing that whilst she has her period, I will certainly not be having any release – but she then went on to say that to be honest I may have to wait a couple of weeks after her period as this is when she really gets horny and hungry for cock. This has seriously disturbed me. I am just not sure if I could ever make do with only being released once or twice a month. Im hoping that this wont be the case and that she will still love my cock just as much as she always has and that sex will still be a very regular part of our lives. I don’t feel I can talk about this with Julie as it is not my place to start looking for rules so I have started to write this diary as I need someone to talk too!!

15/11
Well my nerves have got an awful lot better now! We (well me actually_ decided that rather than wait for the CB3000 to turn up that we would start my training now! I wear a pa piercing and we also have a cock ring that Julie enjoys me wearing for the stronger erections it produces! So I bought a padlock and locked my self away. Its not very comfortable and although locked I could if I really wanted to remove it all and I am to worried about potential damage to wear it at night. Although this does nothing in terms of real chastity or control for Julie, it has helped me already become more focused. Its really weird but when im locked away I feel very safe and trusting in my wife - its when im unrestrained that my head starts playing tricks on me. to be honest I think all the stories I have read about this from others is what has left me all over the place so I am not going to research this subject any more, ive discussed this with jules and she is in total agreement with me that I must relax, trust her and enjoy our own unique experience.

16/11
Checked the wicked wench site and the order status is still “order acknowledged” so we still have no idea when the device is going to turn up. I find this frustrating I think it’s the not knowing that heightens everything and in a weird way it making me long for its arrival? Various attempts at locking myself away meanwhile are fun but doesn’t actually prepare me for what I will feel when Julie finally gets the key, I really cant imagine that one – I think it will be unique for everyone. I love seeing jules this turned on, haven’t seem this side of her for a while and its wonderful. Mind you this side of her has probably always been there maybe sometimes I need my eyes opening? After experimenting with using my PA as a locking point led me to some very interesting websites  and has given birth to a mad design I now have in my head, I drew from allsorts of other designs and now have the finished product (in my head) and I think jules will love it. I intend to sort out the little things like hygiene!! And make this much easier to wear for prolonged periods, and because I intend to utilize my own cock and a secure padlock it will give Julie 100% security !! I don’t think any plastic cage, or any other type of cage come to that, can ever truly do this as at the end of the day a hack saw will cut through most things. So if we both like this after a trial in the CB3000 then I will present her with my masterpiece and hand her the key to my cock for ever! Its late I should go back to bed now 
Arrgghhh just remembered that I have to go to the docs tomorrow to have a 10 year old piles problem looked at – I really don’t want to do this but Julie has told me that if I don’t, she will take me down there locked up for the doctor to see me – I aint havin that!!

27/11 – 4.30 am
Well what a mad few days it has been. The docs was ok in the end and I now have to wait for a letter from the hospital to go see a consultant – lucky him! Theres still no sign of the cb3000 and I suppose I am chomping at the bit and cant get it all out of my head so to speak. During this time me and jules have been talking loads and I have become very comfortable with the direction we are going, I no longer worry that she will suddenely turn in to a dominant mistress! Neither of us want that, we just want lots of fun and for me to become a better person re letter/contract to jules “acceptance”. Ive written a lots to jules and she has been brilliant and patient with me all the way. I think she cant wait to lock me up and it really could be any day now – I bought a steel chastity cage thingy from a local manufacturer and over the last couple of days I have been modifying it to make it comfortable and 100% secure. And I am finally there!! Jules is asleep and I am going to put it back on after ive written this and sttempt my first nights sleep in it – only plastis ties of course!

New experiences galore!! When I first put the metal cage (mc) on I was amazed at how comfortable it felt – to look at it looked kind of vicious – but in for a penny in for a pound!the first day I was to scared to even have an erection and I took it off before making love to jules and holding her whilst she drifted off to sleep. But the next night (yesterday) well we went to bed with me still wearing it and jules decided to have a little teeze – it was the maddest thing – my bell end and about a cm of shaft grew out of the end of the tube and enlarged to full size whilst the rest of my cock was trapped in the curved metal tube – this means that she can proper drive me whild and because the tube bends down there is no way out full stop! The sensation of her soft lips against my glans was amazing and so very frustrating all rolled into one, the thing that left me really worried was that it caused me no pain whatsoever and Julie really liked this torture!

