slave Journal

October 14, 2009

Today, I feel only the bliss that one who is loved can thoroughly enjoy.  Last Saturday i was ordered to again be immediately caged, hairless and painted.  Fellow male slaves refer to this as receiving the Royal Fucking Treatment or while in "polite company", it is simply called the "Royal Treatment".  This is because there is no way possible for a male slave to quickly or easily escape the markings i now bear. 

Mistress has discovered that by keeping me caged and hairless, i adopt a more cooperative attitude and behave accordingly.  This improved attitude and behavior is a very real part of slave training.  To say that i pay Her more attention is an understatement.  Worse for me still, is that i recognize O/our relationship is better and has functioned more smoothly while i  am so marked.  Logically then, it should be an easy adjustment for me to make, for the sake of U/us but it is not.

To really undergo slave-training is difficult because, on the one hand, the dominant does not want to inflict pain or cause harm to the submissive they truly love.  The submissive, on the other hand, really must come to grips with the fact that they are being trained/programmed to respond or react in the manner the dominant truly prefers.

Her methods are slow but certain.  To date, i have resisted to fully accept my toe-boy status.  It is embarassing to show Her how turned-on i get by showering Her feet with such devotional activities and this in itself, amuses Her.  Yet i admit to the feeling of Her heel on the back of my neck, or Her foot itself, sends me deeply into sub-space and i become immersed into my subservient role.  For any male to show his excitement while being stimulated with a simple flick of a foot would be bad, to be trained to accept  a "Foot Fuck" as the best manner in which a toe-boy  be permitted to demonstrate his love to his Mistress is absolutely appropriate.

 i grant that the very best reward a toe-boy could ever hope for,  would be for his manhood to directly caress the objects of his attention.  It seems to me that Mistress is in no hurry to grant any release to me any time soon.  i am so horny right now that i can barely keep my sanity.  Yet, i am beginning to realize that  perhaps the best i might expect is no better reward than reserved for the very best toe-boy. 

Indeed, it is ironic that She would now actually enjoy giving me the female dominant partner of my darkest fantasies.  It is no longer a mere fantasy but rather a cleverly calculated training program that has me practically begging for the slightest effort from Her to provide me with much needed sexual relief.  All i could possibly offer is a very sincere caution to others is to be very cautious and careful in asking for what they may think they want...you may actually get it!

It used to be that when i read about the power a chastity cage could give to a woman and how they could turn it to their advantage, i thought it was little more than a male's masturbatory fantasy.  There is also truth in the power of panties over a male...and stockings too!  i am living proof!  Mistress has used both to intimidate me in the past and no longer put it past Her to do so again.  Both have been put in my underware drawer in the past and reminded me that i could be required to wear them again at any time of Her choosing.  Believe me, i am no longer living in a fantasy world.  i really am a slave to a Mistress/wife who (fortunately, for me) loves me.J

Mistress's training has been diabolically clever.  W/we started out using a Mistress/slave contract and have not updated it for years.  It has long been O/our understanding that i am to be denied those pleasure any Real Man comes to take for granted.  Although She has used no whips or chains in Her manipulations, i am bound tighter to Her than if i were to have an entire coil of rope around me.  Her feminine wiles still are used to tease me and Her occasional verbal commands still rule my thoughts.

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