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Written by admin (maid lexis*)
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It all started as a masturbation fantasy. I liked to imagine my wife had control of my cock. I even went so far as to order a CB-2000 and pretend like she had the key when she went away for the weekend. I would work up these elaborate fantasies about her controlling my dick and get off like crazy. I started playing with her bras and panties and even went so far as to fill up balloons with water and stuff her bras with them. She found me lying on the bed with my "tits" in her bra and my locked up dick in her panties. I am not really sure what compelled me to do these things even though I knew at the time it bothered her and pissed her off that I had more elaborate jack off fantasies on my own than I did fantasies with her. The idea of chastity was a real turn on as well as being bitched out and being a slut when I jacked off. I'm a real pussy because I could be a big man when it came to telling her what to do all the time but I couldn't admit my true self to her. My true self is that I really like for someone else to be in control and tell me what to do. I like to act like the big alpha male but I'm really not so much. I have a real sissification fetish that I haven't really come to grips with. My wife likes to kid me all the time about being gay, but I don't know. I think I'd really rather watch her take a big cock while I wore her underwear and was all bitched out. I am not sure why that turns me on so much but I guess it doesn't matter. I like what I like. I like the idea of being all bitched out and locked up while she does whatever she wants. I am not sure I want her to actually fuck someone else but I can't help but be turned on by the idea. She loves to talk about how many chores and stuff she wants me to do. She laughs when she talks about all the stuff I'll be doing in the next few months from cleaning up the house and garage to decorating to the nines for the holidays. I guess I'll be a busy little bitch for the next who knows how long. She says I deserve it for being so bossy and withdrawn from these activites before, that I have a lot of catch-up time. When the steel belt comes in I guess I won't have a lot of choice. Right now I am so hard up I can't imagine what I'll be doing for her then. As it is I am rubbing her legs and feet, catering to her every night. She says that I am still more concerned about trying to figure out ways to get off than really being focused on her and I guess she's right. Every time I do anything I am hoping that it will be what pushes her over the edge to letting me get off that night. She says I need to be doing it just for the "joy" of doing it, whatever that means. I guess it will take time to figure that out. Once the belt comes in I'll have nothing but time to figure out what she wants and how to give it to her without the focus always being on me and my little dick. My wife says I am not honest enough with myself and that she knows me better than I know myself so she helped me be straight with this first blog. I am a very lucky man to have a wife who knows what I am and what I need. She says that any comments are welcome. Trackback(0)
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  written by Katrin Thomas, November 24, 2006
written by Katrin Thomas, November 24, 2006
Since you have used HER bra and HER panties and as your Mistress knows about your fetish you might ask HER to get your own sissy underwear which you want to wear at all times from now on.
Oh, i nearly forgot ... ask HER permission to shave off that ugly body hair. Of course we all would like to see pictures of your progress. hugs maid katrin
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Oh, i nearly forgot ... ask HER permission to shave off that ugly body hair. Of course we all would like to see pictures of your progress.
hugs maid katrin