Before I put my self away, and go try for the experience of waking up all confined – im dreading it!! But know I have to get past this bit.. ive got to say what another new experience tonight was!! I used my thumb on Julie just the way she likes it for about 2 hours and she was soaking I think she came quite a few times (bit chuffed withmeself) then we used a free gift that came with the mc. Its called a battering ram and couldn’t find any info on the net about it so it all felt very mysterious, any way its another cockring based type of toy that made my orgasm feel the most extreme it has ever felt kind of naughty but very nice! Again the confinement with in it whilst erect is absolute and I was nervous all night that it would really hurt me but it didn’t!!!! brilliant – I think this one is more of “my” toy than jules’s as whilst mega mad for me I think that because of the restriction j she actually ends up with less cock – I just hope that she sees fit to let me use it again once in a while!!

Last thing – I have made a resolution to get my act together with a dictaphone – I really want to capture this whole experience but finding time to write and being a pretty slow typist!! Makes it difficult.

Logged off, shut pc down, then decided to write a bit more down! At the moment I see this as my personal space somewhere I can talk without restriction – almost therapy I guess!! Any way please don’t be upset if your reading jules, but tonight before I put the battering ram on I couldn’t get it up for you at the required time!! And I wish I could make you see how much you could help in that direction!!! Ive told you stuff before and I didn’t want to say anything tonight as I know that I sometimes do your head in!! I think that what I need will probably come naturally anyway when I am under your lock but if not I will have to risk offending you and talk to you again!!! Im always horny for you babe but some times I am so focused on you ie the 2 hours of thumb without knowing if I was going to get to have my own release, can leave my cock tense and nervous and I will already have gine through several erections whilst turning you on – all this simply means that I cant just stand to attention when you demand it!! Sometimes – most of the time I think I can- its just sometimes when I don’t you could really help – you know I get turned on by all the sexy chat we have but that’s mainly when my cock is buried inside you, when giving you my thumb, I know you go to a private place and that you like me to be quiet and enjoy it – I don’t mind this one little bit just be patient with me when you do decide you want my cock – sorry actually you are always patient and you always get it in the end – twice eventually tonight I might add  but if after all that quiet time for me I need my imagination fueled by you to have a better chance of delivering my cock rock hard and straining for you when you want it you now what turns me on like if you had told me that you might as well just lock me up if im going to stay limp or im definitely going to have to get some fresh cock, I need to feel a good hard cock inside me and I will make you watch all locked up!! That would have done the trick!!!! Doesn’t matter weather you mean it or not its just all horny – all good!!!

27/11 7.30pm

Well that was all brilliant!! My cock is a little sore from the restrained erections but ive now survived my first restrained morning glory !! I think this was a major psychological barrier to break through as I now know I can do it!! I think Julie really enjoyrd it as well as when she woke in my arms, I knew that she was tired and not really up for our normal rampant Sunday morning sessions, but she loved me spooning her and satisfying her with my thumb! At the time it caused me severe discomfort inside my mc but after we had eventually got up and all was well again and my cock was just nice and comfy – it felt really brilliant knowing I had satisfied my wife exactly how and when she wanted - truly putting her needs before my own is a wonderful feeling – and I really have to admit that my last few orgasms are definatley much much stronger and longer so there must be something in all the hype ive read about giving up masturbation, I love it.

Going to try wearing the mc all night again tonight – this is probably going to hurt a lot more than this morning as I was really turned on this morning without release and I know were just going to have a cuddle tonight so I anticipate a maybe bruised bellend in the morning and ive told jules that I might have to go a day or 2 without wearing it after tonight – shes fine with that but I just hope I manage to avoid temptation!! Never mind im sure my cock will recover and get used to it all quite quickly and then I suspect Julie will do away with the plastic ties and put the lock on!! That’s going to be a very interesting day indeed!

