Mistress informed me last night that my now "refreshed" grooming (completely hairless below my eyebrows - except my forearms) is now to be self maintained forever.  Tonight i will be expected to provide Her with the best foot worship session i am capable of and i may be permitted to cum to the manipulations of Her feet.

Mistress has previously informed me that i am no longer to be permitted intercouse.  Her training and conditioning of me has accepted that as a fact and i am no longer permitted casual feeling of Her breasts as well.  i now accept that the proper way i am to initiate "love makinng" will be to start with the massaging, licking and sucking of Her feet and toes.  In the event She wants any penetration, i am only allowed to use Her favorite vibrator or only my tongue. 

At first, i thought that when Mistress told me that She decided that i was no longer permited intercourse, i thought that was a new "kink" She added to make me desire Her more and that She would want me before much time had passed.  In fact, the last time i was permitted intercourse was 10-2-02 and i have been limited to only making love to Her in the way She feels it appropriate for a slave i.e. vibrator and tongue.

She has added "toe-boy" status to me i.e. had me maintain red polish on my toenails from time time.  During this time i increased my toe licking and toe sucking skills to provide relaxation and amusement to Her.  After the comical novelty wears off, the more humiliating aspect is driven home in that She limits any sexual contact given to me except by that of Her feet and toes.  i hate being reduced to toe-boy status and have refused often to cum preferring to retain whatever vestige of dignity that i have left.

Clearly, i have lost any of the priveleges a Real Man enjoys.  Worse still is that i admit to being cuckolded in the past, much to Her pleasure and amusement.  Now, i am vertually certain She is about to demand my toe-boy marking to be re-instituted along with my cb3000 cage.  The combination of these, i know provides a very severe mind-fuck to me. 

Her training and conditioning of me is real.  i feel much the way that Pavlove's dogs much have felt in their training.  At first, it was fun and exciting but as i realized that She realized the benefits of Her domination over me, i knew that She could extend Her requirements as She may wish.  i began to have sincere second thoughts as She indeed continued with Her journey.  Now, i am about to be given the best sex, according to Her, that any toe-boy can ever hope for, a "foot-fuck".  She told me last night that i still do have the option of refusal but that would only mean that i would not get ANY sexual release but the choice would be mine.

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