Today was a hectic day.  This is day 16 continuous for me, which might not be that long but for me is a personal record.  I should also point out that right before my initial lock up we had sex together but I quit after a few minutes because it was really late after a long night at the dance club and she wasn't feeling too good from too much drinking.  That was the last penis contact I had, inside her over two weeks ago, without any happy ending.  Make no mistake about it, I'm getting exactly what I've asked for and fantasized about many times.  Of course when I would fantasize about this in the past, it was a fantasy that concluded in minutes in a rather messy fashion :)  .

My kh commented to me today about how nice it was last night before we went to sleep that we lay together and snuggled and since she had me locked up she didn't have to worry about me talking her into doing something more.  That kind of talk really gets me.  I tried my best to channel frustration towards constructive activities like getting needed stuff done around the house that needs doing. 

I've been very frustrated today and anxious feeling in general, found myself feeling somewhat aggressive also at times.  She fixed that real fast for me.  In the past when I felt like this it would have ended with me taking my frustration out on her for no reason, hurting her feelings and apologizing hours later and feeling like the jerk i acted like.  Today was a little different to say the least.  I explained to her that I was tense frustrated and aggressive feeling but didn't want to be a jerk and asked her to help.  She stuck a overnight pad in my panties and told me that I was now on the rag, and to keep getting cleaning the bathroom and do a good job.  As she said, hard to feel like the big man with a pad wedging up your ass while cleaning the toilet.  As usual she is right.

All this is taking a little getting used to for both of us. Surprisingly I think she is a quicker learner than I am about this even though it was my idea initially.The strength of our relationship is the amount of trust we have in each other, which makes all this possible too.  I coudn't willingly being submissive to her without trusting her as much as i do, or as she likes to say, now were both even.    For years our relationship has been 180 degrees from this, but not for the better.  We both saw this as a way to improve our relationship in many different ways for both of us.  My very sweet, caring, and selfless submissive wife for years is metamorphisizing before my very eyes into a sexy assertive lady who while she indulges me quite a bit refuses to allow old destructive habits to stick around, and will even use my kinky side against me at times :).  

 To sum it up,  I'm horny as hell, frustrated beyond belief, and loving my wife for demanding the respect that she deserves from me.

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