29/11
Well, an interesting couple of days! I couldn’t wear the mc the other night after all – when I went for a shower, I noticed that the bolt that I had put through the end of the tube was a bad decision! It was zinc plated and caused a bad reaction to the tip of my foreskin. It wasn’t to bad and a night with some savalon soon fixed it but a lesson learned indeed. Any way, that night jules got her period and my cock was a bit sore and covered in cream so sex was not on the agenda – even though I was feeling horny as hell. I wanted to make jules feel special and loved so at bedtime, I surprised her and brought a few towels, bowl of hot water, her sponge and some femfresh up to the bed room. She loved it, and spent about an hour with my thumb. I turned the lights out for her and kept as quiet as I could, and I think she really liked being brought to orgasm running free in her OWN fantasy world! I felt really close to my wife and it felt amazing sharing something so special with her, it was like she was “letting me in”. when she was satisfied, I washed her and then cuddled her until she fell asleep – it was lovely.

It totally confirmed my decision to pursue this road and see what happens as this was the first time for a long time that I satisfied my wife whilst on her period. In our early days we used to just ignore her periods and carry on regardless but for the simple sake of the “mess” we don’t usually bother with each other at these times. So tonight was a total bonus!

Yesterday, I wore the mc all day again and was still wearing it when we went to bed. I was quite uncomfortable by then after having to suppress many erections. I held Julie in my arms and could feel the mc touching her ass – my cock was straining with jealousy!! I offered to repeat the bowl and towel adventure, and of course she smiled and said that would be lovely! By now, I reckoned on having pleasured Julie for around 4 hours altogether since my last orgasm Saturday night – so my cock was going ballistic all confined in the mc – I was feeling very frustrated but chanelled all my energies into julie’s satisfaction. After I had satisfied her for about half an hour, the most amazing thing happened; Julie asked me if I wanted to be let out – of course I said yes. She slowly masturbated me until I was hard and then she started sucking my cock, I thought she was teasing me and expected her to stop and lock me away again or worse, make me finish myself off into a glass and make me drink it!! But she didn’t! she told me I could cum and within seconds I did!! I came loads and Julie took it all into her mouth and swallowed the lot – I couldn’t believe my eyes, she totally blew me away, I couldn’t move and was left speechless! Julie has probably only ever done this maybe 2 or 3 times in all our years together!! Its never been an issue because she more than makes up for it in allsorts of other ways and ive always put it down to simply not liking the taste and I respect that. She always been happy sucking me but its only really been as part of foreplay and that’s always been fine. But for Julie to do this for me whilst being on her period, well gobsmacked just doesn’t some it up enough! The only way it could have been any better would have been if she had let me tske off my cock ring aswell! You see something I am only just beginning to realize, is that in some way I have been chastised and putting Julies orgasm before my own for many years. I have a pa piercing and wear all sorts of jewllery in it for jules’ pleasure and I often wear a steel cock ring. The cock ring delivers amazing erections for jules whilst giving me some discomfort – the pressure builds up on your balls. Also julies favorite pa piece is a 4mm curved bar bell with a 12mm ball on each end. The bar part of it is about 2mm short of what it needs to be and can become a little painful during sex. The bar part also reduces the size of the urethal opening. So basically when I cum like this, the build up can be immense, long, painful and strong, but once the cum has started to “flow” so to speak, the orgasm kind of blows itself out because it hurts and I simply cant squirt it out quickly enough to maintain the sensation of a strong orgasm – it just kind of goes pop! I guess im kind of kinky because I love it all the same, it just sometimes leaves me aching to make love to Julie with no metal!! This is and always will be my most pleasureable way to cum and often I will make love with Julie all night whilst restricting my own orgasm until she is fully satisfied, but by then its sort of about me and ive already cum maybe 3 or 4 times and im pretty well spent! So it never quite hits the spot. so the best case scenario for me to have my favorite orgasm is to make love to Julie with no metal and enjoy the sensation of her pussy on my cock with no pain or other distractions and I reckon we probably make love this way maybe 2-3 times a month and they are always wonderful experiences!! Even when Julie finally locks my cock up for the first time, I really think we will still have a very active sex life and I will still get to make love to jules lots and lots but with all the toys we already have and a few more that are in the pipeline I think I could end up going quite long spell between naked cock sessions – THIS is the true chastity part for me and I think Julie knows this

Oops, rambling again!! Back to last night: after telling jules how wonderful she is I held her again until she fell asleep. I was determined to wear the mc all night and manged to get it back on, I awoke about 4 or 5 times with painful erections and finally at about 6 am I went to the bathroom to check myself out – there was some friction type marks causing mild discomfort sort of on the underside of my shaft. I figured this must be where the metal tube was digging in and decided to give up wearing the mc to sleep until I resolve this issue – I have a feeling a cb2000 that ordered for Julie, in pink I might add!!, may turn up tomorrow!!

Im now sat in my hotel room after attending a works thing, been cool actually – went clay pigeon shooting for the first time, and I am about to go to bed; I cant believe that I haven’t masturbated for about 5 or 6 days and I honestly believe I can go to bed now, think of my lovely wife and leave myself alone! This will be a first, ever. Even though there will be nothing to stop me, I just feel that after last night, I owe it to Julie to keep myself for her until SHE needs me again. It would feel sort of like cheating her if I masturbated tonight – so im not going to. Now the morning, well that’s a different matter altogether!! Only joking!!

30/11
Cant believe it! I actually managed to go the whole night without touching myself!! Another first experience!! Im now round the flat having picked up my brand new shiny pink cb2000!! Ive put it on and just cant believe how comfortable it is, if I had had the patience I could have saved my bits from all that hassle ive put them through over the last couple of weeks but hey ho!! It feels real weird because with all the other stuff including the mc, I had it in the back of my mind that because it caused discomfort and sometimes hurt me I was in control in so much that I felt justified in taking it off – now I don’t!! Im picking Julie up from work later but she will have to wait till later for her surprise as my dad is coming to tea!!! Also, julies cb3000, my triple cock ring and gates of hell have all turned up today!! Once the kids are in bed and my dad has gone it could be an interesting night – certainly this weekend could be a bit mad!!!

2/12
Oh boy!!
Well my dad never left until about 10.45pm the other night so by the time we went to bed, jules was proper knackered and just wanted to get a good nights sleep!! I was so frustrated. I wore the cb3 to bed and experienced my first real restrained erection and boy did that hurt – I got all paranoid that I had broken him!! After that I had to take it off – by now jules was asleep – I went down stairs and waited for the pain to go. I then masturbated – I was gutted after as I felt I had betrayed jules and I didn’t confess as I didn’t want to make her angry!! 2am I put the cb3 back on and went back to bed. I managed to fall asleep but each time I awoke between 1 and 2 hours later with a very uncomfortable feeling between my legs – but nothing as bad as that first time – maybe my cock is learning?

I wore it again all day yesterday and by the time we went to bed I was positively dripping in pre cum! I gave Julie a back massage followed by a session with my thumb, she reached the point where she was crying out to feel my cock inside her but when I told her it would take me a couple of mins to get out of the cb3 and then get re-aroused – she told me to forget it and carry on with my thumb – I did!! My cock was trying to swell all through this and Julie seemed to take pleasure from my predicament! After satisfying her with my thumb, she then wanted my cock for which I was extremely grateful, but she did make me wear my steel cock ring and her favorite pa bar so although I had great sex – I couldn’t actually feel my orgasm so it left me very frustrated. I wanted to take all the metal off and make love to her with my naked cock so that I could experience the pleasureable sensation of cumming deep inside my wife. Of course I respect my wife needs so rather than push this issue and risk upsetting her – I held her and watched as she drifted off to sleep.

I slept without wearing the cb3 or any thing else round my cock and when I awoke, I was horny as hell and felt an overwhelming desire to masturbate to get the relief that I crave – I didn’t want to be weak, so before taking jules to work, I told her the way that I was feeling, she appreciated my honesty, put the lock on and took the keys with her to work!!!
It feels totally different than plastic ties as although I haven’t been taking it off at will I always had that option – now I don’t – feels mad!! Im going to try and keep myself as busy as I can: A. because I need to take my mind off it and prevent to much discomfort and B. because I want to make Julie happy so that she may take it off me later!!

4/12 midnight Sunday

Amazing weekend!!
When Julie got home from work and she could see what I had done for her – some shopping, cleaning and ironing – she told me I was a goodboy!!i liked that. That night, I pleasured her and eventually she allowed me to make love to her, it was awesome!! She let me leave it off to sleep and then she locked it back on before we went shopping.

I took it off for a shower Saturday night and that was a welcome break!! I made love to her after a lot of cuddling and stroking but she mad me wear the battering ram and her fave pa. well I say made but I did offer!! This hurt quite a lot but the was no way I could stop as I was loving it at the same time and craving my orgasm. I came but again this restricted orgasm failed to hit the spot!! but was very nice anyway!! About 15 mins later she let me take her with my naked cock – it was feeling a little battered and bruised and her warm soft pussy felt amazing.i enjoyed this orgasm very very much but I was a little knackered and sore to prper enjoy it. I then gave Julie about an hour of my thumb to show my appreciation.

She locked me in again Sunday morning after I had showered I am still locked up without release tonight despit Julie enjoying my thumb!! And right now I don’t know when I will next get any – it feels mad. I really want to go for it this week but at the same time I don’t want to get on julies nerves, so we are playing a game with timelock. Its very simple she has written a message decideing my fate tomorrow night and timelock has encrypted it until 10 pm tommorow and I have no idea what she has written but I have promised that I will play by the rules and wait for timelock to open and follow her instruction even if it is simply to remain locked up whilst she leaves me another note for another 24 hours!!

Any way the sex aside, I am really enjoying learning more and more about my gorgeous wife – I don’t think I fully realized what a distraction my cock is!! Im now paying a lot more attention to her and this is beginning to lead to a greater understanding of the person I want to spend the rest of my life with 

6/12
Im falling in love with my wife all over again! Entering into this life style is the best decision I have ever made. I am starting to really get to know jules on another level and we are constantly discovering new things about each other. In some ways it feels like we are having a secret affair with each other - mad!
Yesterday morning, Julie phoned in sick and we both went back to bed, Julie mad good use of my thumb before unlocking me and taking my naked cock – it was a wonderful feeling, I could really feel my orgasm and it was simply delicious. 10m mins after I had cum, jules led there gently stroking me hard again and then rapidly brought me to orgasm by hand – another rarity! It was great to see the look on her face as I still came loads. I can really notice the difference in the strength of my erections and orgasm scince losing the ability to masturbate. And Julie is certainly feeling the benefits!

My note in timelock last night was “who knows? make me an offer.” So I offered her a massage followed by my thumb and then my naked cock, she liked my offer and we had another lovely evening, I have never felt so close to my wife! I put the cb3 back on afterwards and tried once more to go through the night, I awoke through discomfort at 3 am – managed to regain control and then slept to 5.45 am – it was too much by now and I caved in and unlocked myself. I put it back on as soon as I got up and Julie has locked the keys away and gone to work so I have no choice but to remain locked until tonight when I will see her next note/instruction. I think that due to the amount of sex we have been having, that she may want a night off tonight – that will make it harder to get to sleep that’s for sure!!

9th dec fri night/sat morning

Well its now been a whole week that I have not been out of julies sight unlocked!! All in all its been an exciting week for both of us! We are still having lots of sex which is great but I spend most of my time locked up now. I had my first shower locked up and protected the lock with clingfilm. Its was a humble experience but I did get everything nice and clean I have also now survived 24 hours locked up so I have told Julie that I consider my self trained in terms of getting the right size ring and spacers etc and that I can get through the night with it on – she rubbed her hands in glee!! She is going to her party tomorrow night and im picking her up when she phones me to take her back to the flat – were planning a major session but I still cant help worry that she may “forget” her key – ill be gutted!!

Sat night/sun morning

Well she didn’t forget the key!! She had a great time at he party and when we got back to the flat we chatted until about 4am!! 4 hours of chatting to my wife – its great. It seems like Julie is slowly taking over and im enjoying seeing the spark in her eyes!! In some ways even though its only been all kind of fun so far and im getting plenty of release, it feels like our sex life has already changed and that there is no turning back!! Julie is really getting into my thumb now my cock doesn’t keep getting in the way – in fact im getting to know her pussy so well with my thumb and satisfy her in a totally different way to before that im beginning to realize that I could end up locked away quite a lot! Maybe more than I even realize. I don’t think I will ever ever regret it though!! Weve talked so much and we have always had a great sex life and neither of us feel as though we are entering into a sub/dom lifestyle – we both simply know that my little cock will always perform better now I have cut out my 3 or 4 wanks per day! We have always been scenario sex addicts mainly led by my cock and its desires and we have always had many adventures where I like to call the twilight zone and we both see this as a new and exciting adventure with Julie controlling my cock allowing us to do things her way now!! But yes – I think we may go to our twilight zone from time to time where there will possibly be some roleplay expected of me and I will always comply. The amount of sex thaqt Im used too makes it difficult to imagine going a week without release let alone say a month or more but again I have told Julie that from an experience point of view I know I will love something like that once in a while whilst hating it at the exact same excited time!! Any way enough for now,

Jules finally let me out and had me put on my teardrop cock ring and her new pa dragon fly jewllery. It hurt but iwas pretty desperate by then as julie had been teasing me al night by dangling the key in fronmt of me but not allowing me to touch it!!she even let me cum inside her though I was hurting and restrained so much I couldn’t feel my cum. After further satisfying her with my thumb I then took her with out the cock ring on and just before I was about to cum again, she made me put my cage back on – it hurts. I thought she was going to go to sleep but oh no, she then decided that she wanted my thumb for another half hour – man did my cock hurt, I was so jealous of my thumb right then, she had locked up a very nice erection in favor of my thumb! Well that told me!

Oh man no sleep for me, taking my cock from Julies pussy and locking him back up before cumming was the hardest thing to date!! Were playing with some fun timelock software and the combination to a locked box holding my key has been encypted – I have one and a half hours to go then I am allowed to waken my mistress!

Its really mad, julie has always got off on my imagination and where it has taken us but it used to be all about what I and my cock wanted – now she still seems to love my imagination as it now takes on the form of fuelling her own thoughts for fun ideas and games!! I so love jules and im really enjoying slowly sinking into her ways.

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12/12

The fun and games begin
Well this is a fucking tough night!!
Last night jules tormented my cock for ages until it was really hurting – I knda liked the pain at the time-then she unlocked me so I could sleep easy. I was good and didn’t even touch myself but iwas really frustrated!!
Tonight, when I was going for my shower, she produced her key and unlocked me telling me I could have a really good clean – I proper thought my luck was in as my cock was free and had had a good clean already today sp I assumed she wanted it clean for her – how fucking wrong was i? she made me put it on again after my shower but I still felt confident as the key was in her pocket and made it an easy option, so maybe she would just tease me a little and I might get some action? Not a fucking chance!
She had me thumb her to orgasm after locking her key away in her little box! This is a whole new experience for me – the first time I have gone 2 nights without so much as a decent ercection let alone a fucking orgasm!! Right now I have no idea if I like this or not!! My head is playing all sorts of tricks on me and I don’t like it! We talked lots before we got the device and I was extremely confident through her reassurance that she loved my cock and I always make her want it!! That’s certainly been the case through out our marriage. Now though I seem to have gotten so good at pleasing her with my thumb that she really doesn’t seem to want it!! I feel like ive totally fucked up as I still really crave the feeling of having my cock in her pussy. I don’t want to really cut down the amount of times that happens – ive even bought her loads ofnew metal cock toys recently but one go then its back to the fucking thumb!! Shes never actually requested any of them at all!! She just wants my thumb!! I hope I haven’t bitten off more than I casn chew? I thought julie was really on board with the fact that simply cutting out all my masturbating and knowing that I was under her lock and key would be enough for her but no, she seems to want to really deny my orgasm. Well this is all new to me so I will just have to see how it all goes. One thing I have proper proper learnt tonight is that from now on im keeping my gob well and truly shut – I have always loved talking dirty with julie and sharing my fantasys in the vane hope that it turns her on – but now its just leaving me feeling worse when im left with all these images inmy head and no fucking release!! Its no fucking good so im going to have to start counting sheep or something stupid when shes in the mood for my thumb!!

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck what the fuck am I doing?

Man I should never have gotten so good with my thumb. I cant believe im beginning to resent my thumb. Its ridiculous.

It seems pointless even fantasizing now? It just gets me all worked up and horny, then sore and irritated, frustrated and feeling shitty, so whats the fucking point? If I cant share my fantasys with my darling lovely wife then it all seems so pointless? I just want to make my wife happy but I want orgasms as well?

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

i have started keeping a diary of my recent adventure into chastity and have decided that i would prefer to write it on line. I intend to give a full insight as to what goes on in my mind during this entire adventure and if you are considering chastity for your self you may find some interesting thoughts within - or not!!